HOLY SHIT AN UPDATE!? hey guys I'm back and better than ever actually Im not Im sick... but oh well! I was gone for a few months and I apologize. i had a lot of family shit going on so yeah. but now Im back and with an update! First things first though! Anyone else see the Insurgent trailer? Holy crap! Also if you guys would like leave book recomendations in the commetns I am dying for new reading material Also let me know your thoughts on the story and comment who you ship Kat with! Eric or Four? let me know also if you guys are okay with lemons... I personaly am and will write them and if you guys want a lemon let me know! I wont change the rating ill probably just mark where it is! Discalimer I own nothing! On with the chapter!
Kat POV-
"Katrina... what happened to you?" He asks me and I stand frozen. "You changed... a lot, what hapened to us Katrina?" Tobias says and I cant think staright. Anger, frustration, hate, rage, love, need, want. All of these emotions and I can stop the frustration and anger and betrayal. "you left me alone! In that gray dull world alone damnit! You didnt even warn me! you said you loved me but did you really?" I ask and I cant stop the tears from falling. Then someone else comes in the dull lit room. Eric. My eyes flicker to him and I smile. "Eric..." I say. Tobias' eyes look at me and then flick to Eric and now his eyes are filled with hurt, and frustration. You didnt come find me because of him! You knew I was here but you left me for him?" Tobias asks me and I bite my lip. Then relization hitsd Eric. "You used to date four?" He spits at me. "Y-yes but I dont have feelings for him anymore. I love you!" I say He rolls his eyes. "is that why you two werre makin gout in the hallway the other day? Then you just came to me thinking everything is fine?" He asks me and I cant stop crying. "You pathetic little naivee girl! Your so stupid for thinking I could love you!" He yells at me and turns and leaves. I look at Tobias. "T-tobias..." I say and walk towards him and take his hand in mine. "Dont touch me Katrina!" he yells and leaves as well, and I am left alone again,
I wake with a start. i run my hand threough my hair and breathe. Eric stirs beside me and i know it was a dream. "Bad dream?" he asks me and I slowly nod. He takes my in his chest and I smile and breathe in his scent. "Its okay nothing can hurtb you, not while youre here and with me.'" he says and I smile. We get up and eat breakfast and have a normal conversation. I start to forget the dream. "Im gonna go shower." i say and stand up and turn the corner. "Care if I join you?" he asks me and I stop. I almost say yes. "In your dreams." I say and laugh. "how did you know?" He asks me.
I grab a towel and close the door. i undress and bite my lip. I almost said yes. "God what is he doing to me?" I quietly ask myself and step in the shower. The warm water hits my cool skin and I relax finally. My friends are probab;y worrying. i think to myslelf as I dry off and wrap the towel around my body. I wrap the towel around my body and walk out blushing lightly. "Do you have any clothes I can borrow?" I ask him and he nods and pulls some things out of his dresser and sets them on the bed. I smile and lightly kiss him and pull back.
"Oh no... you think you can come out in only a towel and thats it?" He says and then his lip are on mine again. Gentle at first and then hard and demanding. His hands move to my waist and pull me closer and he accidentaly grinds his hips against mine and I gas. he uses the opppurutnity to slide his tongue in my mouth and I smile. I want to wrap my arms around his neck but I cant. Curently my hanfds are making sure my towel doesnt fall. I pull back for breath blushing lightly. "I should go my friends are worried." I say and he nods. I grab the clothes and go into the bathroom and change and look into the mirror. My light brown hair is a mess and my cheeks are flushed pink.
I get changed and give eric a light kiss before leaving nd walking to the initiates dorm. Where Im attacked by Isabelle and her questions. Where were you? are you okay? who were you with? Why didnt you tell me? Didnt you know I was worried? I sigh. "I was with someone and Im sorry for worrying you." i say. She smirks. "who were you with?" She asks me and pulls my arm. "I was with Eric." i say blushing. Her eyes widden/ "Youre banging our instructor?!" She says and I blush. "N-no! we havent had sex!" I say and bite my lip. She asks me more questions and I answer all of them.
Latter we are walking down the hallways of Dauntlesss and are invited to go to a party. i complain and try getting out of it but end up going. We walk into the pit latter andI'm wearing a strapless light blue dress with a leather jacket over it and some small black heels with my hair in a braid. I'm handed a drink and I dont know whats in it but I drink it anyways and its sweet with a kick. I have two more drink and have a light buzz. Some members of dauntless start singing and I'm reminded of the parties we used t have in Abnegation, and I want to sing.
I get up onto the small made stage and talk with the guitarists and drummer. I sayt thte song and explain a few things andf then I'm handed a microphone. i turn around and I find Isabelle in the crowd with a dauntless member and I smile. then my eyes move and I find Tobias in the crowd, a drink in hand and hes looking up at me. I give him a small smile and close me eyes for a second. "This is Car Radio by 21 pilots!" I yell and am filled with excitemnet as the music starts softly playing. ((Here is the link to the song she sings! watch?v=92XVwY54h5k))
I start to sing excited and start dancing and moving to the beat of the music on instinct.
I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire
Exhale desire
I know it's dire
My time today
I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence
Sometimes quiet is violent
I find it hard to hide it
My pride is no longer inside
It's on my sleeve
My skin will scream
Reminding me of
Who I killed inside my dream
I hate this car that I'm driving
There's no hiding for me
I'm forced to deal with what I feel
There is no distraction to mask what is real
I could pull the steering wheel
I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence
Everyones quiet staring at me, watching me listening to me sing, and its new. I've only sang in front of 10-12 people when we used to have parties at the most but thi is 100- 300 people listening and watching me and I love it.
I ponder of something terrifying
'Cause this time there's no sound to hide behind
I find over the course of our human existence
One thing consists of consistence
And it's that we're all battling fear
Oh dear, I don't know if we know why we're here
Oh my,
Too deep
Please stop thinking
I liked it better when my car had sound
There are things we can do
But from the things that work there are only two
And from the two that we choose to do
Peace will win
And fear will lose
There's faith and there's sleep
We need to pick one please because
Faith is to be awake
And to be awake is for us to think
And for us to think is to be alive
And I will try with every rhyme
To come across like I am dying
To let you know you need to try to think
I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence
The music starts to get louder and louder and Im changing my movements letting the music control my movements. I look out and everyones getting into it and I'm smiling, like an idiot getiing ready to start singing again. my gaze finds Tobias' and he is looking at me smiling back at me, not taking his eyes off me and I bite my lip and move my gaze forward again as the music stops totallly. I close my eyes for 4 seconds and then the music starts again louder this time and I'm on my feet singing dancing jumping up and down to the music and then everyone is, like a rave and its loud and i keep singing.
I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire
Exhale desire
I know it's dire
My time today
I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence
I finish the song and everyones screaming and clapping and I throw my fist in the air smirking. I step off the stage and music keeps playing and I walk to find Isabelle when my arm is grabbed and Im pulled left. I look up and find blue eyes looking down at me. "Tobias..." I whisper. I bite my lip and he lets go of my arm and pulls me towards him in the middle of this crowd. I cant breathe as his arms snake around my waist pulling me closer. "Katrina.' He says and I nod.
He pulls back and holds my face in his hands. I look up at him and close my eyes as his fingers touch my bottom lip. his hands move to my neck and tilt my face up. Then his lips are on mine hard and needy and I cant stop. I bring my hands around his neck and his fingers undo my braid and then move to my waist again, pulling me closer. this kiss is so intense and passionate and I give in. He pulls back and looks at me. Then he takes my hand in his and we are walking. We get to a door and I cant think straight. His hands are shking as he unlocks the door and pulls me in. Its dark and then bright as lights turn on.
I hear the door slam and then I'm pushed against a wall hard. I look up and in an instant my hands are around his neck and his lips are on mine again, harder this time, more demanding and rough. Our mouths move together needy and then I accidentaly nip his bottom lip with my teeth. "i-I'm sorry." I whisper out of breath. "Shut up!" He growls and kisses me again and runs his tongue over my bottom lip. I open my mouth and his tongue explores every inch of my mouth. I moan softly. he lifts me up and I wrap my legs around his wasit pulling him closer, causing my dress to rise up. I slip my jacket off my arms and he moves his hands down my arms and I shiver. He moves his lips to my neck and I moan. I move my hands to the hem of his shirt and he pulls back so I can take it off.
I move my hands to his chest and he groans softly and goes back to biting and kissing my neck. I kick off my shoes as he carries me over to the bed. My breath hitches as he bites down on my soft spot. He does it again and pins me on the bed. i moan loudly and move my hands to his pants wanting them off now. I undo the button on his pants and he stops kissing my neck and takes them off quickly. I sit up and then his hands are on my thighs and moving up closer aand closer and then he has the fabric of my dress bunched in his hands. I nod and he slips it over my head. I lay back again and hes on top of me again and his hands are moving up and down on my stomach and then move higgher up. He lightly squeezes my breast and I grab the bed sheet and moan. "T-tobias..." he does it again and again and I keep moaning.
"Tobias... wait we we should stop..." I say blushing. He nods. "O-okay." He says and lays down next to me. He holds me in his arms and I remember nights like these in Abnegation. "I Love you." He says and kisses my neck lightly. I smile.
"I love you too." I say and fall asleep in his arms.
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