Chapter five

My eyes fluttered open as I felt the warm barrier around me. It was something like no other. It was comforting, but I wanted it gone. It was warm, but it made my heart frigid. It was something I desperately wanted, but I could never have. It was Jacob.

I opened my eyes fully to see where I was. I was seated on my couch, facing at the TV, which was on some show which I paid no attention to. I tried desperately not to move, I didn't want Jacob to know I was awake, but of course he did. His hand began to rub my back.

I blinked back the knew tears. "Just let me go, Jacob." I said quietly.

"No." He adjusted me so that I was staring up at him while he stared down at me. His hand cupped around my face. I closed my eyes and sighed. The warmth was so nice...

"No." He said again. Jacob's voice dropped to a whisper. "So beautiful..."

With that, I stood up, ignoring Jacob's hands which tried to stop me. I grabbed the waist of my skirt and pulled it down. I had to ware shorts under the white because it was almost transparent. I had slipped on red shorts underneath. I threw my skirt on the back of the couch and headed for the door. I could hear Jacob get up behind me. I walked out the door and started to walk to the surrounding forest. I just kept walking until I felt Jacob's hand grip my arm and force me to stop.

I turned around and Jacob backed up a few steps. "You really need to stop." I said. "You have never called me pretty, let alone beautiful, when I'm really me! I don't like the way I look! When I cover myself in all the piercings, that's me! You love this," I gestured to myself. "Not me."

Jacob looked really mad. He whipped his head around. "Leave now!" He yelled. Then, he turned back to me. "Just because I haven't said it, doesn't mean I don't mean it." He calmed himself with each word. "I also haven't said I loved you." Jacob took a step forward.

My mouth dropped a bit. I raised my hands, turning my palms to him. "No!" I turned around and started to walk again. jacob caught me again. I whirled around. "No, you don't love me!" I told him.

"Are you kidding?! You can't tell me how I feel!"

I smirked. "Well, I can tell you that you've been in love with Bella ever since you met her! Now, unless you planned on having one of those guy fantasies where you fuck both sisters, then you didn't have any feeling for me!" I shouted at him.

Jacob's eyes went form angry, to pained. He held his hand out. "Katrina, let me explain..."

I shook my head. "Please?"

I took a deep breath. I lifted my head to look Jacob in the eye. "Thank you," He said, knowing I would let him try to explain. "Well, when I first saw Bella, I convinced myself to think I loved her. I was distracted and, well, I couldn't see what was in front of me. I don't care if you don't love me, I need you to know that I do."

I smiled. "'I don't love you. Just go home, Kat.'" I quoted.

Jacob hung his head and brought his hands up to cover his face. "I can explain that, too."

"Then please do, because at this point, I'm more then confused."

Jacob looked up, his face was twisted into a tortured, pained expression. His eyes pleaded for me, to have me in his arms, but I couldn't deal with this anymore. I needed answers. "Katrina," He paused. There were very little times I let anyone use my first name, but I decided this situation was too tense to worry about weather ha called me by my real name or not. "I-I," Jacob sighed. "I can't tell you." He said softly.

I nodded my head. "Of course you can't, Jacob. Because there is no reason. There is nothing for you to explain. The only reason why you're doing this is because if you're the cause of Bella's sisters death, she's gonna be pissed off at you. Only reason!"

Jacob leaned against a tree and slid down the back, until he was sitting on the ground. Then, he growled softly. I had to admit, the sound made me want him. Bad. But I wouldn't give in. "Go away!" He shouted.

"Excuse me?!" I asked irritated.

Jacob took a breath. "Not you." He said quietly.

"Then who, Jacob?! Who!"

Jacob stood up, and in an instant, he was right in front of me, looking down at me and casting a shadow over my body. "I'll tell you, but you won't believe me." Jacob said, a slight bit of human in his voice.

"I don't care, as long as it's a reason why you've been acting so fucked up!" I yelled in his face.

He caught my shoulders. He crept his head down towards me, making his way to my ear. He kissed it softly. "I'm not what you think. Bella convinced me to tell you the truth, though I doubt the pack'll like that I'm telling the secret."

His voice sent shudders up my spine and, unwillingly, made me wrap my arms around him and pull Jacob closer. "I don't care." I said.

He chuckled in my ear and caught my hands. "You're not going to want to be so close." Then, he wrapped his arms around me. He kissed my ear again. "Kat, try to put it together. Remember the myth I told you when we first met at the bonfire?" He asked.

"The one about vampires and werewolves and other creepy things like that?"

"Yeah, that one. Remember how the Cullens were supposed to be the vampires?"

I heard something in the forest, a footstep. A stick braking. I jumped a little and tried to see, but Jacob wouldn't let me. "Remember their enemy?"

I nodded, getting more and more freaked out with every second of this. "Say it." Jacob said. "Say it now."

My lip quivered as I slowly made the word, "Werewolf." Come out of my lips.

Jacob smiled against me. "Told you you wouldn't wanna be so close. Doesn't it fit? How I just left to join Sam? Their wolves, too. How I grew so big? How I always hated the Cullens, and how you were never aloud to be with Bella when we were together? It's all because of this stupid curse..."

"So you told Bella? Right after it happened? I guess you were still convincing yourself you loved her then..." Jacob gripped me tighter.

He sighed. "Their here." he said.

"Who?" I asked.

"Sam and the rest of the pack. Their pretty mad, too. I think their already wolves so we don't have to worry about Paul freaking out on you." He said.

Suddenly, Jacob released me. He took a step back. My eyes went wide as I looked at what surrounded us. There was a giant wolf wherever I turned. I backed into a tree and I could feel the tears again. I buried my face in my hands.

I could feel the heat of Jacob next to me. I held up my one hand. "Don't touch me!" I snapped.

"I told her," He mumbled.

I tried to calm myself, knowing what Jacob just meant. He thought I didn't want him to touch me because he turned into a giant dog. "Jacob?" I called, not wanting to look up.

"Yeah?" He answered, right next to me.

"I don't wanna walk." I said quietly.

I felt Jacob's arms around me and I wrapped my hands around his neck, keeping my eyes closed. I heard something very disturbing that I don't think I could ever repeat, then I felt Jacob stop.

"Maybe we should talk to her." It was Sam.

I opened my eyes a tiny bit. I screeched and buried my head in Jacob's chest. "You need to warn a person when you're standing there naked!" I yelled.

Jacob laughed and started walking again. "She just needs time to calm down. Give her a day or two." He replied.

"She just wants to talk for herself." I said, irritated.

I opened my eyes to see Jacob staring down at me. "You wanna go home?" He asked.

I nodded and pushed myself back into him.

More disturbing noise could be heard, then I could hear someone running up to us. "Now," I didn't know the voice. "What did I say? I told you she'd be fine."

Jacob growled again. "Shut up, Seth. I don't care what you said, Sam's gonna hate me for this..."

There was a patting noise. "There, there buddy. At least now we can tell her Quil's not a pedophile."

I chuckled. "He kinda freaks me out now." I said.

"He's not a pedophile, it's just...Some wolf thing. I'll tell you about it later." Jacob said.

I melted into Jacob's warmth as he walked me back to the house. Which wasn't very far. I could feel us moving up the stairs and I opened my eyes. Just then, Jacob stopped moving and wrinkled his nose. "Huh?" I asked.

He shook his head a bit and reached for the handle, moving me forward. "Leeches." He said.

I smiled. "So wait. Now I can make fun of the Cullens and I can say that I'm totally aloud to because Charlie says, 'Be nice to people' and their not people?" I asked hopefully.

"How polite." I jumped in Jacob's arms, hearing Lover boy talk.

Jacob glared at him and moved inside. I could see that everyone, er-- all the Cullens were there. Soon after I looked in, several people whom I recognized as Sam's followers moved around Jacob and Lover boy inside.

Jacob walked over to the couch, but stopped. I looked down and on the couch was Barbie and Emmet. He moved over to the recliner. "I bet she'd rather walk..." Barbie said nonchalantly.

I turned my head towards her. "She'd like you out of her house. She'd also enjoy staying with Jacob. So shut it, blood sucking bitch."

Embry started to laugh his head off and I smiled to myself. "I know, even when freaked out, I'm fucking hilarious." I said.

Bella walked over and hit my head. "Ow! I don't think it counts! I mean, the dead can't take offense!" I yelled.

Jacob sat down and covered my mouth. I glared up at him and he smiled.

Dr. Sparkly cleared his throat. "Um, I think we sho--"

"Okay, wait." Lover boy interrupted. "These nicknames of yours are getting my upset. Could you possibly refrain from using them?" He asked.

I tapped my chin. Jacob moved his hand. "Nope!" I said.

"Wait," Barbie interrupted. "What's mine?"

"Barbie." I said.

"Mine?"

"Shopaholic. I think it suits you." I told her.

"Mine?"

"Jazzberry, you know your nickname."

"Mine?"

"You don't have one. I respect you." I told Emmet.

"Cool." He replied. "What's Edward's?"

I shrugged. "Lover boy."

Everyone laughed. "Oh, and there's Dr. Sparkly!"

More laughter. Quil, who I hadn't noticed was gone, just walked through the door. He went and sat at the table, apparently aware of what we were doing. "God, I've had a bad day." He said.

I hopped up and walked over to him. I bent over and began to run his tummy. "Aw, would some kibble make it better?" He glared at me. I walked back to Jacob. "You know, this is really starting to get fun." I said.

Jacob lifted my chin. "Want me to make it even better?" He asked, bending his head forward to meet mine.

I stretched my neck as I felt Jacob's lips press against mine. I moved my hands up to his neck and pulled him farther down to me. There was an awkward silence among everyone else.

Until Dr. Sparkly cleared his throat again. I leaned back from Jacob.

I moved myself so I was just sitting on his lap. I guess I was supposed to be attendant to this. "Now," Dr. Sparkly-- Lover boy rubbed his temples-- announced. "She knows about the wolves." He said.

"She knows about you, too." Jacob said.

I shrugged. "Well, one part of the myth was right, I figured the other should be. Oh and," I turned to face my sister. "Bella, I have to wonder..."

"Sick." Lover boy said.

"And how exactly does he know what I'm gonna say? Holy shit! Are you a teleplegic?" I asked.

Bella laughed. "I think you mean, 'Telekinetic' or 'Paraplegic' I don't know. Oh, and no. He can read minds." She said.

I nodded my head. "Great! Now Lover boy knows what I think 'bout him! Then again, I didn't exactly keep it a secret... But anyways, Bella, I have to wonder-- Shut it," I pointed to Lover boy. "When you fuck Edward," Laughter erupted through the room. "Wait, I'm not done! So when you do, does he suck you, or is it the other way around?"

Bella took a pillow and threw it at me. "I'm gonna hurt you." She said.

I threw the pillow back. "Same here, buddy."

"Anyway," Carlisle said loudly. "Does she know everything?" He asked.

"She doesn't know that you guys only eat animals. I'm thinking that's kinda important. Not that she'll be seeing you often." Jacob said.

I was on the same page with the whole, "Not seeing you" thing. Bella wasn't. "And why won't she?" She asked, irritated.

Jacob shrugged. "Well, they have their guidelines. I have mine. You were forbidden to see me." He said nonchalantly.

I raised my hand. "May I speak?" Everyone was quiet. "Jacob, you can't tell me that I won't be spending time with them." Shopaholic smiled. "Because I already decided I wasn't. I don't like Cullen--Er, Mind reading Cullen-- at all. In fact I hate him." I said, turning myself around to kiss Jacob on the cheek.

"You only hate me because we lied to you." Ed--Lover boy said. He growled softly. It wasn't like Jacob's. It was more...Cold. I hated it. "We told you that I left because I didn't want Bella. Real reason was because I didn't want to hurt her. I left her thinking she would be safer without me." He glared up at Jacob. "I was wrong, though."

I dropped my mouth slightly. "Told you you didn't hate him." Bella said.

I closed my mouth and glared back at Lover boy. "Yeah, well fuck you, Cullen!" I shouted.

"What just happened?" Bella asked.

Lover boy chuckled. "Isn't that cute." He said. "She standing up for her pet." He said.

This time, Jacob growled. His inhumanity was turning me on, but I kept focused. "I think you should leave." I said quietly, but fiercely.

Edward raised his eyebrows. "Okay. The smell is revolting anyway."

I stood up. Jacob caught my arm. "He means us." He said.

"I don't care."

Jacob pulled me back. "He's a vampire, genius." He bopped my head.

I rubbed it, sitting back down. Edward walked over and kissed Bella on the cheek, then left. "I really hate him." I said, narrowing my eyes at the door.

Jacob pulled my so I was laying down on him.

"Well," I said. "Now that he's gone, I have no problem with the rest of you, 'cept for Barbie. Hay wait," I said, a smile creeping on my lips. "This means, you don't really look like that. It's simply enhanced beauty, so you don't even deserve to be called Barbie!"

Jacob once again, covered my mouth to keep me from getting beat up by the vampire mafia.