AU: Using the prompt mortify. Hermione writes to Ginny in the summer before fifth year as she arrives at Headquarters before the Weasleys in my fic. She talks about her life as a muggleborn and tells Ginny about something she saw at headquarters that she really didn't want to.

Dear Ginny,

How are you? I hope you are enjoying your summer. I know you will be visiting soon and I look forward to your arrival. It's very lonely here and shall we say gloomy.

I feel really bad about not being able to write to Harry. I don't think he will be very happy and with his temperament, it could get nasty. I just hope that what we are doing is for his own benefit and not because we don't care. Really, it's because we do. He holds things in too much and I am going to have to say something to him. He needs to talk to us about what happened. I am glad I can write to you freely because Bill can bring you the letters, but I hate that I can't so the same for Harry. I have to wait until he arrives here and when he does I recon he will be too concerned with his godfather to listen to what I have to say. Sometimes he really frustrates me.

My mum doesn't understand why I have to be here. How am I supposed to explain? I don't tell them what happens at school and because I have muggle parents, they didn't even know about what happened in my second year. No one ever told them and I didn't want to talk about it. You are the only person I have ever told about it.

They don't know that a war is brewing and I honestly don't want to tell them so now, they think I am just being selfish and trying to get out of a holiday. That hurts Gin because I thought they knew me better than that but it looks like they don't really know me at all. Sometimes I think they never have. I can't talk to them about school because they don't understand and really, they don't want to. They accept me for what I am but don't want to talk about it and I don't think that is very fair. I don't fit in at home and because I have muggle parents and I don't always fit in, in the magical world. It's like living on a fence and I hate it. Really I do. It's not fair and I wish it wasn't happening to me because I haven't done anything to deserve it have I?

That's not the point though. I heard about Percy from Remus. I know you never really got on with him that well but I'm still really sorry. I can't say I really understand because obviously I don't have any brothers but I suppose you have enough for the both of us.

Although that isn't really the point either. The point is that I saw something and it was completely mortifying! I knew you would want to know and I just need to tell someone or I'll blow up like one of the twin's fireworks.

I went along to the library, yes headquarters has a library, and I saw Sirius in there. I knew he was talking to someone so I didn't go in. I was being polite but I'm glad I didn't. The door was half open so I could see them but they couldn't see me if you understand me. Anyway, I waited and then Remus appeared and he pined Sirius to the wall! The wall! At first I thought they were just messing around. They are best friends after all but I was still shocked.

Then it got even, well you would say better, because Remus kissed Sirius and I don't mean a peck on the cheek. This was like something out of a bad romance novel. They were completely devouring each other, groping at each other shamelessly and the sounds coming from Sirius when Remus licked his neck. I have never seen or heard anything like it and in a library too! It was completely inappropriate. Imagine if anyone else would have seen. Can you imagine if Harry knew? I never even suspected that they were together or that either of them were even gay but I tell you now Ginny Weasley, what I saw put that to rest. Gay indeed.

Don't tell anyone will you? Especially not Ronald.

I don't know if they saw me or not. I ran when I did see them and I don't know if I made a noise and I haven't seen either of them since. It was mortifying. God, Remus was my teacher Ginny and Sirius is Harry's godfather!

It makes me nervous. I don't know what I might come across anymore. I can't wait until you and your family arrive. I know you probably want to know all about it. You would want to see my memories if you could manage it which is possibly I'll have you know. I read a book about it but I can explain that later.

I still can't believe what I saw, Sirius and Remus! Honestly. I can't tell Harry. It's not my place but I really want to. He deserves to know. I hope that Sirius will tell him when he is here because it's a big part of his life to hide.

Well, I hope you all arrive soon. Remember to keep your wand on you at all times! It's not safe out there anymore.

All my love,

Hermione

p.s. Yes, it was hot to see.