MissTuffcy: I know I said I would post this before the end of October but my Classes started earlier than I had realized and I didn't have a chance to sit down and type this.

Summary: "You don't understand….I loved her….a lot….And he took that from me….so I've decided to take something he loves away from him to show him how I felt! It's nothing personal against you," A sigh "I had a feeling that not cutting ties with that idiot would cost me dearly…I should have listened to Jaken…."

Warning: Yaoi, Language, Violence, Character Death, OOC

Note: Quotes by me won't have a "by" dash (–). It'll just be plain. Like the one in this chapter and chapter 2. Quotes by other people will have the "by" dash (–).

Translations [French]:

Dieu...Je besoin d'un verre – god I need a drink

Most of the French used will be really basic French and most often than not, someone will translate it right after the French is spoken.

00

Psyche

28

0

"With no expectations anything can become."
― Steven Farmer

France – la Villa de Onigumo

Sesshomaru sighed as he laid back on the bed, staring up at the ceiling. It was always the same. He'd get close to someone so much - -then they'd leave him. Sesshomaru pulled his body up to the head of the bed and laid against the pillows. What had he done in a past life to deserve such a fate? He knew it wasn't in his youth that would cause the universe to be against him so much. He'd been well behaved his whole life. He turned on his side with another sigh. Why me? He'd been asking that question for so long, he couldn't remember when it even started.

He glanced at his phone which laid forgotten on the bedside table. He sat up slightly and grabbed it before rolling on his back and turning the phone on. When the phone finally came on, Sesshomaru frowned. He had 447 missed calls, 12 voice mails, and 30 text-messages. When he scrolled through them, majority of the missed calls were from Inuyasha. There were only a few from Jaken and then some from a number he didn't recognize. The number he didn't recognize called almost as much as Inuyasha. Sesshomaru opened the text messages. 5 of them were from Inuyasha telling him to pick up the phone but the rest were from that number he didn't recognize. The weird thing was that half of them were blank. The others were random numbers but one of them asked 'are you okay?'. Sesshomaru frowned as he rolled back on his side.

He opened the menu to voice mails. 10 of them were from Inuyasha which he knew was probably him yelling for him to pick u the phone. The last two were from 2 different unknown numbers. Frowning, Sesshomaru pressed to listen to the voice mail to the first one. He placed it to his ear and waited. He only heard breathing on the other line. He was about to hang up when he heard the person on the other line speak. 'I miss you'. Sesshomaru froze as the voice mail ended. He looked at the time the voice mail was sent. It was left only 2 hours ago. A chill was sent down his spine.

He sat up and listened to the 2nd voice mail which was sent three days ago. 'Soon...' and then it ended. Sesshomaru pulled the phone away from his ear and stared at it. He pressed the menu open again to go to contacts. He let his hand hover over Inuyasha's name for a split second before he sighed. He turned the phone off and sat it back on the bedside table.

The next morning brought grey clouds and a gloomy atmosphere. Sesshomaru sat in front of the dresser slowly packing up his stuff. "Knock, knock," Sesshomaru turned when he heard Jadiyah at the door. The man was standing there wearing a green Chinese blouse that had a golden trim and a golden plum blossom and butterfly pattern. The butterfly-knot buttons on the side of the shirt were also gold. He was also wearing loose black trousers."Hey," He said.

"Hey..." Sesshomaru replied. He turned back to the dresser with a sigh.

"Sesshomaru," Jadiyah walked farther into the room and sat down on his knees next to Sesshomaru. The two sat in silence. After placing the last of his clothes in his bag, Sesshomaru zipped the 2 bags up. He stared at the empty bags sitting next his own full bags. A sudden overwhelming urge to sob overtook him. He clamped his eyes shut tightly, dropping his head down so his bangs could cover his face. He clenched his hands tightly into fists on his lap. Jade watched him silently. He placed a hand on Sesshomaru's shoulder when he began to tremble lightly. "I got it," Jadiyah whispered. Sesshomaru nodded silently and stood.

"Thank you..." He whispered before leaving the room. Jadiyah stared at the empty bags.

"You're such an idiot," Jade said with a shake of his head.

As Sesshomaru walked down the steps, he heard the familiar sound of a violin. He followed the sound to where he knew Naraku would be. Naraku was always the source of the beautiful notes that sang of anger, sadness, and despair. It was the Vitali Chaconne, a song Sesshomaru had come to like since the first time he had heard Naraku play it.

Sesshomaru came to a stop at the doorway of the music room to see Naraku standing near the window again. Sesshomaru made his way fully into the room and sat down in the couch that sat a few paces away from the 1st ceiling to floor window. Naraku turned his body towards Sesshomaru and their gazes locked. Sesshomaru glanced at the man's fingers as they glided across the neck of the violin, coming to a shaking halt for a moment as the sound vibrated. Sesshomaru smiled as he watched the bow and Naraku's fingers quicken in a crescendo which he knew would lead to the finishing of the song. When Naraku strung the bow upwards and pulled it away position, Sesshomaru smiled. The two stayed there staring at each other in silence before Naraku broke it.

"You leave today..." Naraku stated quietly. Sesshomaru nodded, breaking there gaze to stare at the floor sadly. Naraku made his way over to the couch and sat down next to Sesshomaru. "Sesshomaru," Naraku called. He waited until the white haired male looked up at him before he continued to speak. "I'm here for you," Naraku said firmly, accompanying his words was a firm nod. Tears sprung to Sesshomaru's eyes as Naraku opened his arms. Sesshomaru leaned into the other man but stayed silent.

"You never know how precious something is to you until you lose it forever," Sesshomaru whispered. Naraku said nothing, just tightened his arms around Sesshomaru's slighter form.

Jadiyah sighed as he walked down the steps, his body guard (who was carrying all of the bags save one that Jade had in his hand) close behind him. Onigumo was walking down after them. His body guard continued out of the house to put the bags into the car. "Are you going to miss me?" Jade smirked at Onigumo.

"Of course," Onigumo said with a nod. "Not a day goes by that I wish someone would sit and threaten bodily harm to m 24/7." Jade's smirk widened. His face blanked when he heard footsteps approaching. He resisted the urge to raise an eyebrow when he saw Naraku and Sesshomaru (with Naraku having his arm around Sesshomaru's waist).

"You ready?" Jade asked. Sesshomaru nodded. Jade turned to look at Onigumo. "Come visit sometime, Gum-Gum," Naraku raised an eyebrow at that.

"Eh..." Onigumo frowned in confusion as Jade turned away from him and walked towards the door. He turned his attention to Naraku and Sesshomaru as Naraku had began to lead the slighter male out the house. "Naraku," Naraku glanced at his brother briefly over his shoulder- well more liked glared at him briefly. Onigumo rolled his eyes and walked back up the steps. "Dieu...Je besoin d'un verre..."

Japan – Kiyomizu Residence

Sesshomaru sighed as he plopped down on the couch. He laid his head back on the couch as he watched the large man who had put his bags in the car take the bags up the stairs. "Sesshomaru," Sesshomaru brought his gaze back to Jadiyah who had sat down next to him. Sesshomaru sat up and regarded the other male. "If you ever need anything or need anyone to talk to," He started, staring down at his lap. He looked up at Sesshomaru. "I'm here, okay?" Sesshomaru smiled slightly a nodded.

"Thanks,"

Jadiyah smiled. The two both turned when Jade's bodyguard came down the steps. Jadiyah clapped his hands on his thighs, bringing Sesshomaru's attention back to him. "Well, I should get going. I left my phone numbers on the counter in the kitchen. The mail is there too,"

"The mail?" Sesshomaru tilted his head slightly to the side and with a confused frown. Jadiyah nodded.

"While you guys were away, Kai asked me to look after the house," Jade stood up. "I'll give you a call later, okay?" Sesshomaru stood as well and nodded. He followed the shorter male out of the house. "Bye Sesshomaru," Jade waved as he and his bodyguard walked towards the limo out front. Sesshomaru gave a short wave before walking back inside. He closed the door, leaning back against it with a long sigh. He closed his eyes and let his head drop. With another sigh, Sesshomaru made his way up the stairs. He stared at the bags sitting outside the bedroom.

Dragging all 4 of them inside the room, he began to unpack everything. When he was done, he sat down heavily on the bed and stared at nothing. He glanced to the corner of the room where a blue stuffed dog sat. It was the stuffed animal Kai had won him when they went out to that carnival. Sesshomaru stood up and picked the stuffed toy up.

"Why did we come here?" Sesshomaru grumbled as Kai all but dragged him towards the large fair grounds. "Can we go home yet?

"Don't be such a grumpy pants. Just a little longer!" Kai grinned at his grumpy partner. Sesshomaru raised his eyebrow at the near childlike excitement shining in Kai's eyes.

"Well, if you insist..." Sesshomaru grumbled. "But I'm not getting on the Ferris Wheel."

"What? Oh come on, Sessh! That's the best part of going! The Ferris Wheel!"

"Hell no," Sesshomaru said firmly. "I am not taking the chase to plummet to my death."

"You watch too many movies," Kai snickered. Sesshomaru rolled his eyes. He slipped his hand out of Kai's to wrap around his waist. Kai smiled down at him and mimicked the action. "What about a game?" Kai mumbled as he stared at one of the nearby stands. It was the 'strong man' game where you had to hit the mallet on the target strong enough to get the large cylinder to fly up and ring the bell. Sesshomaru shrugged. Kai and Sesshomaru made their way to the stand.

"Think you can make the bell ring?" The guy manning the stand asked with a grin. Kai released his hold on Sesshomaru at the same time Sesshomaru did. Sesshomaru crossed his arms as he watched Kai pick up the large mallet. He raised it above his head slightly before bringing it down hard against the target. When he smashed the target with the mallet, the cylinder sprung up and smacked against the bell with a loud 'ding'. "Looks like we have a winner," The man chuckled. "Which one?" He stepped back slightly so Sesshomaru and Kai could see the wall of prizes.

"Which one do you want, babe?" Kai asked as he returned to his previous position of his arm wrapped around Sesshomaru's waist. Sesshomaru, with his arms still crossed, scanned the wall before shrugging.

"I'm not sure?" Sesshomaru said.

"What about that one!" The man and Sesshomaru followed Kai's finger to the blue dog sitting in the corner. The man picked it up and handed it to Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru looked at the dog before looking up at Kai with a raised eyebrow. "What? Its blue. Just like my hair. So now you'll always think of me when you look at that thing...cos it kinda looks like me don't you think?" Kai snickered when Sesshomaru rolled his eyes.

"You're a clown,"

"You love this clown," Kai pecked Sesshomaru on the lips. "Now, can we go on the Ferris Wheel? I promise that'll be the last thing we do and then we'll go home!"

"Fine," Sesshomaru sighed. Kai whooped happily before dragging Sesshomaru off to the large 'giant death machine' as Sesshomaru dubbed it.

Sesshomaru sat down on the bed, staring at the stuffed dog. He hugged the dog to his chest and laid back on the bed, curling up on the pillow.

Sesshomaru didn't realize he had fallen asleep until he woke up groggily. He laid there briefly wondering what it was that had woken him up. Then he heard it again. It was a light clinking noise. He sat up and stared out the open bedroom door. There was slight light illuminating the hallway which meant that a light was on downstairs. Still with the stuffed dog in his arms, Sesshomaru pushed the covers off him – which he could have sworn he hadn't been under before he fell asleep -and made his way slowly out the room and down the stairs. He frowned. The source of the light and the light clinking sound was coming from the kitchen. Sesshomaru walked into the kitchen and his frown deepened. "Rin?" It was his cook. How she figured out where he lived, he didn't understand...moreover, how did she even get in the house? Said cook turned to look at him with a bright smile.

"Morning, Sesshomaru-sama!" She chirped happily.

"Rin, what are you doing here?" He asked. She motioned for him to sit down. He sat down at the table and Rin sat across from him.

"Well, after we ended our contract, I was able to get to work at one of Jade Industry's chain restaurants! I have to thank Kai-sama so much for his recommendation letter." She smiled sadly. "But, I am sorry to hear about what happened to Kai-sama..." She looked down. Sesshomaru frowned.

"How did you find out? No one but-" Sesshomaru furrowed his brows. "Jadiyah told you, didn't he?" Rin nodded.

"Jadiyah-sama was a good friend to Kai-sama. When I came into work today, he had told me because he thought since Kai-sama recommended me to him, I was very close to Kai-sama. I...I asked him if he could tell me where Sesshomaru-sama lived because I wanted to make sure you were okay..." Rin frowned sadly. "I am sorry...I didn't mean to barge in here...but when I came in I saw you asleep so I thought I'd make you breakfast before I go back to work...Jadiyah-sama gave me the key to your house," Sesshomaru nodded silently, making a mental note to speak to Jadiyah about giving out his key. "Umm..."

"What is it, Rin?" Sesshomaru asked.

"Well, since...I told Tohara," Rin said with a sheepish smile. "And...He might be on his way now," Sesshomaru sighed.

"That's alright Rin," He smiled a moment later. "Its nice to see you again," Rin beamed at him.

"Its nice to see you too, Sesshomaru-sama. I was so worried when I never heard from you! But now that I know where you are, I hope you don't mind me barging in every day to cook for you!"

"Rin-"

"Free of charge, Sesshomaru-sama! I enjoy cooking and I enjoy knowing I cook for someone I care about," Rin smiled happily. How could he say no to that?

"Okay, as long as you want to, sure...besides," Sesshomaru smiled small. "I can't really pass up on your cooking,"

"Yay!" Rin cheered happily before standing. "Breakfast is almost ready!" Just as she said that, Seshomaru heard a knock at the door. He stood up and walked to the front door and opened it. Low and behold, it was Tohara.

"You need a gardener," Tohara said with a frown. "The front yard is horrid," With that, he walked in, Sesshomaru stepping out of his way with a raised eyebrow. "Did you eat yet?" Sesshomaru rolled his eyes.

"Good morning to you too Tohara," Sesshomaru shook his head. Tohara frowned, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose.

"That wasn't an answer,"

"I'm making breakfast now, Tohara!" They heard Rin calling from the kitchen. Tohara nodded before he walked farther into the house.

"This is a cozy house," Tohara said with a nod. "That yard still needs work. I will come back later today to do it,"

"You don't have to do that," Sesshomaru protested weakly.

"Nonsense!" Tohara said with a nod. "I have been bored just sitting at home with nothing to do. This will get my wife from yelling at me for being lazy," Tohara placed a hand on Sesshomaru's shoulder. "Sesshomaru," His voice softened.

"I'm okay..." Sesshomaru answered the unspoken question.

"Are you really?" Tohara asked firmly. Sesshomaru looked up at Tohara. They stared at each other for a long moment before their attention was pulled back to Rin who had shouted for them both to come eat.

"I'm not..." Sesshomaru said to himself as he followed after Tohara.

After breakfast and short conversation, Rin had to get back to work and Tohara had left home. Sesshomaru was left alone again. He was sitting in the living room staring blankly at the TV that wasn't even on. He still held on to the blue stuffed dog. He turned his attention to the stuffed dog in his lap. The dog had midnight blue fur and amber marbles for eyes. Kai wasn't kidding when he said it'd remind him of him. Sesshomaru hugged the dog to his chest with a sigh, going back to staring at the TV blankly. He was pulled from his daze at the knock on the front door. He stood up and made his way over to the door. He opened the door and let out a breath.

"Inuyasha..."

Posted where I stopped. I will make sure I try to get another chapter out before the week is over!

Reactions?