MissTuffcy: Pardon my French, it's been years.

Summary: "You don't understand….I loved her….a lot….And he took that from me….so I've decided to take something he loves away from him to show him how I felt! It's nothing personal against you," A sigh "I had a feeling that not cutting ties with that idiot would cost me dearly…I should have listened to Jaken…."

Warning: Yaoi, Language, Violence, Character Death, OOC

Note: Quotes by me won't have a "by" dash (–). It'll just be plain. Like the one in this chapter and chapter 2. Quotes by other people will have the "by" dash (–).

Translations [French]:

Madame – miss/ma'am

Je suis agent LeBlanc – I am officer LeBlanc.

Pouvez-vous nous dire ce qui s'est passé? – Can you tell us what happened ?

Most of the French used will be really basic French and most often than not, someone will translate it right after the French is spoken.

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Psyche

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"We are never so defenseless against suffering as when we love."– Sigmund Freud

Naraku, with the help of servants that happened to be roaming around, was able to locate Sesshomaru. The white haired male was sitting out in the garden, staring at nothing in particular. From where Naraku stood, he could see the man shivering. With a sigh, Naraku pushed away from the wall he was leaning on and walked back towards the house, it freezing outside. He'd return to Sesshomaru with a jacket.

Sesshomaru looked up when a brown, heavy coat was placed over his shoulders. He looked and frowned at Kai. Kai sighed and sat down next to Sesshomaru, elbows resting on his legs and his head in his hands. Sesshomaru pulled the coat tighter around him and turned away from the other male. "Sesshomaru," Kai said finally, pulling his face from his hands. Sesshomaru didn't answer him; didn't acknowledge he was sitting there either. "Sessh, please hear me out,"

"Leave me alone," Sesshomaru whispered. Kai frowned, scooting closer to Sesshomaru.

"Sessh-"

"Get away from me," Sesshomaru growled.

"No! Listen to me now!" Kai snapped. Sesshomaru turned towards Kai and glared at him. He opened his mouth to say something but Kai cut him off. "No! Shut up! You're going to listen to me, I'm tired of playing it safe. The cat is out of the bag anyway! Listen to me Sessh," Kai slipped off the bench and knelled in front of him. Sesshomaru stared down at him. "I love you! That is the reason I stayed with you! The specifications of my job was to protect you! That contract was voided when your father died. I still love you, Sessh! If I didn't I would have left you alone when your father disowned you and when your father died!"

"You…" Sesshomaru started lowly. "…" He didn't know what to say. He didn't know how exactly he could convey how much he felt betrayed. It was much worse than he imagined a knife to the heart would be – because then he'd be dead and wouldn't have to suffer this throbbing pain in his heart.

"I love you so much," Kai whispered. Sesshomaru was startled to see that there were actually tears at the corners of the older man's eyes. "I didn't want to tell you for this reason alone – I was afraid I'd fail to explain my actions and you'd leave me…everything I ever said or didn't say was because I was afraid of your reaction…I was afraid you'd leave me…" Kai laid his head in Sesshomaru's lap. "You are my life…without you is hell…being away from you was hell…I never wanted to suffer through that again…"

"Kai…" Sesshomaru whispered.

"I love you so much, Sessh…I love you so fucking much," Kai repeated over and over again. Sesshomaru pulled Kai's face up to reveal that the man was actually crying. Sesshomaru's eyes widened slightly. In all the years he had known Kai, he'd never seen the man so emotional. "Please forgive me…Please…"

"Kai…" Sesshomaru repeated. Instead of speaking, he wiped the tears from the other male's face before leaning down and placing his lips against the other males. Kai instantly relaxed from his tensed position and pressed back against Sesshomaru's lips. Sesshomaru draped his arms around Kai's shoulders as Kai pulled him closer. Kai pulled away from the kiss as he stood up, causing Sesshomaru to scoot back on the bench to look up at him with a small smile. Kai cursed loudly and slapped a hand to his side. Sesshomaru's eyes widened slightly as blood began to spread on the thin linen of Kai's shirt. "Kai! What did you-" Sesshomaru stopped as warm liquid suddenly splashed on his face and Kai was falling forward on to him. "Kai!" Sesshomaru gasped as the man fell on top of him, pushing them both to the ground. Sesshomaru landed awkwardly on his head and upper back with his lower body still propped against the bench. Kai was draped halfway on his body staring at him with wide unseeing eyes. "Ka-" Sesshomaru's eyes widened. There was a neat round hole in the middle of Kai's forehead. "KAI!"

The next few minutes felt like hours. Sesshomaru didn't know when, but he was dragged back in the house. From the house he was dragged back outside but this time to the front of the house. He was dragged to an ambulance that sat near a fire truck 'Why is there a fire truck here?' and four police cruisers. The whole area was taped off and Naraku was nowhere to be seen. Sesshomaru pulled the coat tighter around himself and closed his eyes, shutting out the rest of the world. He heard voices, though he didn't know if they were speaking to him – he didn't care if they were speaking to him. Kai…the one person he loved…the one that had just revealed he was hired to protect him, the one who cried because he thought Sesshomaru was going to leave him, the one who admitted Sesshomaru was his life, the one that promised he'd be there for Sesshomaru for ever – was shot…right in front of him.

He didn't know who did it, he didn't know where the bullets came from, all he knew was that Kai was dead and he was no utterly alone. "Madame,"

Coming back to earth, Sesshomaru glanced up blankly at the two officers standing in front of him. They seemed to give him a surprised look when he looked at them.

"Je suis agent LeBlanc. Pouvez-vous nous dire ce qui s'est passé?"Sesshomaru continued to look up blankly at the man. The two men looked at each other with a frown. A third officer walked over to them, looked at both officer LeBlanc and the other officer who first came to Sesshomaru then looked back at Sesshomaru with a frown.

"This is officer LeBlanc and his partner officer Lafayette," The man said. Sesshomaru's gaze turned him as he continued to speak. "I am called officer Rieu," The man bowed slightly and Sesshomaru nodded his head. "Is it alright if we ask a few questions? It'll help us in finding who did this," Sesshomaru nodded again. Rieu looked at LeBlanc and Lafayette who were giving him odd looks. "What is your relationship with the victim," as they said that, the rolling of wheels could be heard, causing Sesshomaru to turn his head to see the gurney pulling Kai's body towards the ambulance. The fact his face wasn't covered up with a sheet like they normally did with dead bodies made hope bubble up in Sesshomaru's gut. He watched as the ambulance sped away. He didn't even know there were two ambulances.

"Sir?"

"We're married," Sesshomaru whispered, turning his attention back to Rieu.

"What happened?"

"I don't know…he just fell over…" Sesshomaru looked down with a frown.

"Où étiez-vous lorsque le coup a été tiré?" LeBlanc asked. Sesshomaru looked up at him in confusion.

"Where were you when the shooting occurred?"

"I was sitting in front of him," Sesshomaru said, pulling the coat tighter to him. He felt nauseous all of a sudden.

"So you're saying you were sitting in front of him but you were in no way hit by the bullet that went straight through him?" Rieu asked with a frown. Sesshomaru looked up at him. He was going to respond but he didn't. He just looked away and placed a hand to his head. He had a headache on top of that nausea. "Is that what you're saying?"

"Sesshomaru," Sesshomaru glanced up as he heard his name being called. It was Naraku.

"Naraku," Sesshomaru whispered. Was it just him or did the world suddenly shift?

"Sesshomaru!" Sesshomaru didn't hear anything after that as his body shifted forward and he collapsed into unconsciousness.

Kai lovers please don't kill me D: