A/N: Even if I'm less excited for it now, this one's still going strong. Gotta keep it up. I hope you all enjoy. The beginning contains some sexual material, if you require a warning about that.
Disclaimer I do not own Bleach and I do not have the answers.
Isane's eyes opened widely to be greeted by darkness. She felt the soft bed below her. Had she been sleeping? Dreaming? She turned her head and was alarmed at what she found. Her Captain was sleeping beside her. The shock caused her to jump a little and this jump stirred the other from her sleep.
"Isane?" the woman's soft voice started as she sat up. "Is everything okay?"
Isane stared at the radiant beauty dressed in nothing but a light robe, her shimmering black hair flowing down her back. She was a spellbinding goddess of beauty in Isane's eyes.
"Isane?" that goddess repeated with concern, placing one of her smooth, silky hands at Isane's shoulders. Isane almost jumped again.
"Why am I….? What am I…?" Isane forced herself to stop staring and try to say something coherent. It proved unsuccessful.
"You had another bad dream tonight, Isane, so you came to join me," the beautiful captain informed her lieutenant, her hand still brushing the girl's shoulder.
"Oh, I see…" Isane replied tentatively; she couldn't remember it.
"It's not like you to awaken a second time in one night, Isane." the pristine beauty said with a benevolent smile as her arm wrapped around Isane's back, taking her into an embrace. Isane shivered at the development. "Are you sure you're all right?"
"I-I… I…" Isane stumbled on her words as she tried not to look at the woman holding her.
"Does me holding you like this make you uncomfortable, Isane?" the older woman phrased, titling her head.
"Yeah… kinda…" Isane replied nervously, a blush on her face. Surprisingly, her Captain did not let go.
"What about this, Isane?" the captain asked as her hand traveled deliberately to pet Isane's stomach, slipping under her robe.
Isane gave a short moan. She could feel her heart beating fast as her head became clouded. "It feels nice…" was all she could say.
"Well, then how about this?" Isane gasped hard as her Captain's hand traveled upward under her robe, finding her chest. It cupped one of her shapely breasts and began to caress it gently. Isane could feel her nipples harden almost immediately at the touch.
"Captain! What are you doi--?!" Isane started in a panic, once she realized how peculiar this was.
"Relax, Isane," the beautiful woman said with a smile. Isane listened. "Tell me, do you like it?"
Isane gave a feeble nod. Her captain smiled.
"Do you want more?" she asked simply.
Isane nodded again. Despite this, her Captain's hand stopped it's endeavor. She looked up at the woman confused, only to have the woman's hand find her head and keep it in place. The radiant goddess bent forward just slightly, allowing their lips to join for a soft kiss. Isane felt like she was melting.
As the kiss broke, the older woman had her lieutenant lie down flat on the bed. She began to kiss at her neck while a hand once more found the opening at the front of her robe. She pulled the garment open, exposing Isane's body to the cool night air. Her hand then resumed the work of before.
Isane gave a long moan at her Captain's touch. Her Captain bent forward and kissed her again, this time it was longer and more passionate, their tongues finding each other in their collective mouth. it eventually broke and the beautiful woman trailed downward across her lieutenant's body, placing long kisses atop it all but particularly at her breasts. Isane could feel an incredible wetness pouring out of her with each subtle movement her Captain made.
"How do you feel, Isane?" the woman asked, in the exact same even tone she used when asking patients the same question.
"A-Amazing…" Isane admitted with a blush. She was too excited to lie. She added a request in a helpless voice, "Please touch me more…"
"As you wish," the kind goddess replied as her hand traveled tenderly downward across Isane's exposed flesh, until it found its way between her legs. It slipped under the undergarments and soon granted the girl a blissful feeling unlike anything she had imagined previously.
Isane about screamed with pleasure as her Captain's agile fingers traced their way across her flooding slit again and again. She began to writhe and pant under the intensity of the touch. It was more than she could bear. It was more incredible than any other feeling.
"My, Isane, this sure has you excited. So much is coming out of you…" the pure goddess teased. Hearing such dirtiness from the woman's lips brought Isane within inches of a climax.
"Captain… it's so-… so…" Isane failed to say anything as her Captain continued to deliver onto her the most incredible pleasure. She wanted to finally express her feelings at least somehow, "I-I lov---"
The beautiful Captain cut her lieutenant off with a sudden kiss, thrusting her warm tongue deep inside Isane's mouth. Isane received it happily, wrapping her own tongue around it. The kiss couldn't last long though, as the goddess' able fingers at their job prompted a fierce moan that disheveled it suddenly.
"You're so beautiful, my Isane…" the radiant woman said, filling the other with an incredible warmth and satisfaction. Isane moaned at the sound of her voice. Her Captain straddled further down across her body, placing bountiful kisses at her chest before continuing even further downward.
When next Isane was able to look, her Captain was situated directly between her legs, her hands at the hem of Isane's panties, pulling them down and off slowly. Isane watched with anticipation as her Captain bent forward. She began to visibly shake as she felt her Captain's breath against her most sensitive area. The feeling of the woman's warm, moist tongue as it stretched from her mouth to find its way inside her was nothing short of euphoric.
Isane moaned and squirmed at every little movement she felt. It was all so incredible, overwhelming. It left the girl feeling delirious. She had already been close to her climax, but she was now approaching it with even greater speed. It would just be seconds now.
"You certainly seem to be enjoying yourself," a voice commented. Isane barely heard it.
"Yes…" she moaned in response, whether it was to the voice or her Captain she wasn't sure. She was lost in the moment, blinded by the incredible feeling. It took a full minute for her to realize that the sound of a voice meant that someone was watching her.
"W-what?! Who's there?!" Isane started, jumping backward on the bed, forcing herself away from the bliss her Captain was showing her.
She looked around frantically for the source of the voice. Eventually it stepped forward. There, standing before her, was Phil the Time Wizard.
"You! What are you doing here?! Get out?!" Isane screamed as she forced her robe closed and backed up further on her bed.
"Why should I? Why should I do anything? What is the meaning of the universe?" the Time Wizard questioned in a hurried voice punctuated by mad laughter.
"I don't know!" Isane shouted, still embarrassed, and not really sure how to answer the questions in the first place, particularly the last.
"Of course you don't. You are not the true mind carver..." the strange man said in a mysterious voice as he pulled out and stared at a very old looking pocket watch.
"Look, I don't care about any of this stuff!" Isane shouted, shaking her head. "Just leave me alone… so me and my Captain… can…" her words trailed off.
"Your Captain? Who are you talking about, girl?" Phil the Time Wizard asked with an evil grin.
"My Captain of course," Isane said, turning to the beautiful, smiling woman still situated between her legs and pointing.
"HA! That is not your Captain, foolish girl!" the Time Wizard declared boldly.
"What are you talking about, of course it is?!" argued the other with a scowl.
"Why don't you look again…" the man suggested, his villainous smile widening. Isane did just that. She turned her head to look at her Captain once more. To her absolute horror, Phil the Time Wizard was right.
"AHHHHH!" she screamed as she backed away in fright. There positioned between her legs was not her Captain, but rather a fishcake monster shaped just like the woman.
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!" Phil the Time Wizard laughed. "My fishcake doll will rape your soul!"
Isane watched as several tentacle like appendages emerged from under the robe of the Captain shaped fishcake creature. They grew closer and closer until she could feel them, firm and cold, upon her.
"N-no…" muttered Isane as the disgusting tentacles crept up her arms. "No!" she shouted as they found their way under her close. "NO!!!" she closed her eyes and screamed as they began to violate her.
Soon Isane realized she was no longer being raped. Confused, she opened her eyes. She breathed a sigh of relief, it was all just another nightmare.
This nightmare did leave her in a sort of different state than most. She was still horrified; few of her nightmares had endings so terrible, but she was also something else: excited. The majority of the dream hadn't been a nightmare, but rather a perverse fantasy. Her heart had been racing before the dream had turned. Sweat was not the only fluid that had poured from her body to saturate that beds sheets.
As she remembered the dream she wondered how she should feel about it. She had accepted that she was in love with Captain Unohana. She hadn't yet realized she yearned to do such things with her though. She supposed it was pretty strange. She couldn't see her real Captain ever doing something so dirty.
Honestly, Isane felt a little ashamed of her dream. She felt it was lewd and disgusting. She didn't deserve any comfort tonight. Being in Retsu Unohana's company would be sure to reignite her perverted mind anyway. No, she'd just lie in her bed tonight, not even risk taking a stroll and being seen by the woman.
"Are you alright, Isane? I heard you shout just now," the soft voice of Isane's goddess reached her ears sending her into both a shock and a panic. Why was the woman standing there in front of her bed?
It took Isane a few moments to realize an important fact she had overlooked. She wasn't lying in her own bed. She was sleeping in one of many patient beds in the Fourth Division's treatment facility. It took her a few more moments, but she remembered why. She had been assigned a late shift in caring for the patients, during which she had become exhausted. Toward the very end of her shift, she had sat down atop a vacant bed for a quick break. She must have fallen asleep then. She could only assume it was her captain who had stripped her down to her light inner robes and placed her inside the bed's shets.
"C-Captain…?" Isane squirmed and shook, unsure of what to say.
"It was another one of your horrible dreams, wasn't it?" the kind Captain perceived as she sat next to Isane on the bed. Isane surged with shame and guilt as she prayed any strange scents would not be discovered.
"Y-yeah…" Isane admitted. There really was no other excuse.
"I think the others can handle things here for tonight. Do you want to take a walk and talk for while, Isane?" Unohana said in a warm voice, looking around the room.
Isane didn't know how to respond at first. She obviously didn't want to talk about it, but she wanted nothing more than to distance herself from those tainted bed sheets.
"Uh.. okay… I-I guess…" she said, taking a gulp. She hurried in standing up from the bed. Unohana got up after her. They walked out of the room and into a long corridor.
"This one seems to have left you quite nervous, Isane," the older woman took notice. "I suppose it was something horribly frightful…"
"Yeah… it was…" Isane admitted, cringing at the very thought.
"Do you wish to discuss it?" her Captain asked smilingly.
"No. I can't," Isane refused at once, shaking her head vehemently. She blushed at the thought of saying even one word.
"Then I won't force you to say anything, Isane," the woman replied in a soft voice.
"O-okay…" Isane gave a short nod.
"Will you come to bed with me, then at least?" Unohana asked, giving the other a long stare.
"I can't," isane again said at once, her blush intensifying at the thought of joining her Captain after such a dream.
"Isane," the other woman spoke with concern, "I understand you want to try to overcome this matter on your own. The signs of fever your face, the unsteadiness in your step, the look of discomfort and agitation, it all makes me want not to leave you by yourself tonight."
"I'm sorry, b-but I just can't do this anymore…" Isane said, tears entering her eyes for some reason. She wanted to let the woman comfort her, but she couldn't bear the thought of allowing such a thing when she was having such perverse thoughts in regard to the other.
"Isane. What's wrong?! Please tell me!" Unohana said, her voice rising with her concern.
"I c-can't… I just can't…" Isane replied, looking down, shivering with emotion. To her surprise, Captain Unohana took a step forward and embraced her in her arms. She calmed down before she was filled with shame once more.
"All right then… I won't force you… even if I would like to know why the though of sleeping in my bed would trigger such strong emotions…" the Captain said in a sad voice as she held the other to her breast, hoping to placate her. Isane felt even worse; she was rejecting the selfless kindness of the woman she loved.
"I'm really sorry… I just… Captain… I-I'm not… I-I'm … I-I… I-I…" Isane trembled and cried into the other's warmth. Oh how she just wanted to stay like that with her Captain. She couldn't however. She had to be reasonable. Her Captain didn't want what she did.
"You don't have to say anything, Isane… It's all right," the beautiful woman spoke in a downcast voice. "I do worry about leaving you in this condition."
"I-I'll be okay," Isane assured shakily as she put every bit of strength she had into freeing herself from her Captain's embrace.
"I hope so, Isane. I really do," Unohana said in almost a whisper. The two began to walk in opposite directions. "Good night, Isane," the kind Captain issued a parting word.
"Good night, Captain…" Isane replied feebly, still feeling horribly ashamed of herself.
The silver-haired lieutenant proceeded to her room promptly. She lied down in her bed, praying sleep would reach her. It didn't. The whole night she never found any rest. The peace of sleep was far too much to ask for one with such a conflicted heart. That whole night, hour after hour, she would just lie there, tossing and turning, thinking and crying.
She remembered how Kiyone had advised her to simply confront her Captain on the matter. But it was foolish to think that could possibly work now. Isane now knew what her desires were and they scared her. They made the thought of confessing anything to the woman ridiculous. She couldn't say anything. She just wanted to hide.
She hated it all. She hated her shameful desires. She hated how they made her push away the one she loved. She hated her nightmares and how they robbed her of sleep. She hated how the only solace she had from them might be out of her reach forever now. She just wanted it all to go away so things could return to how they once were. She knew it was too late for that.
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Isane got out of bed the next morning with the start of the new day, no better rested than when she had first got there. Work would help her get her mind off of things. And after a full day of work, sleep would surely find her. Maybe that night would be nightmare free.
After pulling on her clothes and making herself look presentable, Isane left her room. She found her way to an open area where several seated officers of the fourth Division were gathered. Passing them by, she could overhear a little of their talk.
"I've never seen her like that, though. Usually nothing gets to her," third seat Yasochika Iemura's loud voice stuck out prominently through the crowd. Isane stopped immediately at the words.
"Hey lieutenant, how are you today?" eighth seat Harunobu Ogido said, spotting her and immediately turning on the charm. Isane gave a polite laugh.
"I'm fine..." Isane lied. "What are you guys talking about?"
"Something's up with the Captain. She seems kind of down today," Yasochika said in a deliberate fashion.
Isane's heart sank. Had pushing her away like that really hurt her Captain so badly? She knew that Retsu Unohana's kindly nature made it hard for her to not help someone clearly in need, but to think it would affect her so strongly. There was nothing Isane could have done. If she truly wanted her Captain to reenact the first half of that dream with her then this was the only option. Retsu Unohana was an impossibly kind goddess but she didn't want what Isane wanted.
"Poor sleep again, lieutenant?" Ogido asked, smiling and staring Isane in the eyes. She hadn't been able to do anything about the redness around them.
"Yeah… I guess so…" Isane replied, trying to laugh it off.
"You didn't see what happened with the Captain then, did you?" Iemura asked, the degree of his curiosity becoming evident.
"N-no… I didn't…" Isane lied again, doing her best to conceal her nerve.
"I bet it's something serious. Something only the Captains have been told so far," the third seat said with a steady nod. "I wouldn't be surprised if we see something big break out pretty soon."
"Y-yeah… maybe…" Isane started, staring straight at the ground below.
Harunobu took another step toward her. "You sure you're okay, lieutenant? You seem kind of out of it or something…"
"No, I'm fine. Don't worry about me," Isane said shaking her head, prepared to depart the scene and see if there was some patient for her to treat or something.
"W-we're your friends, lieutenant... If something's wrong, you can tell us…" the twitchy voice of seventh seat Hanataro Yamada stopped the lieutenant in her tracks.
"I'm sorry Hanataro… but I don't think I can this time…" Isane said, shaking her head.
"Oho, so it's private then?!" Yasochika snickered. "Don't tell me our lieutenant here has a secret lover…"
"I do not!" Isane stammered and scowled at the bespectacled man.
"Then perhaps instead she wants one…" Harunobu said in a vaguely teasing tone.
"I don't…" Isane said with far less conviction and a blush on her face. The ladies man seemed to adeptly notice the reaction almost immediately.
"You're seriously in love, aren't you, lieutenant?" he said, offering a confident laugh.
"P-perhaps…" Isane said. If she was vague about it, there was no harm in revealing just a little she decided.
"Oh? It isn't one of us, is it?" Ogido said with all the usual charisma.
"No. It's not," Isane replied straightforwardly.
"Then who could it be I wonder…" Iemura began to think it through.
"Stop. I'm not going to tell you. It's not something I really want to talk about," Isane said in a stern, level tone, hopefully reminding them she was their superior.
"Fine, fine," Yasochika said. Harunobu just sighed. Isane walked away from the group, hoping to get a look at the schedule for the day. She didn't realize at first that she was followed.
"Y-yes, Hanataro?" she started when she finally did realize it.
"I-I know you probably didn't want to say it in front of everybody there… b-but… if something's really troubling you, l-lieutenant… I-I was thinking… that maybe… you know… I-I could just…" the timid boy replied, horribly nervous.
Isane smiled. She liked Hanataro. He was a good person. During Aizen's rebellion he had had the courage to do what was right rather than just blindly follow orders. Isane respected him for that. If there was anyone in Fourth Division she felt confident in confiding in, in regard to this matter, it was him.
"I-I guess I could tell you something… maybe you could help me…" Isane said in a quiet voice, looking at her feet.
"Y-yeah…" Hanataro nodded.
"Like… they all guessed… there's someone I love very much…b-but they don't feel the same way. To them I'm just a friend… and that's all I think I'll ever be to them…" Isane confessed, just as nervous as the other.
"I doubt that's true… You're great, lieutenant… I'm sure if you just tell him, he'll accept you…" Hanataro argued, shaking his head.
"No! I know it won't work like that. I don't want to say why, but I just know that the one I love will never accept me… but leaving things as they are is causing us both pain…" Isane said with frantic emotion behind her voice.
"Y-you can't just say that for sure…" Hanataro began in earnest. "Especially if you're both in pain… you just have to try…"
"No, Hanataro… you don't understand the situation…" Isane said with a short sigh.
Hanataro was silent a moment. When he did speak, something told Isane it was truthfully, "I-I think I do understand it now… and my advice remains the same…"
"it's always the same… you, my sister, that unicorn… I wish you all realized how hard something like this was to admit… and how much pain it could cause…" Isane said, holding back tears. Hanataro raised an eyebrow momentarily at the word "unicorn".
"When things look impossible… I've always found that it's best to try and stand strong and hold onto the hope that things will turn out alright…" the seventh seat said with just a tinge of unsteadiness and then a smile.
"Perhaps so… thank you, Hanataro…" Isane replied, looking down.
Isane doubted this would work. Retsu Unohana couldn't be interested in the sort of relationship Isane wanted. it was impossibility. She was going to be crushed in simply bringing it up. Even if Kiyone had assured her otherwise, Isane wasn't sure her Captain wouldn't distance herself from her if she did confess. She could easily lose everything she had.
Still, Isane had to try something. Leaving things as they are was far too painful.
A/N: End chapter 4. Interesting chapter I hope. Our main progression here of course si that Isane's dreams help her realize she's not only romantically interested in her Captain but also sexually interested, and of course this destroys any and all the confidence she was able to muster in the last chapter thanks to Kiyone. Overall I guess it wasn't much progression, but considering I had these two sleeping together In the first chapter, the fact that I'm stretching this one out a bit should be no surprise. Luckily, the next chapter is the end, which will give me the opportunity to let things finally come together.
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