the long road- the past will haunt you part 2
that night there was a big party and almost every charter of the sons was there to welcome Lorene into the family. Kozik was sitting on the roof of the building and was able to look at everyone who were celebrating. then he set his eyes upon Lorene. who of course had all the attention from almost everyone. he smiled. he knew that it was probably a bad thing but he really just wanted to be able to talk to her, have some drinks and laugh together. He took a sip from his drink and took a deep breath. Then he suddenly heard a noise coming from behind him. He turned around and it was jax. Kozik smiled and turned back to looking at the people. Jax sat next to him and offert to refill his drink.
' Hey, I was wondering. She told us the story of her and tig but how did you too meet? I mean, I can see that you have feelings for her but how?' jax asked him. Kozik smiled and drank his glass empty. He filled it again and looked at Lorene.
' she is the reason why I'm here, right now.' Kozik took a deep breath. ' when I was around twenty years old I was addicted to drugs, cocaine. I was in real deep shit. No house, no money to afford anything exept you know. But that one night she walked by and just like a snap took me in her house, not telling me why, or what she wanted from me. I still don't know why, she wouldn't tell me the truth but all I know is because of her I found a way away from that fucking stuff and a " normal " life.' Kozik exhaled and took another big sip of his drink. Then he turned to jax who was a little bit in shock.
' so, because of her, you're alive? Well that means that she really means the world to you, right?' kozik smiled and looked back at Lorene, who was now talking with tig and clay. She was smiling and kozik could see she was happy being here.
' The only thing that I want for her is that she's happy. I know she's save, hell, nobody can touch her without permission. But from what I have seen it that I just want her to smile.' Kozik grinned. ' that's all that matter.' Jax looked at him.
' does tig know about how you feel about her? Or does she even know how you feel?' kozik shock his head.
' tig doesn't know, but I did tell her in a kind of way right before I left for the marines. But I don't think she remembers.' Kozik turned to jax with a serious expression. ' don't tell anyone about this oke? You can tell them about how me and her met but please just keep out the details about my feelings. Oke? ' jax nobbed.
' I wouldn't tell them. You can count on me.' Kozik smiled.
' you can go back to the party, I really don't care at all. ' jax patted kozik on his shoulder and walked back down to the party. Kozik took another sip of his drink and realized he drank a whole bottle of wiskey. He smiled when he realized that jax left his bottle of vodka with him. He grabbed it and the last thing he remembered was taking a big sip.
Kozik's eyes snapped open. His body coffered in sweat. What the fuck was going on, I know that feeling! He looked around the room. Then he saw Lorene, she was young again. Maby this was a dream. Kozik looked around again and then it started, the voices. Herman…. What are you doing? Don't you want to feel good? Kozik's eyes wided. He looked in his hands. They were coffered in white powder. He jumped out of fear and tried to wipe it of his hands but it just kept flying up. He started freaking out even more but then someone grabbed his hands. He looked to where the arm came from and it was Lorene.
' hey, your awake. Are you oke?' Lorene looked him in the eyes. He blinked a few time and then looked at his hands. There was nothing. Everything had disappeared. He looked at Lorene. She smiled. ' it's going to be ok.' She grabbed both his hands. ' you just have to hold on. It's painful but you can do it herman. I belief in you.' Kozik looked her in the eyes. She let go of his hands and hugged him. He was a little shocked but then hugged her back. When they loosened the hug he looked her in the eyes. He wanted he so bad. He though. he put his forehead against hers and he then closed his eyes. Her eyes wided a little.
' h… herm…' but before she could say his name he kissed her soft on the lips. Her eyes now fully wided but a second later she slowly closed them and kissed him back. Kozik was surprised but he love it. her hand got from his back to his chest. When they broke the kiss she backed up a little. Kozik looked down at his bed.
' I… I'm sorry Lorene… I , I didn't know what I was thinking. You're happy with Alex and I don't want you guys to split because of this stupid incident.' He looked back at Lorene, who was as red as a tomato.
' I… It's oke herman. We'll just… forget about it.' She got up and walked out of the room but when she got to the door she turned her head to him and smiled. ' And you could use a shower.' She opened the door and walked away. Kozik blushed and tried to get up but then everything became black again.
Kozik opened his eyes. Another dream? He put his arm over his eyes. The light that was shining was hurting his eyes. He tried to get up but his head was hurting him pretty bad. He looked to the side of his bed and saw an empty bottle of vodka. Kozik turned his head back up so he could see the ceiling and got up, walked to the bathroom and turned on the tap. He filled his hands with some water and splashed it in his face. After that he got dressed and walked to the bar. He saw juice and chibs were asleep on the coach with a girl laying on both their laps. Kozik grinned and sat down. The only ones that were awake were the prospects and clay. Clay smiled.
' Good party last night, right?' kozik smiled and took a shot of vodka.
' it was a great party. But I don't remember very much of it. ' kozik laughed . clay patted him on the back.
' jax told me about your past with Lorene.' Kozik's heart skipped a beat. Shit, did he tell him everything? ' it's pretty fucked up knowing that a member's ol lady is the savior of your life . If I would have been you I would have married her and started a family.' Kozik sighed. He wished. But suddenly Lorene walked into the room. Both clay and kozik could see she had a hang-over. She was wearing tigs vest and some underpants. Kozik smiled. Even though she kind of looked like shit she was still hot as hell. Clay laughed.
'rough night sweetheart?' clay asked her. Lorene smiled.
' yeah, a little. I think a drank a little too much.' Clay laughed. Lorene turned to kozik. ' hey herman, do you have a moment?' kozik looked at her.
' um… yeah… sure.' Kozik got up and walked after her outside. They sat down at the table. Lorene looked him in the eyes. She smiled soft.
' I… I didn't see you last night at the party. Where were you?' she asked him. Kozik smiled.
' I was at the roof. I didn't really feel like I wanted to party that much.' Lorene grinned.
' then why were you looking at me for almost the entire night?' kozik's eyes wided. She had seen him look at her the entire night? Kozik wanted to say something but Lorene was faster. ' it's oke herman. You don't have to be like, I'm super sorry and all that. But you can just come to me next time too.' she smiled and walked back inside. He put his head in his hand. It was just so hard to keep this mask up. But he knew it would never be that she would choose him over tig. Even if he put his heart on the table, she wouldn't accept it. He got up and walked back inside. He needed some coffee, breakfast and liquir.
END CHAPTER 3 –
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