Leave Me Where I Am

by mdaxoxo

When Ponyboy's attacked, his attackers tear everything away from him, his sanity included. The gang's left to piece him back together, but can he really ever be whole again? Contains rape, no slash at the momment but may become Dally/Ponyboy

10. Chapter 9

Title:Leave Me Where I Am
Author:Acoustic Heart
Disclaimer:I do not own the Outsiders and I do not claim to. No profit is being made from this story.

Warnings: This story does contain rape. There may be a possible slash relationship in the future.

Chapter 9

After Ponyboy had stumbled and limped to the bathroom me and the gang went completely silent. The first one to move was Dally, he cussed and shouted and sounded so angry and upset that no one made even a move to stop him as he stormed from the house.

I was looking anywhere but the faces of the gang around me. Guilt was squeezing my stomach in a tight grip and I was afraid that I might be sick all over the carpet that I stood on. I felt someone begin to rub my back in a soothing manner, warm flat palm easing the tension from my rigid spine. I raised my eyes to see Two-bit looking at me, concerned and serious, emotions that looked so out of place on him. Guilt squeezed tighter at me, sure maybe he still saw the gangs pet but now what had I become? Some drunken ass that let his best friend, who still really is just a kid, get assaulted. God, I was just as at fault as Dallas.

I shrugged myself from his grip and followed Dallys pathway out the door. I would be of no use in helping with Ponyboy so I figured I would start with Dallas first. I took the fresh air in through my nose, trying to ease my nausea. I headed towards the abandoned lot.

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I watched sadly as Jonny shrugged off Two-bits comforting gesture, tears brimming his eyes as he left the house, no doubt in search of Dallas. I hoped the kid wasn't blaming himself.

I don't want to think that it's anyone's fault, but I can't help but put the blame on Dal, he should have known better. An undeniable surge of anger ran through me, the older hood was the only one who I could stick the blame on for what happened to my baby brother.

I suppressed the anger coursing through me and put on a brave face, facing Darry and Steve, I nodded towards the bathroom door where Pony had disappeared to. I had to force the words out of my constricting throat.

"I'm, uh, gonna wait for him."

I walked cautiously down the hall way and slid to a sitting position across from the bathroom door. I heard Darry, Steve and Two-bit talking and hushed voices then the sound of the front door and cars peeling out of our driveway. I peered back down the hallway to see Darry standing in the center of the living room, jaw clenched glaring blankly at the wall.

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A/N: I am so fucking stuck on this mother fucking story. So here's a filler chapter.