Chapter 6
That afternoon Sasuke was still angry with Neji. He was walking around the house doing nothing in particular once the bell rang. He went to open it. Itachi was on a date with Deidara. Took them long enough to figure out they liked each other. But now Sasuke was alone. He had invited Haku over for later. So who was this? Once Sasuke opened the door he was looking at Neji. Well, there went his 'good' mood.
'...Hey." Neji said, looking at Sasuke. "..Can I come in?"
"Sure." Sasuke said, not even greeting Neji. He stepped aside to let Neji in and closed the door once he was. Sasuke didn't really feel like dealing with Neji right now, be he figured it had to happen anyhow.
"I wanted to apologise for my behaviour of yesterday." Neji said, looking at Sasuke.
"Oh. Because?" Sasuke asked as he turned around and walked into the living room. At least Neji was apologising.
"..Because it was mean." Neji said, following Sasuke.
"Well I can understand you not wanting to spend time with me and Haku." Sasuke snapped. OK, so he really wasn't in the mood.
"..It's just hard OK." Neji said, glaring at him.
"Yes well if you wanna quit Neji, then just quit. You're ruining it for Haku and me too." Sasuke snapped as he let himself drop onto the couch.
"I just was really jealous for a moment OK." Neji snapped.
"Yeah well you'll probably have that a lot don't you think?" Sasuke snapped back and glared at Neji.
Neji looked away now.
"It's just hard to see the one you love love another." Neji muttered.
"Yes well like I said, if you don't want to do it then just quit Neji." Sasuke snapped and turned his face away.
Neji looked at him with a frown and then looked away.
"..I'm sorry.." He softly said.
"...Whatever. I guess you should go soon, 'cause Haku's coming." Sasuke said, still annoyed greatly.
Neji looked at him and then nodded, looking away. He turned around and walked towards the door, feeling like he was about to cry. But he wouldn't. He had already waisted too much tears.
Sasuke looked at Neji and then bit his lip. This was so much like their break up. Too much. Sasuke quickly stood up and followed Neji, wrapping his arms around him.
"Unless you want to stay.." He softly said.
"...I do want to... but.. it just hurts so much..." Neji softly said. "..I don't think I'm ready for it..." Neji bit his lip, while he laid his hands on Sasuke's.
But Sasuke pulled them away again. "..So what do you want to do then..?" Sasuke asked, almost whispering. Was Neji now gonna leave him?
"...I think I'll only be with you when Haku's not there.." Neji softly said. "..So I can pretend that you're only mine.."
"..Oh.." Sasuke said and stared at the floor. That was not what he wanted..now he had to choose between them when he wanted to something with one of 'em. That was even harder.
"..Look, if you give both of us the same attention, it's fine.. but you still prefer Haku, I can notice that..." Neji softly said.
"That's not true. I don't 'prefer' one of you two. You're just being so difficult." Sasuke answered as he took Neji's hand in his. Maybe that would assure him.
"..I'm sorry..." Neji said, almost whispered. Why could he never ever be perfect? Like Haku?
"It's OK Neji. I get it's hard for you. But you shouldn't think I love Haku more then you. I don't. I love you just as much Neji." Sasuke said and held onto Neji's other hand too now.
"..I guess I just need a lot of attention..." Neji muttered.
"And you'll get a lot of attention Neji. You just have to remember I need to spend time with Haku too." Sasuke said a little uncomfortable. He then pulled Neji closer, still holding onto Neji's hands, put he placed his head on Neji's shoulder.
Neji nodded.
"I know.." Neji said, sighing.
Sasuke kissed Neji's ear softly. "So..do you wanna stay or do you wanna come over tomorrow?" Sasuke asked carefully.
"..Can I try tomorrow?" Neji softly asked.
"Of course you can. I take it I shouldn't invite Haku then?" Sasuke asked.
"...I need to think of that..." Neji muttered. "...I'm so sorry Sasuke.."
"..It's OK." Sasuke lied. He knew Neji just needed the reassurance. But it was still hard.
"..OK.." Neji said and then turned around to kiss Sasuke on the lips. He needed him so much.
Sasuke kissed Neji back and stroke through his hair. At that moment, the doorbell rang. And Sasuke knew it was Haku at the door.
Neji broke the kiss and looked away.
"...You should open it." Neji softly said.
"You should go if you want." Sasuke said and kept holding Neji's hand as he opened the door for Haku. "Hey." Sasuke said and smiled.
"Hi." Haku said and smiled. He immediately kissed Sasuke on the lips, which lead Neji to look away again. Damn it.. Should he stay?
Sasuke smiled but pulled away. He knew Neji didn't like it. And he knew Haku didn't like him pulling away. This was so much harder. Sasuke looked at Neji and waited.
"Is something wrong?" Haku asked.
"...I'll see you tomorrow." Neji said, smiling a bit and then quickly stepped out of the door. He was becoming too emotional again. Damn it. He was becoming a pansy.
"..Bye.." Sasuke told Neji and watched him leave. He closed the door and bit his lip. Had he really been right from the beginning? Was this all just doomed to fail?
"What's wrong Sasuke?" Haku asked, frowning. He, unlike Neji, had no problems with the situation.
"...Neji's giving up on it.." Sasuke answered and felt his eyes starting to water. He was losing Neji..just like that...
"..What?" Haku asked with a frown. "What do you mean?"
"...I don't think he thinks I'm worth the trouble.." Sasuke softly said.
"Why do you think that?" Haku asked while he sat down on the couch. "..I think that he's jealous that I get attention of you too. "
"Yes...well that's exactly the problem..I don't think he thinks I'm worth it..worth for him to get jealous over..or get hurt by...because it really does hurt him.." Sasuke said as he sat down beside Haku.
"..Did he say that?" Haku said, looking concerned.
"..No...he said he's not ready for seeing us two..he's just so distant.." Sasuke said and then turned to hug Haku close. "..I shouldn't bother you with this." He whispered.
"I'm your boyfriend, you should." Haku said, smiling slightly. "..I'm happy. Are you happy?"
Sasuke hesitated. "...No.." He finally said, eyes watering again. Sometimes he was so happy with the two...but somehow it always got ruined and it always ended up hurting him.
"..Then we should find a way to make both you and Neji happy." Haku said.
"..There is no way we could do that Haku...you know that." Sasuke said and kept hugging Haku. He would be able to make him happy again. He was sure Haku could.
"OK this will sound weird... but.. perhaps I can date Neji." Haku said.
Sasuke let go of Haku a little so he could look at him. "..Why?" He asked confused. He had to admit, he did not like that idea at all.
"Then Neji and me can get to know each other and perhaps Neji will get more respect for me." Haku said. "He might end up respecting me and enjoying my company, so he can accept it that he has to share you with me."
"..Maybe..but that's not dating..that's getting to know each other, right?" Sasuke asked. How selfish was he? He wanted two persons to share him, but he couldn't bare the thought of having to share them himself.
"Yeah, well it would be better if Neji and I get feelings for each other." Haku said, looking at Sasuke.
"...Oh.." Sasuke said and looked away a little uncomfortable. What if they would get feelings for each other? They could just decide to leave him..they would probably like each other better anyhow.
"Is that wrong?" Haku asked with a frown.
"..No...I'm just having selfish thoughts.." Sasuke softly answered.
The expression on Haku's face softened.
"You don't like the thought of sharing me and Neji, do you?" He asked.
Sasuke shook his head. "But I really shouldn't think that way. You're sharing me now, so I shouldn't whine about it." Sasuke said.
"Hmm well if you don't feel happy with it, we should search an other solution." Haku said, leaning back against the couch.
Sasuke though, pulled Haku on his lap. "I do think you and Neji should get to know each other." Sasuke said and smiled at Haku before planting a kiss on his cheek.
Haku smiled. "I guess so." He said. "I hope Neji wants that too."
"I hope so too. But I think he will. Now let's stop talking about Neji OK?" Sasuke said and pushed Haku down on the couch with a grin.
Haku snorted. "Don't let him hear that." He said, blushing a bit.
"I won't." Sasuke said and then started kissing down Haku's neck.
Haku softly moaned and let his hands go under Sasuke's shirt, while his face went more red every second.
"You still turn red hm." Sasuke said and grinned a little. Haku was so cute. He really was. Sasuke moved his hands over Haku's legs before he started unbuttoning Haku's pants.
"...Shut up.." Haku said and pouted, while he pulled off Sasuke's shirt. He was too shy to do more then that.
Sasuke smiled and kissed Haku softly as he pulled down Haku's pants. He then started unbuttoning his own pants, since Haku never did things like that a lot.
Haku put his arms around Sasuke's neck and kissed back, still blushing. Sex was.. strange to him. It was nice, but not necessary.
Sasuke now pulled off his own pants and then removed both of their boxers. He then came up with an idea. He pulled Haku over and made him sit on top of him. It would be really fun and exciting to have someone as cute as Haku on top this time.
Haku was as red as a tomato now.
"W-what are you doing?" He asked, staring at Sasuke.
Sasuke smiled at him. "I think you would like it more like this Haku." He said and grabbed Haku's hips. "Besides, you should loosen up just a little."
"..No I don't l-like this, I want to be under you, not on top of you.." Haku said. He wanted to be on his back, else he had to take too much control. It felt safe there and now he felt really exposed.
"Haku come on. You won't really have to do a lot. And I like seeing you." Sasuke said.
"..But I don't feel comfortable.." Haku softly said, almost not hearable. "...Can I.. lay down on you then..?" Haku asked, this time talking harder. He shouldn't ruin this for Sasuke.
"Hmpf..fine. I'd like it if you'd just sit on top but oh well." Sasuke said as he softly let go of Haku's hips.
"..Well we could try.." Haku softly said, frowning. Sasuke was making him feel guilty now.
"No, Haku, do what you like OK?" Sasuke said and sighed. He knew Haku wasn't the type for this. But he would just love to see that pretty face on top of him some time.
"..We can try Sasuke, I'll probably like it." Haku lied. He just wanted Sasuke happy. Sasuke was sighing. Did he think he was annoying?
"No you won't you big fat liar." Sasuke said and pushed Haku back. "There." He said and grinned at Haku. He would just have to do it the old fashioned way.
Haku smiled at him, relieved. He even let out a small sigh.
"Thanks." He said, pulling Sasuke closer.
"You're welcome honey." Sasuke said and then pulled Haku's legs around his waist. "You ready?" He asked.
Haku nodded, while he started to breath faster.
"..Yeah.." He said.
Sasuke smiled and then pushed into Haku soft and delicate. Haku wasn't used to the rough treatment he used to give Neji. And it was really good most of the times too.
Haku moaned and hummed, while kissing Sasuke's neck and bringing him even closer. He spread his legs a bit more open, but not too far. He liked it soft.
Sasuke started rocking his hips softly and made sure he hit Haku's spots on the way. He had gotten better at finding those and hitting them. Sasuke started moaning softly now.
Haku was already giving soft mewls and whimpers. He was already hard. You could notice he was excited already. Very excited.
Sasuke started going just a tad faster and harder as he aimed for Haku's oversensitive spot. He then grabbed Haku's length and softly stroke it. God this felt good. And Haku looked so hot..so adorably exciting.
Haku let out a hard whimper that died down into soft mewls. He let his hands go over Sasuke's back, not having the courage to touch lower then Sasuke's lower back.
Sasuke lowered his head and started kissing Haku, muffling both their moans and Haku's mewls. It was so cute. And strangely enough it just excited Sasuke even more. He moved in and out of Haku steadily.
Haku started whimpering even harder now, as he felt himself coming closer to his point already.
"..Ah...H-haku.." Sasuke moaned as he closed his eyes. He could feel Haku coming to his point. His inner walls were closing more and more. And god, it brought Sasuke at least just as close to his release.
Haku moaned and then he called out Sasuke's name, while he came. That was great.
As Haku came Sasuke gave a loud moan as he came into Haku. He always did that, that bastard. Sasuke knew Haku tensed the muscles in his ass some more just to make him come too.
Haku showed Sasuke a happy but tired smile, and brought Sasuke closer to him.
Sasuke smiled too and turned them around, so the Haku was laying on top of him now. He held him close. "..L-love you.." Sasuke panted.
"..I l-love you t-too.." Haku panted, kissing Sasuke's lips, red again. Why was he on top again?
Sasuke grabbed his own shirt and put it over Haku's ass, knowing he did not like to show too much. "..J-just so I c-can hold you better Haku.." He said, knowing what Haku was thinking and then returned the kiss.
Haku kissed back and nodded. He sighed. He really was a pussy. He broke the kiss.
"..Is N-Neji different then m-me.. in t-the sex..?" He asked. He just wanted to know.
Sasuke looked at Haku before answering. "..Y-yes..he is." Where did that came from?
"In w-what way..?" Haku asked.
"...Oh l-let it be, I already k-know.." Haku said. Neji had been too overwhelming right?
"..You k-kinda do. He's just a l-lot rougher." Sasuke said and kissed Haku's neck softly and lovingly.
"..Hmm... n-no surprise t-there.." Haku said and hummed as Sasuke kissed his neck.
"..I like t-the way we do it t-too you know." Sasuke said and moved his hands into Haku's hair.
"..Good.. " Haku said, smiling at Sasuke.
Sasuke smiled back. "I really, really l-love you Haku." He said and gave Haku a soft kiss. Haku could make him feel better no matter what had happened. It was one of the qualities Sasuke loved.
"...I love you t-too Sasuke.. but you already know that." Haku said, sighing softly as he relaxed on top of Sasuke.
"..Yeah...I do." Sasuke said and smiled. Haku was great. He really was.
Haku just smiled.
That same evening, Neji was sitting in his room, in the window frame to be exact. He was wearing his bathrobe, a silken black one, and was combing his hair. He felt really unhappy at the moment. He didn't knew what to do anymore. He was softly singing to himself, lost in thought.
After a while someone knocked on the door. "Neji can I come in?" Came Kurenai's voice.
"...Sure." Neji said as he stopped singing. He kept looking out of the window though.
Kurenai walked into Neji's room and sat down on Neji's bed.
"Neji honey..what's wrong?" She asked worried.
"...Nothing serious..." Neji softly said, as he continued combing his hair. He kept thinking of Sasuke. Of what he should do. Damn...
"I know it's something serious Neji. Please tell me." Kurenai said and stared at Neji. She could see right through him.
"...It's just something with Sasuke.." Neji muttered.
"..Oh. What did he do this time?" Kurenai asked. She knew this couldn't be too good.
"...We kinda got back together..." Neji softly said.
"Really? Why?" Kurenai asked. She felt herself getting upset. For Neji. Sasuke had just down right manipulated him again.
"...He missed me and I missed him..." Neji muttered. "..The only thing is... we decided that well... Haku and I... are sharing Sasuke now..."
"What!? Are you stupid Neji!? You are going over to him and you are gonna tell him it's over!" Kurenai yelled angry and pointed to the door, making her point.
Neji shook his head.
"..I love him too much for that Kurenai.." Neji softly said.
"That is too bad then. He cannot do this Neji. He's not right for you, this is insane." Kurenai said strict.
Neji looked at her, frowning. Was she ordering him to break up with Sasuke? ...Perhaps it would be best after all...
"Listen Neji. This should be a warning sign for you. He doesn't even love you enough to want you. Just you. And that's the whole point of loving each other, being dedicated to each other. And he isn't Neji." Kurenai said, her voice becoming softer.
"...I guess you are right.." Neji softly said. "...It hurts so much to see him love someone else too.."
"Of course it does. It's not right." Kurenai said and grabbed Neji's brush. She now started brushing Neji's hair gently. Neji smiled softly at her and let her comb his hair. He loved it when someone else was doing his hair, he calmed down completely from it.
"...Perhaps I should end it indeed." Neji said. "..I have shed so many tears over him."
"I know you have. I've been the one trying to get you up on your feet every time." Kurenai said. "I really am sure you'll get over him Neji. It just takes you time to see what he's like."
Neji nodded silently.
"...Can I call you mom?" He asked all of sudden.
Kurenai was surprised by this and then turned Neji around. "Do you want to?" She asked, a big smile on her face.
Neji looked at her, smiling.
"Yes, else I wouldn't ask." Neji said. "..You feel like a mother to me and I have to stop myself from calling you mom every time."
Kurenai smiled even more. "Of course you can call me mom! I'd love for you to call me mom!" She squealed happily.
Neji kept smiling. "Thanks." He said. "Mom." He was glad he could finally call Kurenai mom, he really had to stop himself from saying it everytime.
"Oooh thank you!" Kurenai said and hugged Neji tightly. Hearing Neji call her mom felt so good.
Neji smiled and hugged her back.
"I love you so much Kurenai.." He softly said. He really did. He loved Kurenai more then anyone. Even more then he loved Sasuke. But then at an other way of course.
"Oh I love you too Neji. So much. And don't you ever forget it." Kurenai said and smiled as she kept hugging Neji. She felt great right now.
Neji smiled and sighed softly. At least he got Kurenai. He was so glad she was here.
"Now, let me continue brushing your hair." Kurenai said and smiled at Neji as she turned him around and started brushing again. She knew it calmed Neji down a lot.
"..Thanks." Neji said with a smile. At that moment the door opened and Asuma got in, looking very.. not happy.
"Neji, you have a visitor." He said, while he opened the door further, to reveal Sasuke.
Kurenai glared at him. "What is 'he' doing here Asuma?" Kurenai snapped. Sasuke stared at Neji, worried.
Neji looked at Sasuke for a moment and then away again. He didn't wanted to talk to Sasuke now.
"He said it was important." Asuma said, looking at Kurenai with a soft expression on his face.
Kurenai sighed annoyed and then gave Neji a kiss on his head.
"If anything is wrong, kick him out." She said and then walked by Sasuke, giving him an angry glare and then walked downstairs. Sasuke bit his lip.
Asuma left the room too, closing the door behind him. Neji gave Sasuke one look and then continued to brush his hair, silently. He didn't knew what to say.
"...She hates me doesn't she?" Sasuke asked carefully as he walked a little closer.
"..She does." Neji softly said, still looking out of the window.
"..Do you hate me too?" Sasuke asked. He could feel it in the atmosphere. Neji wasn't gonna tell him to stay. Neji did not..want him...
"..Not really..." Neji softly said. "...But.. I've been thinking.."
Should he really say it? Did he really wanted it..? Yes, he did... because he wouldn't get what he wanted... but... if he was never going to see Sasuke again.. that would be horrible.
"..Oh...About?" Sasuke asked, but he figured he already knew the answer. The one answer he did not ever wanna hear. Not from Neji. Not ever from Neji.
Neji turned to look at Sasuke now.
"...It's not going to work anymore Sasuke.." He softly said. "..You know it as much as I do.."
Sasuke was silent now and looked at Neji.
"..I guess not..." He softly said as his eyes started to water.
Neji stared at the ground now.
"..I need you too much.. more then you can give me.." Neji softly said. "...You were right, it's not fair and it's not working.. I think.. that you have to continue with Haku now.."
Sasuke was silent now as he let his tears run. He knew it was coming. But it was still such a blow in the face. To lose Neji like this. To just...lose him. He couldn't even talk. The crying made his throat swell up to the point that it was just plain impossible. He just stared at Neji.
Neji bit down on his lip and took a deep breath. This was a lot more harder then he thought. He hated it that it had to go like this.. before Sasuke broke up with him it had been so perfect..
"..I'm breaking up with you." Neji softly said, almost whispered. He looked Sasuke in the eyes when he said it.
Sasuke started sobbing uncontrollable now. If this was what Neji had gone through when he had done it, then he now knew why Neji had felt 'so' horrible. Sasuke just stood there. Not ready to leave yet. Because he knew that if he left now, he'd never talk to Neji again. Never be able to hold him, never be able to kiss him. Never be able to get Neji to love him back..
Neji got tears in his eyes now. He turned away to look out of the window again, feeling worse then ever.
"...L-leave.." He softly said. He knew he was going to burst out crying again if Sasuke didn't left fast.
Sasuke stared at him in shock. This brutally? He was gonna do it this brutally? Was this revenge? Sasuke turned around to leave. "...I'll a-always love..y-you..." He whispered and then practically ran down the stairs and outside. He was going home. Home without Neji. Home without his love.
After a while Kurenai walked into Neji's room. She didn't knock. She knew she didn't need to. She just walked to Neji and pulled him into a hug. She knew perfectly well what had happened just a couple minutes before.
Neji finally let the tears out as he hugged Kurenai close and started sobbing. He felt so bad now. He did exactly the same as Sasuke had done to him..
Kurenai held onto Neji. "Shh...you'll be OK..eventually..." Kurenai softly said and stroke through Neji's hair.
"...I w-was so h-harsh.. s-so harsh.." Neji sobbed, while hugging Kurenai even tighter.
"Well..maybe that's good. You need to be harsh sometimes Neji..Shh it's OK." Kurenai said and kissed the top of Neji's head.
Asuma entered the room now and looked at Kurenai and Neji for a moment before he walked towards them and hugged both of them. His arms were big enough.
"We'll be here for you Neji." He said. He wasn't really of the emotional stuff, but he could see it when someone needed a hug. And love.
"Yes we will Neji. Thanks Asuma." Kurenai said and held onto one of Asuma's arms too. Nothing mattered more to the two now then to make sure Neji felt alright. That Neji knew they loved him. Nothing else mattered.
And Neji did love them. He hugged back both of them, feeling a slight hint of comfort and happiness above his sorrow. He kept crying, but felt relieved too. He finally did what he should've done. He felt bad about it but somewhere.. it felt good.