I don't know why I said I was sorry. My loving nature would not allow me to blame anyone but myself for the misery that has befallen. Walking down the street I start to put together the pieces to the puzzle. The late night arrivals by Videl, the bruises on her hips and arms, as well as the scratches all lead to one obvious conclusion. I was blind to the facts. My mind was protecting myself from the hurt that would consume me.
I heard a noise, it was faint and muffled. I looked up to see my younger brothers pleading eyes. I still don't hear him. He stops in my path and I am numb to his words. My eyes are blurred by tears and my mind is numb. I walk past my brother and on continue as the sun sets on the night's sky. I speak words to myself as to why I am still here.
My legs carried me. I don't know where I was going until I reached my destination. I stopped and looked up at my former mentor and best friend. I know he knew all aspects revolving my life. It was his way of staying close. He would never come to me, but he would know when I would come to him. I stayed with him for three days meditating, we didn't speak. There were no words that can be spoken to fix these problems.
As I left my mentor I understood everything that led up to this fate. Piccolo never moving from his position spoke for the first time, he said "Life goes on." I smiled and replied "Yes it does." I had one and only one goal in mind to make Pan my whole life, to live my life to the fullest for her and to smile and try to enjoy life for my little girl.
I flew to my former home to pack my belongings. Pan was old enough to choose whether she would stay with me or with her mother. I can only pray that she would stay with me. As I walk through the doors I smell the fragrance of my former lover and still love of my life. Turning towards the kitchen I see my wife sipping coffee staring blankly at the wall. She looks up at me and quickly turns away in shame.
"I have just come to gather my stuff, then I will leave you alone Videl." I said in a loving voice. She nods her head never looking at me and I proceed up the steps. I place all my clothes into capsules and leave the room. Walking down stairs Videl looks at me with anticipation of what is to come. I assumed she expected me to yell or hit her. I did neither. I was defeated. The woman I loved with all my heart and soul placed a knife in my back stabbing my heart for all eternity. I walked up to her and said, "I am sorry I was not the one you wanted. I am sorry I could not give you all your desires. I am sorry that I drove you out of my arms and into my brothers. I love you Videl and always will. Good bye my dearest Videl and have wonderful life." No malice or hate was in my voice only love and acceptance.
Videl had fallen out of love with me and I could only blame myself. It is pathetic really. I was cheated on and the only thing I could think of was that it was my fault. I Headed for CC where I was met by all my friends and family save one, Goten. They were there to help me through this time of sorrow. I didn't want their help I only wanted the only person that was holding me to this plane. I needed Pan with me.
Pan stood across from me tears in her eyes. I wanted to take away those tears I wanted to make everything better. I wanted her to stay a happy little girl with no worries. She ran towards me and I opened my arms she jumped into them and cried. "I told you I would never leave you Pan," I said as I lifted her chin. She smiled and looked into my eyes "I don't want to stay with mom, I want to live with you. Don't leave me with mom." I told her that I would love that.
The divorce was quick and no arguments were made. Videl gave up everything and went back to her father taking over the family business. She was never heard from by the Son's or the Breif's again. Goten left shortly after the affair was known by the families. He visits once a year mostly during z-fighter gatherings. He mostly stays in the corner by himself never really talking to anyone besides our mother.
Living on my own with Pan has been a saving grace. I don't know what I would have done if Pan had not saved me. Thoughts of her were what kept my sanity.