A/N sorry it took so long DX anyway onward!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Evin's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I saw Darren pull away from Madison and they started to tremor and fell, Darren onto the floor; Madison her cot they both started retching. All of a sudden Madison stopped moving, "Madison!" I yelled panicking. Mr. Crepsley walked over to her and spit on her fingers closing the cuts. "Will she be okay?"

"She'll be okay," Darren grumble groggily. "I hate that. Here," he said tossing me a test tube like flask of blood, "have her drink that when she wakes up."

"Right," I said uncertainly, "what do I do is if she has another spasm?"

"Leave her be if it last more than 2 minutes then tell the Vons," he said walking out of the tent Mr. Crepsley following.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Madison's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

When I woke up it was pitch black, like you can't see your hand in front of your face. I sat bolt upright, and my head started spinning. I stood up and found my to the mouth of the tent I walked out inhaling deeply as I flop onto the grass. I looked up at the sky and saw stars millions of them the moon was big and bright, I felt like I could lay there forever. I heard Evin come out and sit next to me. "Ev, look at the moon," I said sitting up slowly.

Evin looked up, the moonlight reflecting in her eyes, "It's beautiful," she said. "Here," she handed me a test tube like glass filled with a dark red liquid, "Darren said you should drink that."

"No, I won't," I whispered.

"Why?"

"I just won't."

"Why?!" she asked aggravated.

"Because if I do I will be a monster, do you realize how much danger you are in because of me?" I cried. "You could have had a normal friend that couldn't crush you by giving you a hug. That wouldn't have gotten you dragged into all of this, I could have left and became a vampaneze, but I was selfish. I decided that I would become a vampire. Now I think that all I will cause is pain to you Evin," I finished staring at my finger tips.

"My, my, what moving speech," a voice said that made blood run cold. It that pompous tone that made me tense, the voice that belonged to Mr. Tiny.

"Is there something you need Desmond?" asked Darren's questioning voice, "Or are just tormenting my assistant?"

I stood up pulling Evin up with me, I dragged her into the tent, but I could still hear them talking.

"You, an assistant, I would have never guessed," Mr. Tiny said mockingly. I could see an evil smirk on his, clearly in my mind's eye.

"Is there something you need, Desmond?" Darren repeated.

"Des; please, Darren," he said in a falsely cheery voice, "I came to drop off some Little People."

"In the dead of night, now, what do you want?" Darren asked in a measured but irritated tone.

"I want to speak with you," said Mr. Tiny.

"Very well," Darren said, "follow me." I heard them walk off.

I looked at Evin; she looked a scared as I felt, "shall we hit the hay?" I asked even though I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. I sat on my cot and pulled out my head lamp and Twilight, I laughed silently. Vampires sparkle? I thought, how funny that as I read this vampire book, vampire blood is coursing through my veins. And how different it is how real vampires pump their blood into you but here they bite you like in legends. Eventually my eyes started to droop and I started to read the same line over and over. I turned out my light and fell asleep.

That night I had a dream- no nightmare; Evin and I were walking down an alley, Evin was two yards in front of me humming merrily. Slowly I crept closer until I was almost breathing down her neck, she slowly turned around, "Madison what are you do-," she never finish for I had grabbed her by the throat, cutting off her air supply. She struggled, scrabbling at my hands, and then she became still, but I could still feel a pulse. She had fainted I bent my head low to bite her, no, I thought suddenly, I will not. Don't give in Madison, don't do it. I dropped Evin, but it was I who was falling not Evin, falling into nothingness, and as I reached out for something to hold on to I saw the evil mocking of Desmond Tiny- Des Tiny- Destiny. My eyes blurred as I realized that I was falling to my death.

I sat bolt upright. Panting covered in sweat. The sun was rising outside, I got up and went outside and watched it thinking. Am I really a monster? Would I actually hurt Evin? Even when I was human I would hurt her by accident. She's fragile, and I have this new strength. What if I do hurt her? I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I heard a rustle pulling me out of my daze; I glanced up sharply looking for what made the noise. At first I saw nothing, and then I saw a disturbance in the landscape, "you can show yourself Urcha," I said grinning.

"Aw man! How did you know it was me?" he asked.

"Grass doesn't grow and shrink in a matter of seconds," I explained simply. "Now, what are you doing out here?"

Urcha fidgeted for a moment before saying, "Dad asked me to watch you."

"Why?" I asked suspiciously.

"In case you had a seizure, or something."

"Mm, well as you can see I am perfectly fine," I said feeling utterly depressed.

"No, you're not," seeing through my façade, "now what's on your mind?"

"Nothing," I lied. He gave me the I-know-you-are-lying-so-just-tell-me look. I gave him the not-in-a-million-years look. Urcha raised an eyebrow at me, and I cracked. I told him my fears and about my dream. I told him everything, I laid my soul out on a silver platter, not once did he interrupt me. When I finished he said nothing but stood and gave me a hug. "Don't tell anyone what I told you."

"I wouldn't dream of it," he said grinning.

"Thanks Urcha," I said grinning back at him.

"Shall we go see if breakfast has been started?" he asked.

"Don't we need to take the tents down first?"

"No, this is where the next show is. Didn't you see the camps and stuff we passed?"

"Uh, no," I said.

Urcha rolled his eyes, "come on," he said, plucking at my jacket.

By the time we got to the fire pit a bunch of people were there chatting happily waiting for the fire to get hot enough to cook on. I looked around interestedly looking at all the people. I saw Cormac Limbs looking at me from a distance, I smiled and waved. He waved back and walked towards Urcha and me.

"Good morning, Madison, Urcha," he said offering us his hand, and, to his great surprise, I took it, "finally got over the hand thing I see."

"Forgive and forget," I smiled happily.

"Well I'm glad to see it. You have been rather gloomy lately."

I grinned and shrugged, "I've had a lot on my mind, you know."

"It's not easy becoming a half-vampire, according to Darren and Mr. Crepsley," Urcha said innocently.

"A half-vampire you say?" Cormac asked interestedly.

"Yeah, I'm a half-vampire, what about it?"I said suspiciously.

"Nothing, it is just you don't meet many young half-vampires."

"How many have met?" I asked.

"Including you? Two."

"Who was the other one?"I asked interestedly.

"Don't you know?" he asked surprised. "It was Darren."

"Darren?"

"Yeah," Urcha confirmed, "Dad says that's why he met Darren. He was unhappy with just him and Mr. Crepsley so they came back here."

"Wait your dad is like 10 years older than Darren," I said,

"Physically, yes, but dad is just a few years older in all technicalities."

"Huh, what do you mean?"

"Half-vampires age 1 year for every 5 years, and full 1 every 10 years. Didn't you know?" Cormac explained.

"No, it all happened so quickly," I said depressed.

Next thing I knew was that I was being put into a head lock and Evin was yelling. "Don't you ever run off without telling me or I will kill you then bring you back to life!"

I quickly shifted and got Evin into a head lock. "A simple good morning would do," I laughed.

"Back to your old self I see!"

"Of course," I smiled. After that everything was kind of boring, Evin and I helped the Von children with their chores which varied depending on what needed to be done.

At night fall Darren and Mr. Crepsley showed up like they usually did, and Darren walked over to where Evin and I were chatting with Lilia Von; she was only 10 and the youngest of the Vons and your stereotypical 10 year old. It was like Darren was a gift, because if I had to sit through another minute of her telling us about how she wanted to dye her hair and asking a bazillion questions I might have gone crazy. "Darren!" I exclaimed, glad to have an excuse to divert my attention from Lilia; I mean, she's a nice girl but she talks too much.

Darren chewed his dinner and swallowed, "once we finish eating we'll start your lessons," he said.

"What lessons?" I asked swallowing.

"Vampire lessons," he said bluntly, "seeing as you are a vampire, you need a mentor, that would be me if that is acceptable to you, and if so then you will be my assistant, if not then I could pull a few strings and get you a different mentor."

"If I become your assistant will we be able to stay with the cirque?" I asked.

"Yes, of course! However if Larten and I both leave for one reason or another I will take you with me if it is for an extended period of time."

"Sounds good to me," I said.

By this time Darren and I finished our dinner, "Well, let us be off," Darren said walking off.

"Where are we going?" I asked him as I ran to catch-up (I had hung back to tell Evin that I would be back later and not to worry.)

"Am I correct in saying that you didn't drink the blood I gave to Evin for you?" he said, I nodded guiltily. "Thought so, we are going to hunt."

"Hunt!" I exclaimed revolted, it was like humans were mere animals or something like that.

"Yes, we are going to find you an animal for you. While we hunt I will teach you what animal we can and can't drink from."

"Oh," I said relived.

As we walked he told me about the animals we could and couldn't drink from. At one point Darren stopped, "Why are we stop-?"

"Shhh," he said, tilting his head to one side, trying to listen, and then I heard it to the rustling of grass, "Rabbit. Ok, I want you to sneak up behind it, grab it and break its neck. Think you can do that?"

I looked at him horrified, and shook my head no.

"Hm, alright I'll get you the rabbit but you will learn to hunt on your own," he said and started to follow the rabbit. As he swooped down to grab it. I closed my eye not wanting to see it die, as I did my head started to spin, I started to shake and be for I could catch myself I fell face first into the grass. The fit lasted about a minute but left me feeling weak. I turned on my back and saw Darren leaning over me looking concerned, holding the rabbit by the ears "Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine."

"Good," he said relived. "Here's your rabbit," he said, cutting the rabbit's shoulder with his nail, "all you have to do is clamp your mouth over the cut and suck."

I did as he said and I drank nearly all of its blood. Once I finished I felt much better, but I did feel a little bad about killing the rabbit, "what are we going to do with it?"

"Feed it to the wolf-man," he shrugged, "Waste not, want not."

We walked back to the Cirque after that, Darren telling me more poisonous animals. I'll have to write all this down, I thought unenthusiastically. By the time we reached the cirque was about 1 in the morning. Darren told me I was dismissed, I dashed to my tent to tell Evin about my lesson and to write down what I had learned in a spiral note book. As I neared my tent I saw a figure sitting in front of it. Evin! I started to slow down when I was about 10 feet away, but I was going too fast and ran right into Evin.

"Damn it!" Evin exclaimed through clenched teeth. I looked over at her she was clutching her leg and her teeth gritted in pain.

At that moment Evra Von came rushing out of his tent, "what happened?"

"I think I broke Evin's leg," I cried.

Evra rushed over to Evin and picked her up, "Go get Mr. Tall," he ordered carrying Evin into his tent.

I ran as fast as I could to Mr. Tall's van, slowing down 50 feet away, and skidded to a stop in front of his van. As I raised my fist to knock Mr. Tall opened the door, and raised an eye brow at me, "it is rather late," he said.

"I think I broke Evin's leg," I said close to tears, "Mr. Von told me to come get you."

Mr. Tall sighed and walked in the direction of the Von's tent, and then he vanished. I hate it when he does that, I thought bitterly, at least I know he will get there fast, I sighed and started jogging slowly not wanting to hurt anyone else. When I got to the Von's tent I saw Mr. Tall examining Evin's leg, and Evin breathing hard. I stood in the doorway watching, Mr. Tall paused and touched Evin's leg, she gasped in pain and grimaced. Mr. Tall gave a slight nod and opened his hands. Evin sighed in relief, Mr. Tall stood and walked in my direction, as he passed he smiled.

"Thanks," I said, forcing a slight smile. I walked over to Evin and Evra, "Thank you, Mr. Von."

"Call me Evra, please," he said smiling.

"R-right," I said, and then turned to Evin. "I am so sorry! It's all my fault!"

"No it wasn't," she said defiantly.

"Yes it was! You took the blame when I broke my arm, now it's my turn!"

"There you go, it was revenge," she joked.

"It isn't funny!" I yelled, storming out of the tent. I ran into my tent and grabbed my blanket, notebook, pen, pencil, and headlamp. I headed outside and went behind our tent and laid down in a small ditch where I could hopefully sleep in peace without Evin disturbing me. I turned on my headlamp and put it on; I filled in everything I could remember from my lesson with Darren. I finished doing that within 30 minutes. It was about that time when I heard footsteps. It was Evin. I knew it was without seeing her. I shrank as small is I could covering my light. She saw me and I knew it.

I could sense the internal battle raging within her "Do I go talk to her or let her be?"

Let me be, let me be, I thought desperately. As if reading my mind she walked away. Gradually I stretched out again thinking, I hurt Evin my best friend, as I thought I sketched. Hair first defining the head, then chin; slightly more pointed than usual. Neck, shoulders, and the torso outline come next. I return to the head; eyebrows first, then eyes they have an ashamed look about them; they're looking in the lower left hand corner. The nose is tiny barely a curved line. I pause when I reach the mouth, but only for a moment then, I draw a mouth with a slight frown; and very lightly I sketch fangs, tiny and light. Then I move on from the face to the torso. I draw the arms in and insert the curves. Then I draw the shirt; I make it baggier than usual. Finally I start to shade moving from top to bottom until I was finished. Me, I thought sourly, this is what I am. I am ashamed. I put my stuff on the ground next to me and looked at the stars as I drifted off to sleep.

A nightmare, it's the same nightmare from last night. Falling, falling, will I ever stop falling? I fall towards the arms of death. That is if I ever stop falling, I thought.

I woke with a start, confused to be laying outside staring at the sunrise. Then the events of last night come rushing back to me.

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