MissTuffcy: Woo...Been awhile since I updated! Hope everyone had a good New Years and Holidays.

Summary: "You don't understand….I loved her….a lot….And he took that from me….so I've decided to take something he loves away from him to show him how I felt! It's nothing personal against you," A sigh "I had a feeling that not cutting ties with that idiot would cost me dearly…I should have listened to Jaken…."

Warning: Yaoi, Language, Violence, Character Death, OOC

Note: Quotes by me won't have a "by" dash (–). It'll just be plain. Like the one in this chapter and chapter 2. Quotes by other people will have the "by" dash (–).

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Psyche

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"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one." ― Albert Einstein

He was a wreck, though he did not show it outwards. He now sat on his couch staring at the fireplace with a cup tea in his hand, mauling over the events that had played out not too long ago. He felt the couch dip with another's weight and he turned his head to regard the other person. He sighed and ran his hand through his mussed white hair. "You've been sitting here drinking tea for 2 days straight. Don't you think it's time for you to get up and either confront him again or at least come to bed and think about it after you've gotten some sleep? This is not healthy, Inuyasha," Inuyasha sighed and sat his cup down on the coffee table. He leaned against Kagome's shoulder and frowned.

"I know…I just don't know what to do," Inuyasha grumbled. "I hurt him badly when we were younger," Inuyasha whispered. Kagome frowned and looked down at him.

"What do you mean?"

"I hurt him so badly, Kagome," Inuyasha whispered. "The look on his face, Kami, I almost started crying for him," Inuyasha pulled away from Kagome and stared at her.

"What do you mean, Inuyasha?" Kagome asked.

"I am the reason dad disowned Sessh," Kagome's eyes widened.

"What? How? Why?" Kagome exclaimed.

"I was so mad at Sessh…I don't even remember exactly what it was all about….but I remember the look on his face when dad kicked him out…after I saw that, I promised myself I'd keep him from hurting like that…I…I just wanted to keep him happy but it seems I fucked that up too," Inuyasha looked away from Kagome. "Shit…"

"Oh…Inuyasha," Kagome sighed.

"It's fucked up what people would do for money…" Inuyasha mumbled lowly.

Sesshomaru frowned as he watched the rain pelt against the window. He was shaken from his dark musings from the sound of the front door opening. Frowning, he made his way towards the foyer to be greeted by a sopping wet Kai. "You're home early," The suddenness of his voice seemed to startle Kai for the man jumped, slipped on the puddle of water under him, and gripped the table next to him to prevent himself from falling.

"Sweet baby geebus!" Kai gasped. "You scared the shit out of me, baby," Kai straightened himself out while Sesshomaru chuckled lightly. "Wasn't expecting you back until later," Kai flicked his wet hair out of his face.

"Come," Sesshomaru murmured as he took Kai's hand. "We'll talk after you get dry. I don't want you getting sick on me," Sesshomaru led the taller man into the bathroom. Kai frowned as Sesshomaru helped him out of his shoes, socks, wet pants, and shirt.

"Uh, Sessh-" He was interrupted when Sesshomaru shoved a pair of his sleep pants in his hands. Staying silent for a moment while he put them on, his frowned deepened as Sesshomaru pushed him to sit on the toilet seat while the white haired male dried his hair. "Sessh, what's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong," Sesshomaru mumbled. "Are you hungry?" Kai lifted his hand and grabbed Sesshomaru's wrists.

"Sessh, tell me the truth," Kai frowned. Sesshomaru tensed. Kai stood up and looked down at Sesshomaru who continued to stare passed Kai. "Sessh? I know there is something up. You only baby me when something's on your mind,"

"I'm not babying you," Sesshomaru frowned. "I'm simply making sure you don't catch pneumonia!"

"Sessh, come on," Kai sighed. "You know I know you better than that! Just tell me what's wrong!"

"There is nothing wrong!" Sesshomaru snapped and turned away from Kai. Kai moved closer to Sesshomaru and wrapped his arms around the shorter's waist.

"Baby, you can tell me," Kai murmured against Sesshomaru's neck.

"Do you love me?" Sesshomaru asked.

"Of course I love you! That's why I asked you to marry me," Sesshomaru felt Kai grin against his neck. Sesshomaru was quiet for a while.

"If someone paid you to marry someone, would you do it?" Sesshomaru asked quietly.

"What are you getting this all from?" Kai asked with a frown. Sesshomaru pulled away from Kai and glared up at him.

"Just answer me!" Kai frowned at the glossy look in Sesshomaru's eyes.

"Sessh, what's wrong? What happened at that party?"

"Everything I know is a lie...everything that I am is a lie...I don't know who I am or who I'm supposed to be..." Sesshomaru whispered as he stared at the floor blankly. Kai frowned.

"Sessh, what happened? Please tell me...I don't like seeing you like this," Kai whispered as he closed in on the white haired male. He brought the other flush against his chest as he buried his face in his hair.

"Inuyasha said-" Sesshomaru was cut off by Kai growling.

"That bastard said something again? He won't stop until he pisses of the wrong fucking person and they kill the little shit!" Kai snarled angrily. "What did he say that has upset you so much?" Sesshomaru took a shaky breath before retelling all the things that Inuyasha had said to him in the parking lot and everything that had eventually led to that.

He told Kai how he had to catch a ride with Naraku and confessed that he had doubted their relationship because of what Inuyasha said. Kai's hold on Sesshomaru tightened after his confession.

"Baby," Kai breathed. "You never have to doubt me! I've known you way before your father passed away and I knew you before he disowned you. Your brother has always hated me and I doubt that has changed. My feelings for you has never once changed or even faltered. You know what loyalty means to me, baby, and that is not ever going to change. I love you with both my heart and my soul and no amount of money will change that. I will always be yours and you will always be mines!" Sesshomaru sagged against Kai.

"I love you too," Was all Sesshomaru managed to utter after such a heart-melting confession. They stood there in the middle of the bathroom. Seconds turned to minutes, minutes turned to hours.

"Let's go to bed, babe," Kai whispered into Sesshomaru's hair. He got no answer. He pulled away slightly to look down at Sesshomaru and grinned. The smaller male had fallen asleep standing. "Only you could stand and fall asleep without falling over, huh?" Kai chuckled as he bent slightly and grabbed Sesshomaru at the bend of his knees and picked him up bridal style.