A/N: So, I didn't get my 7 reviews, but I did get some new readers, so I am happy that you guys enjoyed my last chapter. I was honestly scared that you guys wouldn't like the blood-play thing, but like I said, it was necessary to Edward's explanation. Many of you said that the chapter was 'AWESOME", and I greatly appreciate that. So here's the next chapter, and more of Edward's memories. As always, my Beta Fate Lowe rocks!

Disclaimer: I own nothing, but the plot.

It still felt like I was falling, but I was still aware of my surroundings, and I knew it was Edward's arms that were holding me. What had me confused, was that we were no longer outside, but inside one of the hotel rooms. I could hear voices around me, asking if I was ok, but it was only Edward's that I recognized.

"She's fine, but she is sort of trapped right now in the memories. She won't come to, until they have run their course."

I fell into another memory then, but it wasn't just one, it was several at once, and it bowed my back and I felt myself gasping for air. I fought to rid myself of the memories, but Edward's grip on me tighten as he whispered, "It's alright Bella, don't fight them. Let them come to you." And with that I felt myself relax and let myself fall.

There were several faces scattered around me; they all looked somewhat familiar, but I knew I didn't know any of them. Four females stood in front of me in a line, all pretty in their own way, but as I looked at the last girl in the line, I noticed that she looked more familiar to me than the others, but I couldn't figure out why.

I walked up to the first girl and noticed something odd about her features. We were the same height and body build, nothing really weird there. Her hair was a caramel color, her eyes were a light hazel with small flecks of brown in them, her lips were full and soft looking, but when I stood back and looked at her face as a whole, I gasped. It was the same shape as mine, heart-shaped.

Interesting.

I moved onto the second girl and her hair was the first thing I saw. Nothing else, just her hair. Its color matched my own. Mahogany brown. I reached up and ran my fingers through it. Soft, just like mine. I stepped back and looked at her her face and noted that her eyes were similar to the first girl, but that they were a darker shade of hazel, with more brown in them. When I looked again, I saw that her face had indeed the same heart-shape as mine as well.

Ok. Hmm.

When I moved onto the third girl, I immediately saw that she had the same heart-shape face, and the same color hair, her eyes were notably more brown, but when I got to her lips, I noticed that were very much the same as mine. Her lower lip was just a little too full to match her top lip.

Ok, this is getting weird.

Moving onto the last girl in the line, I notice all the same features as before: hair color, lips, heart-shaped face. Each girl had one more strikingly similar feature than the girl before her. But it was this last girl that really took my breath away. Her eyes. They were the exact same chocolate brown that mine had been when I washuman. I stumbled back and really looked at her, and that's when I realized why she looked so familiar, she had been my last female victim. The resemblance between herself and I was almost scary, she could easily pass for my sister, if I had ever had one.

Suddenly puzzled, I stepped back and looked at each female in turn, noting their similarities, and when I got to the last female who I had known through her blood, it dawned on me. Every single one of these girls had a feature that was the same as one of my own. But why? Could this mean that Edward had been searching for me all these years and had found a girl that reminded him of me?

"Yes," Edward whispered.

I blinked and the memory faded and I found myself staring at Edward's beautiful face. Some of my hair had fallen over my face and Edward smoothed it away.

"I'm confused," I said moving away from him slightly. I looked around me and noticed we were sitting on the floor of the hotel room. I shifted in his arms again, and as his grip loosened. I moved to stand up, leaving Edward sitting on the floor at me feet. His head hung as he clasped his hands in his lap.

"What does this all mean Edward?" I asked pacing in front of him. Edward sighed and looked up at my pacing form.

"It means my subconscious was looking for you, seeking you out, even though I told myself to just leave you alone so you could be happy," he whispered, his voice was shaking slightly.

I stopped and looked at him. "How do you know that I wasn't happy with you? You didn't give me the chance to prove it you. Here, all this time, I thought I wasn't good enough for you, not pretty enough, not special enough. I always knew I didn't deserve you, and you walking away from me proved me right," I said.

"That's not it Bella and you know that. How many times did I tell you that your were, I mean, are the most beautiful creature that I have ever laid eyes on? I just thought you deserved better than me, someone who could give you a normal human life. Marriage, kids, you deserved all those things, and I knew I couldn't give them to you, at least the kids part," Edward said. He stood up gracefully as if pulled by invisible strings and stared at me.

"Who the fuck do you think you are deciding my future for me?" I asked crossing my arms over my chest. I could feel my eyes changing as the anger took over me.

"I was just trying to do what I thought was best for you," Edward said.

'Indeed,' I thought.

"What about what I thought? Hmm? Did you ever think for one second to pull your head out of your ass and ask me what I wanted?" I asked gritting my teeth.

'Asshole!'

"No. I just wanted to do right by you. I wanted you to be able to have all those things I couldn't give you. I wanted you to be happy," Edward replied.

'That's it!'

I punched him before he could blink and he flew through the air and crashed into the wall denting it. He crumbled to the floor and blinked at me, blood trickling from the corner of his mouth as I walked over to him.

"How dare you? I was perfectly happy with you, and you tossed me away like yesterday's leftovers. You wanted me to be happy? You should have stayed and let the chips fall where they may," I seethed.

He jumped up and took a hold of my shoulders. "I would have killed you."

I glared at him. "So? I would have died happy in the arms of the man I loved. Is that such a horrible way to die?" I shrugged his arms off of me and walked over to the bed, sitting at the end of it.

I felt the bed sink next to me and heard Edward sigh. "You knew what my blood could do, why didn't you just try?" I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.

"You know why," Edward replied taking my hands in his. "You heard it in the memory, you wouldn't have wanted me to stop."

I stared at his hands holding mine. It always felt right when we held hands, and tonight was no different. "What took you so long? I mean, why 80 years?"

Edward sighed as his thumbs drew lazy circles over the back of my hands. "Can I ask you a question first, before I tell you why?" he asked softly.

"Ok." I scooted back onto the bed and drew Edward back with me, arranging us so that we were facing one another.

"When were you changed?"

I had been waiting for this question. "On my 18th birthday," I said flatly looking at our hands.

"What happened?" he asked placing a finger under my chin and lifting my head so that I could look him in the eye.

"Jasper thought it would be fun if we took a ride together," I started.

"A ride?" Edward asked raising his eyebrows.

"Yeah, when you left, I went a little wild, doing things I normally wouldn't do. Jacob had taught me how to ride a motorcycle--"

"Stupid mutt!" Edward said sharply.

"Can I finish?" I asked glaring at him.

"Sorry," he said smiling.

"Anyways, Jasper bought me a Ducati for my birthday, and--" Edward dropped my hands and jumped off the bed. "I'll kill him!" he fumed.

Edward was heading toward the door and about to rip it off the hinges, when I jumped up off the bed and tackled him against the door. I whipped him around and shoved his back against the door. "You'll do no such thing, asshole. He earned his right to be inmy life, and you haven't," I said glaring at him. Edward's face crumbled slightly and I added, "And if you want to earn that right, then you will sit back down on that bed and let me finish." I stepped away from him and watched as he walked around me and sat down on the bed, resting against the headboard.

'God, men can be so insufferable!' I thought.

I made my over to the bed and sat in front of him. "Now, where was I before I was so rudely interrupted?"

"Jasper bought you a new bike," Edward said gritting his teeth.

"Yes, and what a fucking awesome bike it was!"

"Was?" Edward asked.

"Are you done?" I asked cocking an eyebrow at him. Edward held his hands up in surrender, then placed them behind his head.

"Yes was, and I will get to that. Anyways, we were riding around Forks, just enjoying the scenery and letting me get a feel for the bike. Jasper was riding a little ahead of me and we were taking a hard curve, so he disappeared for a second. When I stared rounding the curve, my front tire snagged something in the road and it threw me off the bike. At the time, I didn't know how far I had been thrown, but when I looked up I saw Jasper racing back toward me. I tried sitting up, to remove my helmet, but my body didn't seem to be working."

I stared down at my hands and felt Edward crawl toward me. I closed my eyes for a second and felt him place his hands on my knees. "What happened next?" he asked, his voice quivering.

I took in a much needed breath, and continued. "I saw Jasper lay his bike down, whipping off his helmet and racing over to me. I couldn't hear what he was saying, but I saw his mouth moving, asking if I was ok, but I couldn't speak. He gently removed my helmet and gasped. I don't know what he saw, but he jumped back slightly and pulled his cellphone out and called someone. I could smell theblood, and must have passed out, because the next thing I knew, I was at your house, and Carisle was looking me over. I saw everyone around me, Esme, Alice, Jacob and Jasper, and they all had the same grief stricken look on their faces. I don't know what happened after that, only that when I opened my eyes again, I was a vampire. Carisle later explained that I had been thrown into a tree and it caused major internal bleeding, a couple of broken ribs, broke my right leg and arm, and a severe laceration across the side of my neck, and that I wouldn't have made it in time if they raced me to the hospital. So, he said that Jasper changed me."

I felt tears leaking from my eyes as I remembered that fateful day. I had always wanted Edward to be the one who changed me, but after he left, I never thought about becoming one of them. When I looked up at Edward, he looked confused. "What?"

"How are you crying? Vampires can't cry," he asked wiping away my tears.

I snorted. "Well, this vampire can," I said wiping the rest of my tears away. I smoothed my hair back away from my face and looked at Edward who still lookedconfused.

"What?"

"Nothing," he said and stood up from the bed, but I snagged his hand. He peered down at my hand holding his, then at me, and smiled.

"Where are you going? You still owe me an explanation, don't think for one second that I forgot," I said tugged him back down.

"I haven't forgot. I was just going to take a shower, and truthfully so should you. You still have specks of blood in your hair; I can smell it."

"Oh," I said letting go of his hand.

I watched as he walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind him and turned on the water. After two minutes someone knocked on my door. I huffed and got off of the bed. I opened the door to see Jasper standing there with a small duffel bag. I smiled when I saw him and motioned for him to come in.

"Are you alright?" he asked setting down the duffle bag on the bed.

"Seeing as Edward robbed me of my food, but provided me some answers, I guess I'm ok," I said honestly.

Jasper stared at the floor. "Are you mad at me for keeping this from you all these years?" I walked toward him and wrapped my arms around his shoulders hugging him to me, and after a second he encircled my waist with his. I rested my head on his shoulder and breathed him in. He still smelled like home to me; I could never be mad at him for very long. I just shook my head and felt him release a wave of calm over me. I sagged against him and let him hold me. He pulled back slightly and kissed my forehead. I smiled lazily into his shoulder.

'I hate him when he does that,' I thought.

"No you don't. You enjoy it, what are best friends for?" he asked with his lips still pressed against my forehead.

"And if I didn't know any better, I would say you could read thoughts like Edward can," I said pulling back and letting my arms drop so that they rested on his upper arms.

"Nope, I can feel your annoyance towards me," he said smiling.

"If you were anyone else Jasper, I would come out there right now and kill you!" Edward yelled over the noise of the shower.

Jasper turned his head and yelled, "That may be true, but your welcome anyways." Jasper turned back and smiled down at me again. "There are clothes for both of you in the bag. Alice said it's supposed to be overcast tomorrow, so we're leaving around 11am."

I nodded and stepped back. He kissed me again on my forehead and moved toward the door. With his hand on the doorknob he turned and said, "I'm just next door, holler if you need me." And with that he opened the door and left.

When the door clicked softly, I heard the water turn off and suddenly became slightly nervous. Edward was in the bathroom, naked, and that was something I had never seen before. Should I knock on the door and give him his clothes through a tiny crack in the door? Should I just sit on the bed with my back to the bathroom door, and wait for him to be fully dressed before I turned around? Yes, that was exactly what I was going to do.

'Gah! Why am I so nervous? Oh yeah, cause I'm almost a 100 years old, and I've never even been to second base. Loser.'

I sat on the edge of the bed with my back to the bathroom door and stared at the closed curtain window. I heard the door open and held my breath as I heard Edward walk softly into the room. I straightened as I felt the bed dip, but relaxed when I heard the duffel bag opening.

'Edward is standing behind me, naked, hopefully in a towel, but naked nonetheless,' I thought.

My mouth watered slightly as I remembered what his chest looked like. Remembering the feeling of his body pressed up against mine, made my body tightenagain. I stood quickly from the bed and raced into the bathroom closing the door behind me with a sigh as I leaned back against the door.

'Damn my teenage hormones!'

After thoroughly washing my hair and body, I turned off the water and stepped out. Quickly drying myself with the annoyingly little hotel towels that were provided, I realized that in my hasty getaway, I had neglected to retrieve any of the clothes that Jasper had brought for me.

"Shit!" I whispered loudly.

"Bella? Everything ok?" Edward said through the door.

"Uh, yeah, I just forgot my clothes, and these towels are too small," I said looking around the bathroom. I was about to put my dirty clothes back on, when I heard a knock at the door.

"Can I come in?" Edward asked. I saw the doorknob turning, so I dropped the clothes mid-motion and grabbed the first towel I saw, quickly covering my front.

The door creaked open and Edward's head came into view. "Are you decent?" he asked with his eyes closed. I checked over myself to make sure I was completely covered, and said, "As decent as this hotel towel will allow."

Edward opened his eyes and opened the door further. He was dressed in plain blue jeans and a black t-shirt, and had a bundle of clothes in his hand. He smiled when he saw me, just standing here holding a towel longways to cover my front from just above my breasts to mid-thigh.

"What?" I asked.

I watched as he walked further into the bathroom and set the clothes on the sink, not saying one word. I watched his eyes shift for a second then settle back on my face, smirking.

"What?" I asked watching him move back out of the room.

"Nice ass," he chuckled and closed the door.

I stood there for a second dumbfounded, and looked down at myself. My front was covered, how in the hell had he seen my ass? I looked around the bathroom and found my answer. The mirror. The way I had been standing, there was a clear view of my backside in the mirror.

"Dammit!" I yelled. I got dressed quickly and exited the bathroom to find Edward lounging in the bed with his eyes closed.

"Don't be soshocked Bella. I'm sure Jasper has seen much more than I just did."

"Not that itis any of your business, but Jasper has never seen one intimate inch of my body," I said placing my hands on my hips in annoyance.

Edward opened his eyes and stared at me as if saying, 'Yeah, ok.'

"I'm serious. Jasper and I were never lovers." Edward cocked his eyebrows at this. "Never? But I thought?"

I walked over and sat on the end of the bed with my back to him. "You thought wrong, as usual. Other than affection and a couple of kisses, we were never intimate with each other. I never wanted Jasper in that way," I said twisting my fingers around my damp hair.

The bed moved and I felt Edward pull me back into his chest, wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his chin on my right shoulder. "You've never had a lover?" he asked quietly.

I shook my head softly. "Have you?" I asked.

'Please say no. Please say no.'

"No. Like you, I was affectionate and shared a couple of kisses, but I never wanted any of them like that. There is only one person that I have ever wanted in that way," he said moving my hair away from my neck.

"And...who...might that be?" I asked.

"You," he whispered placing a feather-soft kiss on the side of my neck had just beenexposed.

I melted into his embrace as he continued to place soft open mouthed kisses up and down the side of my neck. A rush of warmth spread throughout my body as Edward's tongue sensually lapped at my skin, causing me to moan softly in turn as I closed my eyes.

'Good God that feels good!'

I felt his hands release my waist, but moved slowly up my sides, over my ribs until they rested under each breast. The sensation caused my nipples to harden. We had never done this before, and though I was slightly nervous, the delicious feeling of his tongue and lips against my neck and his thumbs that were now moving slowly back and forth under my breast caused that nervousness to ebb. I moaned again as Edward's teeth grazed the back of my neck.

Desire coursed through my veins as I brought my hands behind me and buried them into his hair, tugging lightly. Edward growled deep in his chest, sending vibrations against my back, which in turn caused me to shudder.

'This is what I have been missing?' I thought.

I felt a hardness against my lower back as Edward ground his hips against me. I had never felt that before, and I moaned at the sensation, grinding my hips back against him.

"Bella.." Edward whispered as his thumb grazed lightly over my harden peaks. I gasped at the feeling, it was positively sinful.

'Waited 80 years to feel this. Waited. 80 years.'

That thought snapped me out of the desire that had taken over my senses.

"Edward wait," I said breathing heavily.

"What's wrong, love?" Edward asked still softly kissing my neck.

I removed my hands from his hair and struggled out of his arms. He reluctantly let me go with a slight growl of annoyance. I stood up from the bed and turned to face him.

"You still owe me an explanation!"

A/N: So, what do you guys think? Reviews are appreciated, and I usually respond!!