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'It would appear Mr Morgan is suffering from partial amnesia.' The doctor spoke as he pulled Derek's door to.

'What does that mean?' Hotch asked.

'Well he can remember everything apart from 3 criteria's... anything to do with Penelope, Kevin, or the events surrounding his hospital admittance he can't work out.'

'Is there any chance he'll get it back? Fran asked hopeful.

'It's hard to say, for now we'll monitor him and keep an eye on him and the way he encodes but everything seems okay apart from that... triggers may work but it's hard to determine.'

Hotch, Rossi and Fran stood in the corridor, Emily was yet to leave Penelope's room and Derek was in the middle of an inner battle, he'd made it clear that for the moment he didn't want to see Penelope until he was sure she meant something, he had admitted that he felt something for her and the urge to call her baby girl was there but it felt wrong to say it as he didn't know who she was.

Emily had been crouched down in front of Penelope for about an hour now trying to get her to calm down. 'Penelope, he'll remember.'

'And what if he doesn't? It's like meeting me all over again, what if he doesn't like me now? What if I am the fat geek tech girl and not his baby girl?'

'You'll always be his baby girl.'

'Not if he doesn't remember!'

'Right Penelope, I'm going to go talk to Hotch, how about we get you into bed, you need some rest.' Penelope complied and got into the bed, sleep claimed her easily due to the tears and Emily exhaled and left the room. She came out to three sets of eyes watching her.

'Is she okay?' They then heard Derek call them in, and Hotch looked at Emily. 'Well?'

'She said that Kevin's plan all along was to separate Derek and her and now his succeeded.'

'But I will remember!' Derek said in an assertive yet frustrated.

'She's scared... she's lost nearly everything because of Lynch.'

'But if I love her surely, I can remember again.'

'Derek, at the moment the only way Penelope see's it, is that Kevin's won, he told her that one day he would separate you two, that he would make you forget what she was to you and he's just succeeded.'

'What's she doing now?'

'I knew she was in pain, so I made her get some sleep before she wears herself out entirely.'

'Which is what you, Derek should be doing.'

'What did he do to her?' Derek said, refusing to sleep.

'Erm... it's pretty private... I mean for your mom to hear to.'

'Just say it.' Derek said knowing his mom had probably heard worse.

'Well he planted a camera in Penelope's apartment, one directly on her bed, he was filming her sleeping, having nightmares about cases, stuff like that.'

'What else?'

'He filmed you two being intimate.'

'He did what?!'

'It's all sorted now, Penelope deleted it, wiped it from the databases and everything, we had to use the rest in a case but I allowed that to be taken out, no one needed to see that.'

'Why was he filming her?'

'Because he didn't like her being alone, apparently it was the night you went round and found her crying because she had caught him in bed with another woman and things just kind of rolled out and the next thing you two were together under Kevin's nose while Penelope found a way to tell Kevin it was over for good.'

'How long had they been together?'

'Well it was just after she was shot... so about just over a year.'

'She was shot?' They nodded and watched Derek run his hand over his head, the urge to get up and go to Penelope getting bigger but the demands to stay in bed were more for the moment.

'Derek this will come back to you.'

'It's just when.'

'It will take time but another thing, she lives with you.'

'Lives with me!' Derek said completely confused by his life being made apparent to him. 'Oh God.'

'Don't worry, we can get it sorted, you'll remember.'

'But for now Derek sleep, we're going to steal everyone to get home and get feed and freshened up.'

'Well don't come back until the morning, there's no need if I'm sleeping.'

'Okay.' Everyone said and said their goodbyes, they headed into Penelope's room but found her asleep, they all left, brooding on ideas to help Derek recollect every memory and ambition he shared with Penelope. Derek didn't sleep that night; he lay awake wondering how life could become so hard. He sat up when he heard loud talking coming from across the hall.

'Ms Garcia where are you going?'

'I'm leaving.'

'You can't do that.'

'I'm allowed to self discharge myself.'

'It's not safe, not 3 days after surgery.'

'I don't care; I don't want to be here.'

'Ms Garcia... please.' He heard silence. 'Fine let me get your prescription together; you need to come for regular checkups.'

'And I will.' She said adamant, no more than 10 minutes later he watched her weakly leave her room and felt a pang of guilt.

'Penelope.' He saw her freeze, she turned to him, no hope on her face, nothing but what seemed to be grief.

'What is it Derek?' She said as she walked to the doorway.

'I'm sorry.'

'You have nothing to be sorry for... I'm the sorry one; I got you too caught up.' She said her voice breaking. 'I did this, maybe Kevin was always right, I'm just not meant for the happily ever after.'

He felt saddened and sucked in a breath. 'I'm just sorry I can't remember you.'

'Maybe its fate... maybe we just weren't meant to be if this was going to happen.' She said and left the room before he could respond; he sat staring at the empty doorway and felt his heart breaking.