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Chapter Four: Lonely

"You'd....better? Hmm....interesting line, Roxy..." Axel greeted when Roxas returned to the cell. "I've been thinking about it all day....I couldn't sleep."

"What do you mean? It wasn't like I was going to fight you or something...but..."

"But?"

"Axel, I have to tell you something. The best way to get me fired is to not be good. The chief will just take me off the shift. I'm young anyways. I'm sure they can't really expect anything much from me..."

"I expect great things." Axel said deliciously, standing and walking up to the bars. He leaned his head against them. "Roxy?'

"Yes?" Roxas asked, and Axel could see he was a little down. "Come here, pretty please?"

"Axel..." Roxas groaned.

"Stop playing hard to get and come over here." Axel said with a wink. Roxas giggled a little, then cupped his hand over his mouth as if surprised at the sound. How cute, thought Axel. "See? You can't help but fall in love with charming, hot, Axel..." He said vainly.

Roxas shivered a bit in anticipation as he came closer to the bars. He stood a bit away based on past experiences, until Axel coaxed him forward.

"Ah, common....my hands'll be good, Roxy. I swear!" To emphasise, Axel put his hands behind his back. "Why don't you play a game with me?"

Roxas smiled. "Is it truth or dare, please no, because I really suck."

"Nope. It's a game that gets you to come closer."

"Nah." Roxas sighed and stepped all the way up to the bars. "I'd rather not play."

"What a poor sport. It's fine, though. I just want a little something."

Roxas smiled a little now. "Axel, if I guess what it is, can I get out of it."

"Roxas...if you want out of it, step away now." Axel pointed out. Roxas seemed frozen, so Axel took it as a good sign and puckered his lips. Roxas simmered a bit and leaned forward the rest of the way, locking lips with the prisoner on his own free will.

Axel smiled as they kissed, and Roxas suddenly pulled away. "W-what? What's wrong?" Axel asked, a little angry at the sudden loss of contact.

"Please, Axel...Didn't you get what you wanted?" Roxas asked.

Axel protested "No! Not in the least. All I wanted was...to please you....if just for a few seconds...please?"

Roxas looked up at Axel, and Axel looked back at him with renewed regard. "All right." Roxas whispered. He leaned back in. This time it was different. Axel asked for no entrance to Roxas' mouth, and his hands did obey him well. Just a simple kiss, it would seem. But Axel was sure he felt a small twitch of a smile come to Roxas' lips. It was exactly what he had wanted.

Roxas pulled away, this time to check his tears. He seemed suddenly emotional.

"Roxy? Is everything alright?"

"Uh..y-yah." Roxas said, wiping away more tears. "I just...I've been...lonely...lately. Thank you for the kiss Axel. You...you did satisfy me." Axel gave Roxas a look of oxymoron longing and contentment.

"To me it looks like you could handle more." He pointed out.

"What? You're...are you dumping me?"

"Come on, Roxas! I need you to be...you know...aggressive. You're so damn emotional."

"No, wait!" Roxas grabbed his arm and held on, but the man pulled away.

"See, you're about ready to just cry again!"

"No! I-I do that for you! I-It's the way you make me feel!" Roxas explained. "Please, I need you!" He pleaded.

"You need a fucking shrink." The man slammed the door behind him.

Roxas leaned his back against the wall, a look of shock on his face. The pain sunk in slowly, and as it did, he let himself drift down the wall. He hit the floor softly, as if everything was in slow motion. And tears did indeed come. He couldn't stop them all from leaving. No sex, no real contact. Not even a kiss before they left.

"I try not to cry..." He whispered. "It's just how my love comes out...my body can only handle so much love...without tears...." But it was too late. He never could say exactly what he wanted to say when he wanted to say it.

"But...I'm flattered you're crying for me." Axel said happily. Roxas shook his head, and the smile on Axel's face was replaced by a look of confusion.

"You say that now..." Roxas said sadly. "But you'll get sick of it..." He returned to the middle of the room. "I've never gotten as far as a kiss. I cry the first date, and I get dumped."

"You do that every time?"

Roxas nodded.

"That's so cute!" Axel cooed.

Roxas smiled and shook his head at Axel. "I'll give you props for trying so hard all the time."

"I'll never get sick of your love tears." Axel promised with confidence.

Roxas sort of giggled at the way he said it, but didn't look convinced. "I've been left too many times, Axel. And you've left your other dates too many times. I can't trust that."

"I said I'll never get sick of your love tears, not that I'll never get sick of you." Axel replied quietly. "Believe me, I hope I don't. You feel so..." And suddenly, to Axel, holding Roxas, kissing him, seemed a lot like killing. A drug. Inescapable...because it just felt too good. "You're....something I don't want to compare you to. I might freak you out." He said wisely.

Roxas stared. I hope he doesn't mean a fresh kill or soemthing... he thought. His watch beeped. "I'm off duty." He told Axel.

"Ah! How about a kiss then?"

Roxas sighed and smiled at Axel's buddy-buddy way of talking to him. "Alright." He said. Axel perked up. Roxas walked over to the prison bars again. Axel met him there. "Just a small one." He said. He pecked Axel on the lips and ran out of the room like a boy playing a game.

"Hey!" Axel cried after him. "That's not a kiss! That was like...one third of a kiss or something! Roxy! Come back!"

Roxas peeked his head into the room. "What?" He asked. "I'm tired. I want to go home! And I think you're comparing me to things I don't want to be compared to! You don't deserve one!"

"What about loving your tears?" Axel protested.

"You love my tears, Axel? Well, you don't love me." Roxas didn't seem upset by this. He just darted back out of the room and up the hall as far as he could go before Axel yelled back at him. He couldn't hear him that far away.

"Why do you cry about it, Roxas?"

Roxas looked at his psychologist and back down at the couch. "I...it's the way I feel. Pleasure is just so much for me...I have to have an out from screaming. But when I hold in the screaming..I just cry..."

"Why won't you scream?"

"I think I would in bed, but...see, I can't even get as far as bed. I want to scream when I feel really good. A glance is all it takes, as long as the glance is....full of love.....is...." Roxas stopped short, not sure how to phrase it for a moment. He settled with "indescribable."

"I see." She wrote something down on her board. "Roxas, I want you to wait until we're done here to have sex again. Or be with anyone, really." She told him.

Roxas stood abruptly. "Thank you, but...I can see now what the result of this will be."

"Really?" She asked rudely.

"I've never HAD sex, actually. And every one of you wants me to go through sex training so I won't cry, well...you're the third physiologist I've had. It doesn't help me outside of bed, so why would it help me in one? So when someone next tells me again that I need a physiologist...I'll just tell them it won't help who I am." Roxas went out of the room without saying goodbye.

Rea: A little of Roxy's past!

Len: It's lame and predictable.

Rea: This time, if Len gets 5 reviews, I'll force him to update right after we get the 5th one, I swear! He's so unreliable!