Caroline was lying on a sun bed in the garden of Gerald's large house on the cape, trying to determine how she felt about her situation now.

She had been away from Leopard's Den and her family for four months and she didn't really know how she felt about this. She missed them all terribly, that was for certain.

She found herself sometimes wondering if she had made the right decision; her mind would tell her that she had. That she didn't belong in bush: that she wasn't cut out for doing hard labour, for working with animals. But her heart would argue that maybe it wasn't.

Secretly, although she had no idea why, her thoughts had been straying back to Him. She had been thinking about the conversation she had overheard, between Gerald and Anders. How she had found out Anders' true feelings for her. She didn't really know what she thought or felt about Anders' feelings for her.

She had found herself thinking about him very often, wondering if he did still love her or if he had come to loathe her because she had left him. They had never been a couple, they hadn't even really been very close, but somehow she still felt so guilty and upset that she had left while he was in that state.

She found herself hoping that she would see him again someday, even if it was just for a little while.

Caroline had realised that she actually missed Anders quite a lot. She missed him always being there, just in the background. She missed his wild personality, his adorable accent, his golden hearted nature, and his stunning eyes.

She missed the times when they would bicker with each other, over stupid things, that weren't important in the slightest. She missed the times when she had caught him staring at her, and he would suddenly look away and blush. She missed…everything.

Gerald was normally very lovely to her, and they were to be married in a couple of months. She was pretty sure that he loved her, and she assumed that she must feel the same way.

But in all honesty, when she looked back on it now, the idea and fantasy of the grand house on the cape was more exciting and more mystical than the reality.

It wasn't the house itself that was the problem, the house was wonderful, it was just that it didn't really have that familiar warm, exciting spark and feel about it.

It didn't have the exhilaration of not knowing what was going to happen with your life next, that Leopard's Den had.

It didn't have character or a certain charm about its scruffiness. In fact, it wasn't scruffy at all, it didn't have any faults, and that was what annoyed Caroline.

She realised that she liked houses as she liked people, with faults that gave them character.

The house was like Leopard's Den in the sense that it was very isolated and quiet. But at Leopard's Den there was always something going on. There were always wild animals roaming about the land, filling the place with life and wonder.

Gerald's house had a quiet about it that was almost an uncomfortable and encroaching silence. Leopard's Den had always been quite tranquil and it possessed a certain peacefulness.

Caroline had been to the near by city and found it to be somewhat suffocating and not very pleasant.

Whereas Johannesburg had been a lovely place when she had went on occasions with Sarah, the people were welcoming, and the things she saw there were enough to fill you with an unrelenting excitement.

Bottom line, Caroline was feeling a little bored.

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"Gerald?" called Caroline.

"Yes?" answered Gerald.

"I feel like going out and doing something for a few days, I feel like we've been cooped up in this house for too long and I think we need a change in scenery." She persuaded, trying not to sound like she had, had enough of the house for a while.

Gerald considered her for a while and then said, "Alright. What did you have in mind?" he queried.

"Well…I know this sounds a little farfetched, but I thought that we could spend a couple of days in Johannesburg?"

"Johannesburg?!" he asked a little taken aback. "But it's miles away," he argued

"No Caroline, that's completely out of the question, I'm sorry but no," he stated firmly.

Caroline felt a little irritated at this, he sounded just like her ex-husband.

"Please Gerald. I really miss it, and it would only be for a few days. I'm sure we would both really enjoy ourselves there," she pleaded, trying to sound convincing.

Gerald paused for a minute; he looked up at Caroline and saw that she had her heart set on this.

"Just do what she wants, then hopefully she'll get off your back about it," Gerald thought to himself.

He smiled at Caroline and said, "Alright love, we'll go, but only for four days at the most ok?" he said as he raised his hand to stress the latter.

"Thank you Gerald, it means a lot to me," said Caroline smiling, and with that she turned to go back out into the garden, and unconsciously, she began again to think of Anders.

"I wouldn't be able to stop myself if I saw him." Caroline's heart whispered…

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