I know I said I wouldn't be posting in a while but... All your wonderful feedback inspired me to write this chapter... I hope you enjoy it...
Anna listened to Elsa's story with a combination of horror, and pity... Worse, the more she listened, the more she started to hate her father... Something she thought wasn't possible but honestly... How could he say such things to his own daughter... To Elsa? Sure Elsa might be... different... but she most definitely wasn't a monster... They had spent only a week together and even in that short period of time, Anna could see that her sister was anything but a monster...In fact, Anna had never met anyone as caring and as endearing as her sister... So it was extremely painful for Anna to see Elsa call herself that...Like she really truly believed in the negative lies her father had accused her of being... Quickly she tried to wrap Elsa in a hug but bit her lip uncomfortably when Elsa, once again jumped away...
"Don't..." she warned fiercely sounding frighteningly animal like... This time enough to make Anna recoil while giving Elsa a look that indicated both hurt and fear... Why was Elsa still so afraid of her? Couldn't Elsa see that all she wanted to do was help her? Elsa on the other hand was thinking the same thing... Why did Anna keep lunging at her? Couldn't Anna that she was doing her best to keep her safe? She was a beast! A savage animal... Why couldn't Anna see that? The last person to push that thought aside... paid a heavy price for it... and the memory of that caused Elsa to cringe with self-loathing. Seeing the look her sister gave her, Elsa felt a tug at her heartstrings...
"I don't want to hurt you Anna..." she whispered weakly looking at her claws... Knowing exactly the kind of harm they could do to if she wasn't careful... She wanted so badly to be loved and embraced by her sister... but to hurt another person she loved was more guilt she could ever hope to bear...
"You'll never hurt me Elsa... I'm nothing like papa..." she heard Anna say reassuringly and quickly shook her head...
" You don't understand... I'm dangerous..." she protested.
"Elsa you can't possibly believe what Papa said was tru..."
"No! It is true... What papa did... It was for my own good... I've hurt people... He was only doing what was best for me..."
Anna felt her heart crumple as she looked at Elsa's tortured expression... What had her father done to her sister? It was like he raised her purely to hate her own existence... She had never met anyone in her life that inflected that much self-induced misery as Elsa... How could Elsa still come to care for him? After all that he did to her...
"Elsa... You don't honestly believe that don't you..."
Silence filled the dining hall... before Elsa nodded slowly and tried to exit the dining hall... Unsatisfied with Elsa's answer and not wanting to be shut out again for God knows how long... Anna ducked past her sister and blocked the doorway.
"We're both not leaving until you tell me why..." Anna said firmly although her legs were trembling like crazy... Elsa TOWERED over her and could have easily swatted her to a side if she really wanted to and when she saw anger enter those already fearful cyan eyes... Anna really thought Elsa might actually do it... However, the beast only sighed before fearfully backing into a corner...
"You won't forgive me if I tell you... Please Anna... I'm just trying to protect you..."
Elsa whispered as her cyan eyes filled with tears. She quickly recoiled further away when she felt Anna's warm hand on her shoulder.
"Elsa...You don't have to protect me, I'm not afraid..." Anna reassured but Elsa only closed her eyes and shook her head feverishly.
"You're going to hate me... You're going to hate me so much... Please understand..." Anna heard Elsa whimper as the beast seen to shrink into herself... and for a moment Anna was almost ready to let the matter drop... However, she wanted Elsa to learn that she couldn't always run from a situation and that being her sister... Anna was just trying to help her...
"Elsa... I'm never going to understand until you give me an answer... Please just tell me..."
Silence...
"Elsa... I'm your sister, you can tell me anything and I won't run away..." and Anna smiled when Elsa finally looked her in the eye.
"Promise?" she whispered like a small child.
"I promise..."
There was a sigh... Before Elsa slumped to the ground, her voice barely audible...
"I was twelve, probably thirteen... And none of us knew that my body would start... changing... That I would bigger...More monstrous... My fangs grew sharper, so did my claws... My emotions were out of control... I...I was snarling, growling and God... Those days... Those days were the most frightening times of my life... I felt like I was losing control of myself... like I was losing my mind... Papa was even ready to cage me at that point... and I couldn't stand it... I didn't want to be caged... Not like some animal... I felt like... I felt like I was some vicious pet mama and papa couldn't control and wanted to get rid of..."
Anna bit her lip...
"Go on..." she encouraged.
"I had to get out... I didn't care anymore... I had to get away from all of it... One day, while Mama and papa were yelling at me... I got so... angry... I felt like I wanted to rip something apart and I was afraid that I... I was so afraid that I was going to hurt them... So I tried to escape... break down the door but papa stopped me... He came up behind me and grabbed my shoulder... He spun me around and proceeded to shake me violently and scream terrible things at me…
About how I was a monster... an animal... A disappointment..."
Anna felt tears well up in her eyes when she caught sight of Elsa's own tears streaming down her face... and when she brought her hand up to gently pat Elsa on the back, the older girl exploded into sobs...
"I DIDN'T MEAN TO DO IT... I really didn't... The only person to ever really care for me... and I hurt her... I HURT HER...As papa was shaking me... Mama tried to stop him just as I tried to push him off... My claws they... They ... They landed on her neck... Papa... Papa was right... I was dangerous... I am dangerous... Mama... She nearly died because of me... Died at the hands of her own monster daughter..."
Anna was really crying now...
"Elsa stop... You're not a monster... You were only a child when it happened. It was an accident... Just an accident..." but Elsa continued as if she hadn't heard Anna's words...
"I didn't see her for months after that... and papa took drastic measures to ensure nothing like that could ever happen again... My claws were cut... almost to the skin and I was tossed into the dungeon for what seemed like forever... I deserved it though... I had hurt mama... I'm a monster... Just like papa said I was..."
Anna felt her chest throb with pain as Elsa looked away shamefully... as if she had expected Anna to react the same way as her father had... Anna shook her head... no wonder Elsa couldn't trust someone like a normal person... Their father had literally trained her into believing she was something truly monstrous... A beast to be feared... When she clearly wasn't... Elsa was just a person desperately starved of love and affection... Anna tried to imagine a twelve-year-old Elsa being thrown in a cage... Being treated like the animal her father claimed she was... and it was heartbreaking...
The silence of the room stabbed Elsa like a knife... She didn't know what possessed her to reveal so much to Anna but she was now absolutely certain her sister despised her now... How could she not? She had hurt their mother... A sin worse than any she could think of... She lowered her head, unable to meet her sister's eyes... She didn't deserve her sister... She didn't deserve anyone... Elsa hugged her chest as she heard Anna stir beside her... Probably to leave... Run away... considering she now knew the harm Elsa was capable of... Elsa bit back a sob...
"Why are you crying demon? Monsters don't feel... They hurt people... and all you ever do is hurt people... You were a curse to papa's existence, you attacked mama... It will only have been a matter of time before you do something to Anna..." a voice hissed in her ear and Elsa couldn't help but agree...
Taking a deep breath, she turned around, ready to face whatever cruel words or punishment Anna had in store for her... She had expected it... She deserved it... What she didn't expect was Anna suddenly lunging at her and wrapping her in a tight hug...
Elsa's eyes widened while every single fiber of her muscles contracted and stiffened at Anna's sudden and unexpected embraced... This was literally the last reaction she had anticipated from Anna... She had expected her sister to hate her, leave her, berate her but this? Had she not learnt anything? Didn't Anna know that she was dangerous? Elsa's eyes didn't even dare to blink, not even once... Her mind was racing with panicked and unfamiliar thoughts... She didn't know what she should do... She didn't even know why Anna was embracing her... So she remained frozen, not daring to move a muscle or even twitch an eyelid from the sudden strong contact… Which... was actually too much contact for Elsa. This was most physical contact she ever had since she was forbidden to see her mother... and it felt... nice... Like she was wanted... Like she was loved...
"No!" Elsa's mind screamed.
"You don't deserve to be loved! You are a monster remember? A dangerous monster! Get away from her before you hurt her!" and with that, Elsa tried to wriggle out from Anna's arms... but stiffened some more when Anna's grip only tightened.
"Papa may believe that you are a monster... But I don't... and you shouldn't to...Please Elsa... You're my sister... Learn to trust me..." she heard her sister whisper.
It took Elsa a full minute to process those few simple words... before felt new tears well up in her eyes... Of all the people in the world... Anna wanted her... HER... A hideous beast to trust her... It was more that she could ever ask for... It was something she could only dream about... but it was actually happening and Elsa felt her spirits soar... Slowly, with her paws trembling uncontrollably, Elsa lifted her arms and before she could stop herself, carefully allowed herself to gently return her sister's hug...
"I trust you..." she whispered...
Yeah so the last few chapters have all been angsty and gloomy but I promise the following chapters will all have actual sisterly bonding, sunshine and positivity :) I hope you enjoyed this chapter and please leave reviews because I went out on a limb to write this chapter.
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