After Gajeel explained to me that i had a freak out, i was really embarrassed because of how many people there were in there. Gajeel also told me that during my freak out i passed out and then he carried my up here. Right now i am pestering Gajeel with questions.
" What was i yelling?" I asked.
"You were yelling at us to leave you alone, to go away, you even told us to, just i can't..." Gajeel stopped, unable to finish what he was saying, he kept looking at his feet.
"A-are you crying?" I asked, sort of surprised.
"No, of course not," Gajeel said, being his usual self.
"What was i saying Gajeel?" I asked.
"I can't," Gajeel said.
"Why can't you tell me," i asked, tho it was more of a statement.
"You wouldn't want to know. What you said, it, it made Lucy cry even, it hurt her, it hurt all of us," Gajeel said pulling me into his arms tightly.
"What did i say Gajeel?" I said calmly. I can feel the back of my dress getting a bit damp, Gajeel is crying, "What could i have said that hurt you all so much? I would never want to hurt any of you," I said.
"You said kill me, just let me die, i want to die, and that is when you blacked out," Gajeel said holding onto me tighter, sobbing into my back.
"Gajeel," I said.
"yeah," Gajeel replied, he had calmed down a bit.
" I think i should tell you something, you should know," I said.
" What is it?" Gajeel asked.
"remember how i told you that when i was having that freak out that i was blacked out and remembered none of it," I said.
"Yeah," Gajeel said.
"Well i had a vision when i was backed out, and i think it is actually a memory from my childhood, a memory from here in crescent town," I said.
"Are you sure it was here in crescent town shrimp?" Gajeel asked, he had calmed down by now.
"Yeah, i'm pretty sure, i mean, just let me tell you what i saw, it will probably make more sense that way," I said.
"OK, go for it," Gajeel said.
"OK, well i was sitting on a stone bench, just like the one from earlier today, and the town was just like crescent town, even the same scenery. Except it was darker and had a sad aura and a feeling that just made you want to curl up in a ball. I looked around and saw a girl next to me, she looked just like a younger version of me, but she was crying, all alone and it was so loud, screams of horror and agony, yet i saw no-one other than myself and that little girl next to me. Then i hard someone say my name, then again but this time i could recognize it as a mans voice, then the next time i realized it was you, then i woke up to see you," I told Gajeel as he held me and listened with intent.
" Then why were you yelling those horrible things?" Gajeel asked.
"I have not a single clue Gajeel," I said.
" Maby that is what the little girl was feeling and thinking," Gajeel suggested.
"yeah, probably," I said.
"What did the girl look like," Gajeel asked.
" She was really short, had brown eyes and blue hair down to her waist, it was curly and very pretty. she was wearing these black shoes with a back and pink overall dress on, the main color was black but the pockets and such were a pink color," I said.
"That actually does sound like a little you," Gajeel said.
"Yeah, but why do i feel so strange, like that little girl i saw was me, or, just why! Why!" I started to break down crying in Gajeels arms, he tried comforting me, and it worked a bit, but i just needed an explanation for all of this. What is going on? I need answers, and something just isn't quite right.