AN/ I would like to remind you all that English is NOT my first language so there WILL be mistakes. I'll try my best but I swear that once you folks that speak English as first language write a whole Dutch story without ANY mistakes I'll try and erase all my mistakes. As for those who wonder why a girl and not a boy our two, that is my choice (plus I bet that seeing Tony with a cute little girl would be so damn cute 3) I really don't want to seem like a bitch (and kinda feel like a short tempered bitch) but writing in English is difficult enough as it is.

Prologue

'McGee!', Yelled Gibbs as soon as they returned in the bullpen.

'Yes boss?'

'If I hear such disrespect or insubordination again I'll have your ass. For now I'll just write you down.'

'Yes boss', McGee said, not completely happy with the dressing down he just got.

'What have you found Probie?'

'Vasily Arkadi, Russian arms dealer, arrested seven years ago in Philly, just got released from prison, his only visitor was a guy named Vladimir Bobrov, also a Russian arms dealer.'

'I know what they are, Bobrov was his second when I came around, the guy was not happy about becoming second, he never trusted me and swore he would figure out what I was up to.'

'Did they?', McGee asked.

'Well, no McGenius, I'm letting you do this because it's fun and we don't have anything better to do!' Gibbs placed a calming hand on Tony's shoulder and looked at McGee.

'What else have you got?'

'Once out of prison he went off grid, I'm looking for him but I have no luck this far.'

'What about Bobrov? They probably picked up where they left off, if that's so then they'll be together.'

'Haven't checked on him yet.'

'Then do so.' McGee looked at Gibbs if he agreed but Gibbs just stared at McGee.

'Right...on it.'

'What's going on Tony? You seem to know these guys, how dangerous are they exactly?', Ziva asked.

'I used to be on first name basis with them Ziva, when I was still in Philly I was asked to do a long during undercover operation, due to circumstances I needed the money so accepted the mission, I went undercover as a Russian arms dealer and got high up in their organization.' Tony ignored the snort McGee let out when he said he went undercover as a Russian arms dealer and finished his story. 'The plan was to bust them all on the big get together, the whole gang would get together exchange rumors, weapons, women and god knows what else. The plan was that I would be arrested together with them all, but it all went to hell, because of a miscommunication I got made. A whole lot of shit happened after that, Arkadi swore for revenge,' Under his breath he muttered something like: "that's exactly what he got..." 'And I have no doubt that Bobrov will help him.'

'Why now?', Ziva asked.

'Your going to have to tell them Tony, you can't keep them hidden...It's wrong for them and for you to begin with but it will hinder our investigation.' Gibbs almost had to laugh at his own advise. What is it he had been doing for all those years?

'You don't understand boss... I can't, they were all I had, it hurts to talk about them', Said Tony with tears in his eyes.

'What are you talking about?', McGee dared to ask.

'About my family McGee...my wife and daughter.' McGee and Ziva remained quiet. They couldn't believe that their partner once had a wife and daughter! They had heard wrong!

'You don't believe me.' It was not a question but a statement.

'I don't blame you but it's true, I had a wife and a daughter,' he said with tears in his eyes. He took a deep breath hoping to calm himself down. Tony knew he had to tell them but it had cost him all he had simply to tell Gibbs! God he needed to sit down and a bottle of Jack! Gibbs pushed a chair to him and Tony happily sat down.

'You said had...what happened?', Ziva finally dared to ask.

'Arkadi got his revenge, and I dare to bet a month salary that he made Bobrov do it.' He showed them the picture he had gotten. The memory was a nice one until fate intervened.

'We were in the park celebrating Kiara's fifth birthday,' he started but teared up again. Not able to push the tears back again he grabbed a tissue and wiped his eyes. 'Kiara had been so excited for her birthday that she was up all night, she decided she didn't want to be up alone so woke me up so around noon we were both tired ad fell asleep. When we were awake again and about to leave...t...they...they were...' He couldn't do this! He couldn't go through this all over again! That day, their deaths!

'Take it easy Tony, breath, you need to breath.' Tony quickly caught his breath again and gave a thankful nod to his boss. He wiped his eyes again and took a deep breath.

'We were walking towards our car when Bobrov shot them. He shot Lisa in the head, she was immediately gone, but the bastard made Kiara suffer... she bled to death in my arms, when the ambulance arrived she died.' Gibbs gave him a soft squeeze in his neck.

'Things got bad from there on, I couldn't stay in Philly...went to Baltimore but I sunk deeper and deeper in my depression. I had swore to myself to not eat my gun, not until I at least killed Arkadi and Bobrov, but the longer I went on the more I wanted things to end, Arkadi kept haunting me with little things, I was about to eat my gun when I met Gibbs.' Gibbs was shocked to hear that. He hadn't even known Tony was depressed. Okay he got the signs after that shit with his corrupt partner but about to eat his gun? Tony could see from the shocked expression on Gibbs' face that he was thinking things over.

'Don't sweat it Gibbs, I became an expert in putting on a mask, no one knew, after I met you things got better, wasn't about to eat my gun anymore and started to want other things beside revenge.

'We'll catch the bastards Tony, no matter how long we have to chase', Gibbs swore.

'Thanks Gibbs', smiled Tony, the first real smile in what seemed like forever.

'Go talk to the director, he'll need to know and take us of active cases', Gibbs ordered.

'Me? Isn't that your job?', Tony couldn't help but asking.

'Rule thirty-eight DiNozzo, plus Ducky and Abby must know since they'll be involved to, I doubt that you want to have to repeat your story for a third time.' Tony smiled a little. Gibbs knew him so well.

'On it boss', he said.

'Not your boss right now DiNozzo, your lead, your case.' With that he was gone.

Not a lot happens right now but I have to build it up so I won't make the story to hasty. Also I hope I didn't sound to much like a bitch that can't handle criticism because I can. I try and update SOS Ronald Reagan soon to.