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Dear Diary,

It's been three days. Alice says there's no sign of him coming back. Esme is starting to panic. Why doesn't he even contact us? Well, I wouldn't speak to him, but it would reassure everyone else who still thinks he deserves to be missed.

Even Emmett has taken his side.

'Rosalie,' he had said last night. 'Just give it a rest, for God's sake.'

'Give what a rest?' I asked indignantly.

'You know what. This hating Edward thing. It's bothering everyone else, especially Jasper. You know negative emotions affect him badly. Edward isn't weak, he can't help it. Some humans really do smell better to one vampire than they do to another. I know it. I've experienced it twice. And you know what? I didn't last a second. Edward should really be given some credit.'

I grimaced. I suppose I knew that he was right in my heart, but I just couldn't accept I was wrong.

'Oh, great. So you're sticking up for the selfish idiot too, now,' I huffed.

'You know I'm right, babe. You just won't accept you're wrong,' he said, smiling that smile that reminded me so much of Vera's little boy, the one that numbed just a little of the longing in my heart. Except it had a patronising edge to it. He knew me too well.

'No. I know that Edward is stupid and selfish, and he does not deserve to be given any credit at all for it,' I said, stubborn as always. I just can't seem to help it. It had not been in my nature to give in even when I was human, and it had intensified more when I became a vampire.

Emmett smiled wider, deepening the dimples at the corners of his mouth. He knew that I knew he was right, of course. He knows me too well, like I said before.

Dear Diary,

Another day, still no sign of him showing up. Esme is in a state of turmoil. She's somehow convinced herself that it's her fault that Edward left and that he's not coming back. It's stupid, but it's still bothering her. Carlisle is comforting her but it only helps a little. Alice is clearly missing him a lot, too.

Why does he have to do this too us? Why does he have to be so selfish?

Dear Diary,

Six days. After six days of hiding, he's finally back.

Finally. More like unfortunately. I was beginning to hope he wouldn't come back at all. No, no. That's just being as selfish as Edward. You only had so see Esme's face light up when she heard the news to know how much joy it brought her to have him coming home. She is so much better now, she was really worried about him.

I still think he's selfish, though, because he wouldn't have left in the first place if he wasn't. And I don't get why he came back. Alice can't tell, she just saw him on the road back to Forks. But, I mean, nothings changed. He still wants to kill Bella. Alice can tell that much. If she really smells that good, why didn't he kill her then and there? Or why doesn't he just kill her now and stop all this suffering?

Oh dear, he heard that.

'Stop all this suffering? Who for, Rosalie? If I kill her, it would cause more suffering for everyone who knew and loved her. You don't think of anyone but yourself,' he was getting really angry now. Why was he being so defensive? 'To you, she's just another weak human. Like you were just another pretty girl to Royce.'

I winced at that name. I hated to admit it, but he was right. I was thinking about her like she didn't matter at all.

It still didn't stop me hating her though.

Dear Diary,

Everyone is being ridiculous about this. Alice was keeping tabs on Edward all day. We even had to guard him when his went into the canteen.

Ridiculous.

'It's going to be okay,' Alice whispered. Emmett was taking this ridiculously seriously, but he always did when there was any hint of danger. It was about the only time he took things seriously. It wasn't the danger he took seriously, either. Emmett's not scared of anything. It's the possibility of a fight, something exciting happening that he takes seriously. I don't blame him, to be honest. Like I said before, nothing usually happens in this half-life.

But anyway, back to the point. Everyone was paying ridiculously close attention to Edward today, and nothing even happened. It's stupid. Edward was a bit irritated, too. But he also seemed... distracted, as well. All day. I wonder what was up.

Emmett seems to be seeing my view as well. Just get it over with. It will just be another mysterious death, another family disappear. We'd turn up in another depressing town, carry on with our dismal part-life. Hardly any disruption caused. Hardly any disruption compared to this. But he was stupidly protecting this girl. He has even gone hunting, just to be sure.

Why? Why is he doing this?

Dear Diary,

Oh. My. God.

What has he done now?

It started off as a normal day. The snow that had formed over the past few days was gone, leaving the road icy, but we got to school okay. However, it all went badly wrong.

Tyler Crowley, one of the Swan girl's friend, took a bad turn at the parking lot and skidded straight towards Isabella. It would have been alright – okay, she might have been a bit hurt, but that wouldn't have affected us – but for some reason, Edward got it in his head to save her. He ran full speed to stop the van, and stopped it with his bare hands in front of everyone. Luckily, I don't think anybody saw apart from Isabella Swan, but that's easily covered up. Slight concussion, panicked delusions, it's happened before. But it was still a stupid risk to take. I let him know that when I saw him after school. Mentally, though I would have prefered to physically. There were just too many witnesses.

Emmett is being all forgiving. He thinks it's not that big a deal. He doesn't seem to mind that Edward is putting our entire future in jeopardy. But then, nothing really bothers Emmett. That's one of the things I love about him.

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