(The next day at night)
"You're not even trying!" Lea told Naya later on that night.
"It's only been going on for a week and a half!" Naya tried to excuse her.
"And in one week and a half, Taylor has managed to get himself on set every day, sleep over her house, kiss her, and make you unconfident enough to not try hard enough!" Dianna added.
Naya just rolled her eyes and switched her phone to her other ear. "I put on the damn clothes."
"That's all you've done. And it was meant to make you more confident, but it obviously didn't work much." Lea said.
"And fighting with him all the time isn't making things any better either." Dianna said.
"I feel like I'm doing things wrong! And I don't even know why!" Naya argued.
"Then, figure it out already before he kidnaps Heather and marries her against your will." Dianna concluded.
And now Naya was sitting down in her living room, watching Glee's newest episode. Naya was nervous. Dead nervous. As the Hurt Locker scene was playing on her TV, she didn't dare to check her twitter. She was scared of the response, even if the scene did look great. She kept trying to concentrate on the screen, and trying to block out the hate she might be receiving and the circumstances in which that scene was filmed in.
"I just… want… you." She heard her Santana self say to Brittany, breaking her heart a little more.
She knew that Lea and Dianna were right. She knew she had to try harder. She knew she needed to do something before Taylor did anything extreme. But she also knew that Heather didn't love Taylor, which wasn't very helpful because she knew that Hemo didn't love her either. If not she would have dumped him. Either that or she still has feelings for him. But she didn't know what to do. She couldn't come out; she couldn't even fully admit to herself that she's.. not straight. She couldn't tell her that she loved her, honestly, because she didn't feel ready either. No matter how hard she tried to find her confidence, Taylor would make her lose it rather quickly. It's like she was stuck. She couldn't rush her coming out. She couldn't rush Hemo either because she obviously wasn't straight there. She couldn't be herself around Hemo anymore and everything just started to feel wrong. It didn't feel like a contest anymore… It felt like a sick game. A game she didn't have any chance to win in…
Suddenly, commercials started, and she did something she was terrified to do; check her twitter. She quickly went to her mentions, and was surprised by the response she was getting. Nobody was disgusted, they all loved it.
"Naya was great, OMG!" tweeted one.
"I KNEW THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN THE MINUTE I SAW THEM IN A SCENE TOGETHER! CALLED IT! YESS!" Tweeted another, making Naya smile.
And so on. People kept saying super sweet things, make her tear up a little. Everything was starting to feel normal again… And even know her fans didn't know, she felt like they accepted her already. Which helped, but that wasn't enough to win the…
And then she saw that tweet that was divided in three parts.
"I love how San came out to Britt, but I'm secretly glad she turned her down! I mean, it's obvious that they love each other! But it takes more than a confession to build a relationship! She's still conflicted and so is Britt but she has to prove herself to Britt to actually get her! Even if she doesn't love him, Artie gives Britt stability… San is a tick bomb! And I love Brittana but it's time that San proves herself to Britt!"
And then it all clicked. Heather wasn't with Taylor because she loved him; she was with him because he gave her a stable relationship. Because he proved to her that somehow he cared and he was there, unlike Naya. Not only was Santana a tick bomb, but she was one too. Taylor was wrong. Telling Heather how she felt wont make things any better. He was just playing her. Coming out was something they could deal with together. But now, all she had to do was show Heather how much she loved her. Just like Taylor always does. She had being seeing things the wrong way. Fighting with Taylor, putting on sexy clothes, and sometimes being extra sweet with Heather wasn't going to cut it. She had to show her that she could be better than Taylor.
And then she received a text from Hemo.
From: My Bestie Hemo : Did the fans like it?
And Naya, with a huge smile replied. Oh, they did. ;)
