Chapter 4
Your own personal Jesus
They sat together on the couch for a long time, Joel reading Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, and Ellie swaying slowly to the music pouring out of the CD player, the song of the hour now was "Polly" It's not exactly mood music for the stuff I've got planned Ellie thought. She then stood up and began to pace back and forth, biting on her thumbnail. Before I tell him I love him I should probably come clean about the book. She figured It would be one less thing she'd have to worry about if Joel rejected her advance. Coo coo ca-choo, maybe he'll get it on with you, her dirty little mind sang. "Joel…." she started, feeling uneasy as he put the book down and looked at her with a raised eyebrow, "I um…did something I shouldn't have…..and I'm really sorry" She had his attention "What did you do?" she bit her lip and looked at him with guilty eyes "You remember when we first got here and you took that book from me…..well I kind of stole it from your bag" She waited for his expression to go from questioning to majorly pissed, but it didn't, he only sat back on the couch and chuckled a little, while "Polly" played on.
Polly wants a cracker
Maybe she would like more food
ask me to untie her
A chase would be nice for a few
It isn't me
We have some seed
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Hurt yourself
Want some help
Help myself
"How much of it did you read?" he asked, "Quite a lot of it actually…." she admitted, her face was as red as her hair. "I kind of figured you'd get it one way or another, you're growing up too fast and I thought you weren't ready for that, I guess I was wrong" Hey, I've got boobs now, I think I'm old enough, she laughed a little. "What's so funny?" He looked confused, "Nothing" she quickly dismissed. Joel made his way over to the cabinets and took out a bottle of Scotch, poured himself a tall glass, and sat back down. "C'mere and sit" he said, patting the couch cushion, she went over to him and sat down, taking Fifty shades of grey out from under the blanket and tossing it on the floor, "Do you know what any of that stuff is?" he asked, taking a drink. "Yeah…..sort of" Joel looked at her and said "I know you're not bullshitting me, I heard you up there" he cocked his head toward the stairs. Uh oh Ellie thought "Sorry…" she looked down at her feet. Joel took a long drink and topped it off. "You don't have to apologize for anything, everybody does that at least once in their life, it's a perfectly natural thing" She looked at him, then at his glass, "Can I have some of that" she asked. It'd probably help with the situation
Joel thought about it, I shouldn't refuse, it would probably make it easier for her. He went and got another glass, returned to the couch, and poured her some. She screwed up her face when she drank, she didn't really like the taste, but it lit a fire inside her, she liked the warm feeling it gave her. She thought of the warmth she felt when Joel kissed her last night, and the warmth of the shower. "More" she held out her now empty glass to him, he laughed and poured her another before filling his own glass back up. She felt calmer with each drink she took, "What's sex like?" she found herself abruptly asking him. Well fuck, I've really done it now Joel thought "You really wanna know?" he questioned, she nodded and took another gulp of scotch, it was going down easier now. Joel sat back and told her everything, everything about the "birds and the bees" stopping to re-fill their glasses from time to time. Ellie absorbed every bit of information her gave her, "On a plain" filled the room as the sun was now beginning to go down, "I'm gonna get the fire going again and get us something to eat" Joel said, tossing some logs into the fire and grabbing the box of crumpled up paper and matches that rested on the mantle. Ellie watched him and thought Ok, I think now is the time.
He made them more soup, Ellie remembered not to drink it so fast this time. They listened to "Something in they way" while they drank their scotch and soup, Ellie put down her empty mug and drank the last bit of scotch out of her glass, her head was swimming, So this is what being drunk is like. Joel twisted the cap back onto the half empty scotch bottle "I think that's enough for the both of us" he yawned and sat back, closing his eyes and humming to himself. Ellie scooted closer to him and poked him in the arm "Joel" she said in an almost near whisper, "There's something I have to tell you" Well, here goes nothing "You remember that girl Riley I told you about a while back?" Joel nodded "She was someone that I truly loved, and after she died I never thought I'd ever feel the same way about someone the way I felt about her, she was my first real kiss". Joel stared at her for a bit and said "I'm sorry for saying you had no idea what loss was…I didn't know you felt that way" Ellie bit her lip and looked back at Joel, her eyes half clouded with lust and sadness. "But I found out recently that that wasn't true…I feel that way about someone else now". "Who's that?" Joel asked, his mind too hazy from the scotch to put two and two together. "You Joel…..I'm falling in love with you" she leaned forward and kissed him. Pulling back she licked her lips, tasting the leftover scotch from his beard "Ellie…no…I can't" Joel started, but stopped when he heard her pleading to him "Please don't say no Joel, I love you….please" her voice was thick and needing.
Ellie words started getting caught in her throat as tears fell and hit the couch with silent but impactful thuds, Fuck's sake, what am I gonna do now Joel's mind beckoned to him to do something, he hugged her tight to him and she cried into his chest. "Asshole" she mumbled in his shirt He wasn't supposed to react like this. "Baby-girl I can't, a long time ago somebody could get into loads of trouble for this". She looked up at him, her face red and stained with tears "So?" she sniffed "That was back in your time, things are different now…people probably wouldn't give a shit anymore, people only really care about surviving these days" Joel sighed and cupped her face delicately, "It's just not normal Ellie" that's all he could really muster to plead his case, he didn't want to let himself be susceptible to the idea. Ellie looked hurt "What the fuck is that supposed to mean, "not normal", clickers and bloaters would be what's considered "normal" now, and in this crazy world….is normal really even that good anymore?"
She kissed him again, deeper this time, Joel felt himself slowly giving up and succumbing to his ember haired seductress. The music in the background was now "All Apologies", they had talked all the way through "Plateau" "Oh, Me" and "Lake of Fire". Ellie moaned into Joel's mouth when she felt her tongue connect with his, they came back for air after a minute or two. Ellie looked at him with soft, longing eyes, and said in a sugary seductive tone "Take me Joel…..right here, right now, I want you to be my first", he stared into her deep green eyes and as he felt all the morality slip out of him, said "Okay…" and pulled her up into his lap, she straddled him on the couch. they touched foreheads "Joel, I love you" Ellie gushed, staring into the man's eyes, "I love you too" he said, mashing his lips against hers.
He gently sucked her collar bone, tracing his lips up the rest of her neck until he reached her ear "I'll never leave you alone again Ellie, that's a promise" he whispered. His voice was deep, but not in his usual gruff way, that turned Ellie on even more. She quickly pulled off her shirt, exposing her young, lean body, Shit, she really wasn't wearing a bra. Joel thought, as he watched her small, shaking hands unbutton his own shirt. He shrugged it off and they sloppily kissed again, Joel kissed down Ellie's neck, he stopped and looked at her before saying " You know you don't have to do this, I wont force you" She looked back at him, "This is something I've wanted for a while, it's everything I thought it would be" We haven't even gotten to the best part yet. She took off her small black shorts, now completely naked except for her white cotton panties, Joel unbuckled his belt, threw it onto the floor, and took off his pants. He stood up, holding her in his arms he kissed her some more, he laid her down on the mattress and he lid down next to her, pulled her on top of him and sat up. He sucked her hardening nipples, listening to her soft moans combined with the crackling of the fire as he slid his hand into her white underwear.
Her breath hitched when he worked her clit with his thumb Shit, "Joel…" she whined, Ellie ran her nails down his back. He slid his fingers into her now and was pumping them in and out just like she did So much better than me Ellie thought, she leaned back a bit and closed her eyes. He suddenly stopped and took off his boxers, she took off her own underwear as well. She climbed back into his lap and he continued to work her, she was getting really wet. Whimpers and moans escaped her as she connected her tongue with Joel's again. "Ellie?" Joel broke the kiss and was looking straight into her eyes, "Are you ready?" she nodded and he grinned "That's my girl", he slid himself into her gently, she hissed when he entered her "Ow…that stung" she said but he could tell she didn't want to stop, he kept gently sliding in and out of her, she was whimpering softly and running her hands up and down his back.
She gasped and wrapped her legs around him when he hit her sweet spot, "Oh, Joel….yes…oh…fuck me harder" He lost all control and began pumping into her faster, Ellie's moans grew louder with each thrust, she didn't sound like the naive girl he was used to, she sounded like a woman now. "Joel I fucking love you.." she said breathlessly into his ear. A few moments later she yelled his name and threw her head back on the mattress, her body spasmed and shook as she rode out of her orgasm, Joel quickly pulled out once he felt her body go limp, he groaned as he came, sperm landed on the floor next to the mattress That's gonna leave a stain. When he was empty he grabbed the blanket from the couch and wrapped the two of them in it. "Thank you, Joel that was perfect, I love you" She kissed his lips gently, then they both lid there, holding each other and listening to the final song of the album play their evening out "Where did you sleep last night"
My girl, my girl, don't lie to me
Tell me where did you sleep last night
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
My girl, my girl, where will you go
I'm going where the cold wind blows
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
Her husband, was a hard working man
Just about a mile from here
His head was found in a driving wheel
But his body never was found
My girl, my girl, don't lie to me
Tell me where did you sleep last night
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
My girl, my girl, where will you go
I'm going where the cold wind blows
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
My girl, my girl, don't lie to me
Tell me where did you sleep last night
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
My girl, my girl, where will you go
I'm going where the cold wind blows
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
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