Chapter 3
The next morning, when the sunshine came through the windows and curtains, three figures were peacefully sleeping in the room of Uchiha Sasuke. Said person was laying on his back, fast asleep. At his left, a black haired boy was sleeping, cradled against Sasuke, and at the other side, the right side, a brown haired boy laid. The last one was waking up slowly now. Neji looked around for some time, not really realising what happened. Then he looked at his left and stared for a few seconds.
"..Sasuke?!" He yelled with big eyes as he saw where he was and quickly jumped out of the bed, taking half of the sheets with him.
Sasuke's eyes shot open and he pushed himself up. "What!? What's wrong!?" He yelled as he woke up from Neji's scream. He then stared at Neji. What the hell!? What was Neji doing here!? He was supposed to be in America! And why was he naked?!
Haku was awake now too, staring at the two of them, confused. What had happened?
"What am I doing in your room?!" Neji yelled. "And why the hell am I naked?! And who's that?!"
Neji was looking at Haku now, frowning, but still panicking.
"...." Sasuke looked from Haku to Neji, back to Haku and then to himself. They were all naked. In his bed. And there was sperm on the sheets...and he was pretty sure he had been drunk..and pretty sure that Neji and Haku had been drunk too. And right then and there, he was pretty sure they had had a....well..threesome.
"...Shit..shit, shit, shit." Sasuke mumbled as he got up and quickly pulled on his boxer.
Neji was still holding the sheets tightly against him, staring at Sasuke with a frown, not knowing what to do now.
"...What happened?" Haku asked, looking at Sasuke.
"..We err...well you see...dammit. Ok listen and don't get mad.." Sasuke said as he grabbed Haku's face and looked him straight in the eyes. What should he say? Hey Haku, we had a threesome and that's Neji, my ex who I apparently can't get out of my damn head? Now 'that' would not work.
"...What is it?" Haku asked while Neji found out he had to get out of here. He quickly started to dress again.
"...We kind off...well err..we were drunk..and we had sex...with the three of us." Sasuke said and kept looking at Haku. Would he get mad? What should he do? Was Neji leaving? Neji could 'not' leave...not now..
"...Why?" Haku asked as he got big eyes.
Neji had pulled on his boxers and socks already, and was now putting on his pants and shirt. Damn it.. he had to get out of here. He felt that or Sasuke, or that other guy had fucked him.. he hoped it had been Sasuke though. Urgh, damn it. He just had to get out of there.
"..Why..? Well I don't know...we were drunk..Neji...stay." Sasuke said as he looked at Neji now. Why did this happen? This was the worst thing that could've happened. Ever. How was he supposed to get out of this?
"...No." Neji said, as he was putting on his shoes.
Haku frowned and looked at Sasuke, and then at Neji. Neji... that was Sasuke's ex.
"..Neji please, we have to talk this through..." Sasuke said. Dammit, how was he supposed to keep Haku 'and' Neji happy at the same time? He couldn't hurt either of them...he couldn't do that..
"..Sasuke no.. spend time with your boyfriend now, will you." Neji muttered, as he got up again and walked towards the door. He had to leave those two alone. He wouldn't let Sasuke ruin his new relationship. And Neji didn't wanted to stay here any longer, since he had to stop himself from kissing Sasuke right here.
Sasuke suddenly got up and grabbed Neji's hand. He knew it was stupid. He knew it could ruin everything he had with Haku. But he knew as well that if he didn't do it, Neji would walk right out that door and never come back.
"..Don't go...at least not until we talk about this.." Sasuke said.
"Sasuke don't you dare to break another heart!" Neji snapped and pulled his hand loose, walking away and slamming the door closed.
Haku frowned and looked at Sasuke. He knew that Sasuke wasn't over Neji. He knew that. And he understood it too.
"...Perhaps you should go after him." He said, looking at Sasuke.
"..But you...Haku I don't wanna hurt you.." Sasuke said as he grabbed to his head. Break another heart....had he really broken Neji's heart? So much? So much that Neji still felt that way? Dammit...why did this happen? It would ruin everything.
"..You won't Sasuke.. I know you love me." Haku said, smiling at Sasuke.
"..I do...I do..goddammit..Please...don't break up with me for this.." Sasuke said, almost begging before he threw open the door and ran after Neji. He hated doing it and yet he wanted nothing more then to get Neji back...this was so messed up. "Neji wait!" Sasuke yelled as he caught up with Neji.
"Leave me alone!" Neji yelled at Sasuke, while he started to walk even faster. God damn it. It felt like his heart was being broken 'again' by knowing that Sasuke had someone else now. He felt the tears come into his eyes again. Why couldn't he just forget about Sasuke?
"Neji I still love you!" Sasuke yelled as he finally got a hold of Neji's hand and turned him around. He looked Neji in the eyes desperate. Confused. He was ruining everything. Everything he had with Haku. Haku would never want him if he still loved Neji too...he would never..and Neji might not even want him back..but he couldn't help doing this..
"..Don't do this to me.." Neji said as he looked away, realising that the tears were coming out now. He missed Sasuke so bad. He didn't want anything else then throw himself into Sasuke's arms... but he couldn't. He loved Sasuke so much but hated him too. For having done this... for doing what he was doing now. "..And don't do this to your n-new boyfriend.." He pulled his arm loose.
"..Neji please...I mean it..I couldn't get you out of my head...not even after all those months..Neji please don't go like this.." Sasuke said as he stared at Neji, still desperate. Yes, he was hurting Haku with this. He knew far too well. And he knew he would end up hurting Neji too after he would go to Haku to apologise and tell him he loved Haku too. But..he loved them both..
"..Do you really think I believe you?" Neji asked, while he tried to wipe away his tears. "You broke up with me all of a sudden. Because I was too 'overwhelming'. If the sex was the only thing that mattered to you then your love for me was really pathetic." He snapped. He looked really angry now. You could see the hate in his eyes, but you could see how vulnerable he was too.
"...It wasn't the sex..I don't know what it was..I was stupid, that was it...I loved you then and I love you now..I'm sorry OK...just..don't go..." Sasuke said as he tried to blink his tears away. Seeing Neji look at him with so much hate it...it hurt him 'so' much...so much..
"..I won't let my heart get broken another time Sasuke." Neji snapped now as he turned around and opened the front door. He just had to get away.
"If you walk away now you'll break two..." Sasuke softly said. He hoped it would stop Neji. He hoped he would be able to explain. And he hoped that he could just run away after...Because he knew he would never be able to choose between Haku and Neji..and he knew that was what had to happen eventually.
Neji halted and at the moment Sasuke said that, he broke down into tears. He couldn't stop himself anymore from sobbing uncontrollable. Why did Sasuke ever break up with him? 'Why'?
Sasuke slowly walked closer and turned Neji around. He then pulled Neji into a hug. "...I'm so sorry..I should've never done it.." He softly said.
"..I f-fucking risked my life t-to be with you.. a-and you just broke up w-with me because I w-was too overwhelming.." Neji sobbed, sounding angry, but hugged back and held Sasuke for dear life.
"...I know..I'm sorry...I'm an asshole..And I understand it if you never wanna see me again..just don't hate me.." Sasuke said as he held onto Neji tightly. This might be the last time he could after all.
Neji kept sobbing, and only shook his head as an answer. He just wanted to go home and sleep. So he could forget about everything.
"...G-go back upstairs.." Neji managed to bring out after a few moments of silence.
"...You never wanna see me again..don't you..." Sasuke said as he let some tears slide down his cheeks...he was gonna lose Neji...and it was his own fault...his own stupid fault..
"..Not f-for the coming weeks indeed.." Neji muttered, while he let go of Sasuke. He really needed time to think now.
Sasuke was silent for a long while as he was swallowing his tears away..not for the coming weeks...Neji just never wanted to see him again...and he couldn't..Haku was still his boyfriend..and Sasuke loved Haku just as much as he did Neji..but it still hurt so much. "...I'm sorry..Just so you know..I really did...no..I really 'do' love you.." Sasuke said and then bit his lip.
"..W-why do you keep making it e-even more difficult?" Neji asked, looking at Sasuke now. He didn't even cared about the tears anymore.
"..Sorry...I just want you to know.." Sasuke said and looked at the floor now. This was far to difficult. He was shaking from it...This wasn't what was supposed to happen..Neji was supposed to be over him...Neji was supposed to have stayed away from him..and Sasuke was the only one supposed to be miserable..and now he was taking two of the people he loved the most with him..he was such an asshole.
"...I never s-stopped loving you." Neji softly said and then turned around and outside of the door, closing it behind him.
Sasuke stared at the door and let the tears stream down his face..This was not how it was supposed to go...it just wasn't..Now Neji was gone...and he would never come back..
Haku came walking downwards the stairs, looking at Sasuke. Not angry, not disappointed.. full of compassion. He walked towards him and hugged him, holding him close.
Sasuke pulled himself into Haku's embrace. He felt so embarrassed. So full of guilt. And Haku was right there...always right there to catch him.. "..I'm s-sorry.." Sasuke sobbed.
"Don't be.." Haku softly said. "It's OK to be in love with two people Sasuke... it happens.."
"No it's n-not OK! It's n-not! Y-you don't deserve it..and n-neither does Neji..." Sasuke cried and buried himself into Haku's neck. He shouldn't be the one crying. And Haku shouldn't be the one comforting him..this was so wrong...and yet it felt so right..
"..Sasuke.. you never stopped loving Neji.. but you started loving me.." Haku said. "..It's possible to love two people. Like you can feel like two persons are, for example, your best friends. You have the same feelings for them.. it's really possible... And I think you should spend a lot of time with Neji now..."
"No...I w-wanna spend time with you..y-you..Haku I'm s-sorry.." Sasuke sobbed. "..D-dammit why are you so..n-nice.."
"Since when is that a bad thing?" Haku asked with a soft smile on his face. "It's OK Sasuke. Cry, talk to me, and visit Neji. You can't leave it like this."
"..Well then w-what am I supposed to do..?" Sasuke asked. He really didn't know what to do...He had to choose..but he didn't wanna do that..he couldn't choose..
"Make him listen to you." Haku said. "Tell him why you broke up with him, answer all his questions. And, the most important thing, comfort him. I'm not glad to see you with another guy, I even get jealous of it, just so you know... but I guess you have to. Because I'm not the only one you love."
Sasuke looked at Haku now. "..I'm sorry..so sorry. So..you're saying I have to choose..right?" Sasuke asked, finally calmed down a little.
"...No you don't have to... If I need to share you with Neji to make you happy, I'll be glad to share you." Haku said, looking back at Sasuke.
"I just want you to be happy Sasuke."
Sasuke looked at Haku confused. Share him..? That wasn't right...it wasn't right..But..it would solve a lot...No, it wouldn't. It would make Haku and Neji miserable.."..I can't do that to you..or Neji.." Sasuke said and stared at the floor now.
"..Don't you think that both me and Neji will grab the least chance to be together with you and have you happy?" Haku asked. "If you'd chose one of us, I'd be unhappy because I'd know that you wouldn't be happy..."
"...I guess...but it's not fair..you wouldn't be happy..Neji wouldn't be happy..and then I wouldn't be happy Haku..I can't do that.." Sasuke said as he sat down on the couch with a sigh. He hated this..
"We will be happier then if you choose Sasuke." Haku said, sitting down next to him. This would be the last time for him to suggest something like this. If Sasuke'd say no again, he wouldn't start about it again.
"...Maybe.." Sasuke said and then pulled Haku on his lap. "..I'll have to talk to Neji first...and then we'll see...but don't forget I love you OK...Very, very much." Sasuke said.
"I love you too." Haku said, smiling at Sasuke. He then kissed him briefly on the lips.
Sasuke kissed back and sighed before pulling away. "..I'll talk to Neji later today..once he's cooled down..." Sasuke said and then layed him and Haku down on the couch, snuggling close to him. He just wanted as much time with Haku as possible. It might be all over in a flash.
At the same moment, Neji, who still had tears on his face, opened the door of his house. He had to apologise to Kurenai for not sleeping at home without saying anything... he had to explain everything, and he hated it. He opened the door now, feeling worse then ever. Sasuke had someone else...
Once Neji had opened the door Kurenai came storming out of the living room.
"Neji! Where the hell have you been!?" She yelled in panick as she grabbed Neji and hugged him. She had been worried sick about Neji.
"..I b-became drunk.. and I w-woke up in Sasuke's bed.." Neji sobbed, as he hugged back.
"You what...? Neji why did you become drunk? What did you do?" Kurenai asked as she hugged Neji tighter. Comforting him was her main priority.
"..I s-saw Sasuke together with h-his new boyfriend.. and I d-don't know.. I started drinking.. a-and this morning I woke up in h-his bed... with t-that boyfriend on the other side f-from Sasuke... We f-frigging had a threesome... g-god damn it..." Neji sobbed, crying even more. He couldn't stop crying anymore. It hurt so much.
"..Oh...Oh Neji I'm sorry...it's OK..that can happen...Come on, Sasuke's not worth it Neji.." Kurenai said as she led Neji to the living room and sat him on the couch.
Neji sat down while he bit his lip.
"..I s-still love him.." He softly said, almost whispered.
"..I know...But you'll get over him Neji, I know it..Now that you're back you can see all his bad sides and you'll get over him..you'll be fine." Kurenai said and hugged Neji again, this time sitting down.
"What's going on?" Asuma asked as he entered, and Neji buried his head into Kurenai's shoulder. Asuma looked at the two of them concerned, while he sat down.
"Neji had a threesome with Sasuke and...Sasuke's new boyfriend.." Kurenai said as she held onto Neji tightly. She looked at Asuma worried.
"...Why?" Asuma asked with a frown.
"He was drunk..." Kurenai answered as she stroke through Neji's hair. "Shh...Neji you'll be fine.."
"...H-he told me he still l-loves me.." Neji softly said.
"He did...? Why?" Kurenai asked surprised. What was Sasuke thinking? Hadn't he done enough?
"..H-he said he loves b-both me and that H-Haku.." Neji sobbed. "...H-he's only making it m-more difficult.."
"He can't love both of you Neji..Maybe he wants you back because he needs an egoboost." Kurenai said, a little angry.
"..I d-don't know.." Neji said, while trying to wipe away his tears. Damn it. Asuma was silent, looking at Kurenai. He didn't know what to do now.
"Asuma, would you please make Neji a cup of tea?" Kurenai asked. "And Neji, just let it rest for a while...you'll get over him." She told Neji.
Asuma nodded while he stood, walking towards the kitchen.
"...It's b-been half a year K-Kurenai.. and I'm s-still not over him.." Neji said, sniffing a bit.
"It's because you haven't seen him Neji..But if you see him here you'll see how he really is and you'll get over him. Trust me." Kurenai said as she whiped Neji's tears away.
"..W-why do you think he's a b-bad person..?" Neji asked, a bit confused. What was bad about Sasuke..? Except for the fact that Sasuke had dumped him for something stupid..?
"Remember what he dumped you for? And it didn't take long before he started dating around again with anyone he could get. Including that new boyfriend. We live near him Neji, we see what he does." Kurenai answered.
"...H-how long did it take then..?" Neji asked, looking at Kurenai with a frown on his face. Did Sasuke really get over him so fast..? Had Sasuke been lying this morning?
"I don't know..a week..maybe two." Kurenai answered. "But please Neji, don't let it get to you. It's got nothing to do with you, I already told you that when he broke up with you."
"...T-there's no o-one who came to me in A-America..." Neji muttered. "..It really has to have something to d-do with me.."
"No it hasn't Neji. People might get a little intimidated by you, especially now that you're a model, but it's not you. And maybe you didn't want people to come to you? Since you still wanted Sasuke? Maybe that's why no one came. People can sense that." Kurenai said.
Neji looked down now. That was true..
"...It's t-true that I didn't sought any contact... but what do you mean with that people might get a little intimidated by me.?" He asked.
"You're pretty Neji. Some people feel like they won't be able to get you anyhow, so they don't try." Kurenai said and smiled.
Neji looked at her with a slight frown, but then he smiled.
"...Thanks.. you're sweet Kurenai.." He said, and hugged her again. At that moment the bell rang.
"I'll get it!" Asuma said as he quickly placed the tea in front of Neji and Kurenai, and walked towards the door.
"Thanks, so are you. Now please stop crying." Kurenai said and hugged Neji back.
Meanwhile Asuma opened the door and looked into the face of.. Sasuke.
"...Hello." Asuma said, frowning. What was that guy doing here?
"..Hi...I need to talk to Neji." Sasuke said softer then planned. He was sure Asuma knew what happened and he was sure he wasn't all too glad with it.
"I'm sorry but I'm not going to let you in." Asuma said, glaring at Sasuke.
Sasuke stared at the floor. "..Please...I 'have' to talk to him.." He said. Asuma would never let him in...Neji would never talk to him..it was useless.
"Do you realise that Neji has been crying for fifteen minutes now because of you?" Asuma spat. "I'm not going to let you hurt him even more."
"..Please, you have no idea what I would do if I could just talk to him..." Sasuke said and looked Asuma in the eyes. "..I need to talk to Neji.."
"You don't even care that he has been crying do you?" Asuma snapped. "Leave him alone."
"I do care, that's why I need to talk to him!" Sasuke yelled. Dammit, he just had to see Neji and explain. He should at least get the chance to explain himself.
"To make him cry even more?!" Asuma yelled back now. "You're going to leave my boy alone, do you understand? You don't even want to know how many times Kurenai has comforted Neji through the phone, when he was crying again! I don't know where you got the guts from to ring the bell here, but you'd better leave right now!"
Sasuke looked at Asuma and was quiet for some time. He knew he would get in trouble if he tried any longer, but he didn't care. He needed to see Neji again and if getting yelled at and maybe even hit by Asuma was the way to do it then he would. "I need to see him...I have to apologise and explain and I...just need to see him.." Sasuke softly said.
"Get out of here." Asuma growled.
"No." Sasuke said and looked at Asuma determined. Even if he was scared as hell he wouldn't leave. Not without seeing Neji.
Asuma then slammed the door closed, in front of Sasuke's face, not hitting him. He wasn't going to yell further at the boy.
Sasuke stared at the closed door and felt tears spring to his eyes. He bit his lip, looking angry even if he wasn't at all. He knew something like this would happen..but he just needed to see Neji..he really had to talk to him.
Kurenai now walked to Asuma. "Who was that?" She asked confused.
"That ex of Neji." Asuma said, while he walked back into the room. "He got the guts to ask if he could talk to Neji. I don't want Neji to get hurt even more."
Neji looked up from the couch with a frown now. Sasuke had been there?
"...Oh..well you know, maybe they should talk to each other. To get it over with." Kurenai said and then looked at the door. It was better if Neji could ask Sasuke everything and see for himself how Sasuke was.
"..If you think it's better." Asuma said, shrugging. "But I just don't want Neji to get hurt even more." He walked upstairs now. He was pissed off.
Kurenai sighed and then walked to Neji. "Neji..do you want to talk to him?" She asked. If Neji wouldn't want it, she wouldn't let Sasuke in.
Neji shrugged his shoulders. He really didn't know..
"...Perhaps it's better... but I'm a-afraid that I'm going to cry even more.." Neji muttered, while he whiped away his tears. He had turned into an emotional wreck.
"It's OK to cry Neji. It'll have to come out eventually. You have to choose now or he's too far away to call him back." Kurenai said.
"...Let h-him in then.." Neji said, knowing that it was stupid. But he just.. missed him..
Kurenai nodded. "But don't forget what I told you." She said and then stood up, walked to the door and opened it. Sasuke was already half way down the street when he heard Kurenai call his name. After a while he turned around and walked back.
"Neji wants to see you." Kurenai said and Sasuke nodded while he walked in and went to the livingroom. He said nothing. He knew it was over.