Chapter 3
Here's to you, Mrs. Robinson
She thought about waking him up, but quickly scrapped that idea. What are you going to say? "Hey Joel, can you scooch over, you're lying on my sex book" waking him up is NOT a good idea. There was really only one thing she could do, and that was to try and get it without him noticing. She leaned off the couch and reached over to the book, she grabbed the bottom part of it. Please don't wake up Joel, she pulled it gently, it only moved a tiny bit. " Oh fuck" she whispered. The crackling fire and wind entering her thoughts, if that shit wakes him up, then I'm D-O-N-E fucked. She tugged at the book some more, it became a little looser with each gentle pull. Half the time she spent waiting, making sure that he was asleep, half hanging off the couch like a fucked up monkey. Oh and yeah, you're half naked too, why don't you just go all the way and lose the shirt, just yank the book out and pounce on him. Her brain was really being an asshole tonight.
He stirred again which made her draw a sharp breath, quickly hauling herself back up on the couch again in one swift motion. When Ellie re-opened her "sleeping" eyes she saw something that made her heart sink, Joel was now lying flat on his stomach, the book was now completely buried underneath him. All the tense work she had put herself through to try and get that damn book back had been for nothing, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK "Shit…." she breathed. Alright, now what am I gonna do? poke him in the ribs…..nah, she sat up on the couch and put her head in her hands. Think think think…..I'm running out of options, the only thing I can think to do is wake him up, or turn him over myself. She had to stifle a laugh at that thought. She felt remarkably thirsty, she stood up and walked over to the sink. She noticed the fire was dying down a little. After getting a drink of water she crept over to Joel, stood over him and tossed some more logs into the fire, all she was wearing was a shirt and a small pair of pink panties, she thought if he woke up now it would be bad. Or good. She smiled, Oh we're thinking naughty tonight are we?
She returned to the couch and just before she sat down she heard Joel moving again, she whipped around to see that he had rolled straight off the book and was now lying facing away from her. She sighed as she picked up Fifty shades of grey. It was warm, probably because he'd been lying on it for so long. Curling up on the couch once more, holding the warm book tight to her chest, drowsiness overtook her and she went to sleep soundly that night, dreaming of her and Joel together. It could work…..right?. Her dream was risqué, to say the least. It reminded her of something she had read earlier that night.
first…easily, testing,pushing…oh my. I grip on to the sink, panting, forcing myself back on him, feeling him inside me. Oh the sweet agony…his hands clasp my hips. He sets a punishing rhythm-in, out, and he reaches around and finds my clitoris, massaging me…oh jeez. I can feel myself quicken.
"That's right, baby," he rasps as he grinds into me, angling his hips, and it's enough to send me flying, flying high
Whoa…and I come, loudly, gripping for dear life onto the sink as I spiral down through my orgasm, everything spinning and clenching at….
Joel opened his eyes, watching the blurry cabin ceiling slowly become visible again. His stomach was growling like a rabid dog, he checked the window, the snow was still coming down very hard. How long are we gonna be here? He spent most of the morning cooking beans. Watching the sun rise from the window through the flurries of snow, the little redhead was still fast asleep on the couch, she looked like she was sweating a bit. After he finished eating, Joel thought about going upstairs to get a shower, Ellie could have the rest of the beans if she was hungry. Just as he was about to climb the stairs he heard a loud yawn behind him. "Mornin' Smellie" he said turning around, Hey sexy….Jesus christ will you shut up "Hi Joel" She pulled her jeans back on. "How'd you sleep last night" Joel asked, handing her the pot and a spoon. Well, I had a dream about you fucking me so I'd say I'd slept…."Pretty damn good" she said, even though she still felt pretty tired from being up half the night reading smut "But I'm still kinda tired" she rubbed her eyes. "You keep eating, I'm gonna go get cleaned up, you can get in after me if you want" he then left and went upstairs. She pouted a little Why can't I get in with you. She had turned into quite the little nymphette since last night, she grinned a little, but then thought Shit….I've an obligation, tell him how I really feel by the end of today.
After putting the empty pot and spoon into the sink, Ellie sat and debated whether she should read some more Fifty shades of grey. It was still tucked under the blanket from the night before, she looked at Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas sitting open on the floor. She also spied the CD player still sitting next to the couch, she picked it up turned it on, placed it on the floor again and pressed the play button with her toe. Her ears were soon cascaded with the cheers of fans, then she heard somebody say "This is off our first record, most people don't own it" then the song "About a girl" started to play.
I need an easy friend
I do, with an ear to lend
I do, think you fit this shoe
I do, won't you have a clue
I'll take advantage while
You hang me out to dry
But I can't see you every night
Free
She started to bob her head to the music, thinking, didn't Joel say this guy killed himself? Shit….
I'll take advantage while
You hang me out to dry
But I can't see you every night
Free
She was rocking side to side on the couch, wondering how it must have happened, Maybe he felt the same way that I feel about Joel with someone, and they rejected him.
I'm standing in your line
I do hope you have the time
I do pick a number too
I do keep a date with you
She sat on the couch and listened to the rest of the song, while she thought what would probably happen if she made a move on Joel, she thought about it through "Come as you are" and she was halfway through "Jesus doesn't want me for a sunbeam" when she heard Joel coming down the stairs. " So you finally turned that thing on" he said, he was wearing a blue denim shirt and jeans He looks like a real cowboy now Ellie thought. "Joel, you can't tell me anymore about these Nirvana guys can you?" the girl seemed eager to learn, he sat down next to her as "Jesus doesn't want me for a sunbeam" was coming to a close.
Jesus, don't want me for a sunbeam
Sunbeams are never made like me
Don't expect me to cry for all the reasons you had to die
Don't ever ask your love of me
Don't expect me to cry
Don't expect me to lie
Don't expect me to die
Don't expect me to cry
Don't expect me to lie
Don't expect me to die for thee
Joel seemed to be thinking for a moment then he finally said "They were a 90's rock band, their lead singer was named Kurt Cobain, Sarah used to go on and on about how beautiful she thought he was, he killed himself in 1994, though some say he was killed by his wife. Everyone else thinks he buckled under the pressure of fame….that's all I really know" during this lesson in music history, "The man who sold the world" had begun to play.
We passed upon the stairs
Spoke of was and when
Although I wasn't there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone
A long long time ago
Oh no, not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With the man who sold the world
She sat with him and listened to "The man who sold the world" and "Pennyroyal tea" when she figured she should go get cleaned up, Joel probably thinks I fucking reek. She pressed pause on the CD player, went up the stairs and entered the bright, white bathroom, she closed the door, grabbed a towel from the cabinet under the sink, pulled back the pale blue shower curtain, and turned on the water. She took off her clothes while she waited for the water to warm up, leaving them in a small heap, she stood in the middle of the bathroom, "Shit, it's fucking cold in here" her nipples were already hard. She heard a knock on the bathroom door, "You should turn on the fan if you're gonna take a shower Ellie" she heard Joel say from the other side of the door. She obliged and obediently turned on the fan, listening to it's low roar and air blew into the room. If I don't get into the shower soon, I'm gonna freeze my ass off. Literally. She touched the water, it was of satisfactory temperature, so she stepped in, the water hit her skin like bullets. The heat of the water combined with her cold skin caused her to get a mad case of goosebumps. She grabbed a bar of soap that was sitting on the edge of the tub and scrubbed her body thoroughly, I gotta be squeaky clean if Joel and I get up to anything later, she bit her lip at that thought, if Joel and I get up to anything…..
She soaped up her hair and rinsed, she scrubbed her body some more, gliding the bar of soap over her skinny, pale frame and watching the suds slowly disappear under the spraying water. She thought about Joel and how he'd react to the news. That is, if I even tell him, excitement was building in her chest when she thought of him reacting positively, maybe he would even kiss her. She felt her hand slip down to her stomach, Am I doing what I think I am?, the thought of Joel's strong arms holding her close to him sent her hand down further, she rubbed the front of herself and closed her eyes, letting the warmth of the water wrap around her. She began working her clit with her thumb, she moaned quietly and slid one finger into herself gently, as far as it would go, sliding it in and out. It felt weird to her, but in a good way. She slid a second finger in and began to slowly pump them in and out. "Oh god….Joel" she moaned absently, she didn't care if he heard her or not at this point. Thoughts of Joel bringing her closer to the brink, she placed a hand on the wall of the shower, pumping her fingers faster now Damn. Her knees buckled a little and she leaned forward and began pumping as fast as she could, whimpers and moans escaped her as she felt her orgasm building…..then, as she let out a louder than could be considered safe moan, she came.
Breathing heavily and whispering Joel's name over and over she slowed the pace of the pumps and once she was sure she was done, turned off the water and stepped out into the cold air of the bathroom, she grabbed her towel and dried herself off. She looked at her heap of dirty clothes and thought Shit, I didn't bring any other clothes with me. She opened the bathroom door "Joel" she yelled down the stairs, "What?", "Where did you get the clothes you're wearing?" There was a pause and then she heard him say. "I took some I found in a closet". Sticky fingers eh? "Anything I could wear? I just need a shirt and some pants". She could just grab the extra pair of underwear she kept in her bag for "emergencies". Maria had advised her to do that, because she was "becoming a woman" and that could sometimes cause " inconveniences" that she wasn't prepared for.
She heard Joel coming up the stairs, she turned off the fan. "I'll see if I can find you something to wear, I was gonna wash my clothes in the bathtub later on, you should probably do that too" she eyed the heap of dirty clothes. Ellie wrapped the towel around herself and went downstairs to get her bag. When she got the extra pair she went back upstairs to find Joel holding a fairly large white shirt, and a pair of black shorts in the other. "This is all I could find, hope it works out" he tossed her the clothes and went back downstairs, she got dressed quickly and soon returned downstairs, Joel was sitting on the couch, reading Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. "That book's really weird huh?" she said, sitting down next to him and pressing play on the CD player. "Dumb" was the song that came after "Pennyroyal tea"
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
And I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Maybe just happy
She felt like she was sitting on something, she felt around under the blanket she sat on. She touched Fifty shades of grey and thought oh goddamnit what if he knows I took it now? this is gonna come back and bite me bad. She had to think quick. "Joel, are you gonna wash those clothes soon?" It was a last ditch effort to ask such a thing, but she thought it'd work. He looked a little surprised " I wasn't planning to just yet, why do you ask?" I ask because I want to put that porn book back in your bag without you noticing. She really couldn't think of anything else to say but "Well, I'm not wearing a bra right now, and that was the only one I had" her heart gave a little leap when he said "I think you're fine for now Ellie" and returned to reading his book. "Yeah, ok" she sighed and sat back on the couch, listening to Kurt's soft voice.
Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
Soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up