From Chapter 11

Once we got back to Godric's place, and I had moved all of my things into Eric's room (since I had already slept there once, I figured it would just be convenient to stay), and came out to find Godric sitting on the couch, still cradling Lilliana in his lap.

"Well, um, if you two are okay here, I think I might head over to Fangtasia," I said.

Godric looked up at me with a smile. "Oh?"

"Yes, I would say that, at this point, Eric and I have a LOT to discuss."

"Yes, I believe I agree with that," he said with a chuckle. "Please, go and enjoy yourself. I would just ask that you try to be back before sunrise, so that I know someone is here with Lilliana, and so that I can reset all of the security codes before taking my rest."

"Sure thing." I walked over and pressed a light kiss to Ana's head, and she reached out and held my hand for a moment, and then found myself walking to my car, feeling my heartbeat speed up with the prospects of seeing Eric.

Chapter 12

LPOV

I heard Sookie's car pull out of the garage, and silently thanked her for being so smart as to have planned this all out. While we were at dinner, she made me promise that I would tell Godric how I truly felt about him if she was able to guarantee us a little alone time later. I knew that she was trying to give me that time now, but, after the conversation in the car on the way to Bon Temps, she'd want to talk to Eric anyway.

I raised my head and looked into Godric's eyes. They were the most beautiful eyes I'd ever seen, and they were filled with concern for me. I gently stood, sad that I was leaving the comfort of his embrace.

"If it's alright with you, I'd like to discuss what happened the other night in Eric's office," I told him, hoping he wouldn't object.

"Yes, of course my beloved."

It made my knees weak every time he called me that. "I'm going to use the restroom, and then I'll meet you in your room, okay?"

He raised his eyebrows in a questioning way, but agreed. I went to use the small private bathroom in my room, splashed water on my face, and looked myself in the mirror. "Okay, Lilliana, you can do this. You're just going to tell him that you love him, and that you want him. It's simple, right?" The butterflies in my stomach made me feel certain it WASN'T simple, but, there was no stopping now. I slipped off the button down shirt I'd had on, and walked to Godric's room in just my shorts and tank top. He wasn't there when I walked in, which confused me. But, I heard a noise behind me, and turned to see him coming down the hall towards me with a bottle of blood and a sprite in his hands. He handed me the sprite, walked past me and sat on his bed. He motioned for me to join him, which I did. He sat with his back against the headboard, and I sat a small ways away from him, crossed-legged, facing him.

"Godric, I know that you already told me you were sorry about what you said to me, and that you were out of line, so you don't need to say it again. I'm ready and more than willing to forgive you, but, I need to know why you said what you did. Do you truly think that my mother would be ashamed of the woman I've become?"

"No, beloved, I do not. I think that your mother would be proud of who you are. You are a truly compassionate, giving person, and your talent for dance is unmatched. I think that part of the reason I said those hateful things, was simply because it was a side of you I'd never seen. You have always been so pure, so innocent. I had never seen you behave that way, and it took me completely off guard."

I felt my hopes beginning to slip away at this. My heart had been hoping and praying that it was just plain jealousy.

"Oh. I see." I couldn't hide the disappointment in my voice.

He sat forward and put his hand on my knee and said, "Why do I feel like that was not the answer you were anticipating?"

Well, here goes nothing. In for a penny, in for a pound. "Godric, you are so important to me, I feel that I need to be honest with you about this. I had hoped that you were upset because you didn't want anyone else to touch me like that."

"I don't understand darling. I thought I made it plain that I don't want anyone to touch you in that way."

"Yes, but, I was hoping that perhaps, YOU would want to touch me in that way."

As I said this, he removed his hand from my leg and sat up straight. "Lilliana. That can never be."

"But why?" I felt tears beginning to pool in my eyes.

"I promised your mother that I would see to it that you were taken care of, and that you would be happy. You could never be happy with someone like me. You deserve a man who can grow old with you, who can give you children, who can stand in the sun and dance with you."

"But I don't want those things, Godric. I only want you. All I've ever wanted was you."

"No, Lilliana. I will not let you ruin your chance at true happiness."

I bent my head, letting the tears flow freely down my cheeks. "Tell me Godric, do you think that I would ever find a human man that you would approve of? That you would trust 100% to take care of me?"

He seemed to consider this for a moment. "No, I do not. I have faith in the human race, but, I do not believe that there is someone out there that I would trust to watch over you completely."

"Well, then you are dooming me to a life of misery. I will never find a man that you would approve of, yet, you will never allow me to love you. You say you want me to be happy, but, by rejecting me, you're destroying my only chance at happiness."

Just as he was about to respond to this, his cell phone began ringing. He pulled it out of his pocket and said, "I must take this phone call, Lilliana, it is very important. We will continue this conversation in a moment.

He answered his phone and walked down the hall towards the living room. I could hear that he was speaking with someone about hiring a bodyguard to watch Sookie and me during the day, while he and Eric were resting. While he was on the phone, I pulled my own phone out of my pocket and dialed Eric's number. He answered on the second ring.

"Oh, Eric, I don't know what else to do. This is all messed up," I said through tears.

"Calm down, Ana. Tell me what's going on."

"I told Godric that I love him and want to be with him, but, he just said that he wants me to be with a human, but then admitted that he would never find a human good enough for me. I don't know what else to do."

"Ana, listen to me. He may be a vampire, but he's still a man. Seduce him."

"WHAT?"

"No matter how hard he may try to deny it, I know that Godric desires you. Very much in fact. Seduce him. Now go."

I closed my phone and stared at it for a minute. Godric desires me? But, then, why would he reject me? And did Eric just seriously tell me to seduce him? I heard Godric coming back down the hall, so I put my phone back in my pocket, and stood facing the doorway as he walked in. As soon as his eyes met mine again, I knew with all my heart that I could never be happy in life with anyone but him. I would do anything to have him love me as I loved him. I had to take this chance, and, Eric had never led me astray before.

"Godric, what about me is it that you find so unappealing?"

His eyebrows shot up. "Beloved, there is nothing about you that is unappealing. You are beautiful, through and through."

"They why do you find me so undesirable?"

"I did not say I find you undesirable. I only said that it can never be."

"And again, I ask you why not?" I slowly walked to him, and began circling around him while trailing my hands across his shoulders. "I want you Godric. I want every part of you. I want to feel you touch me." I moved back in front of him and let my fingertips slowly move down his arm.

"Lilliana," he said, a warning in his voice and he grabbed my hand in his. "Do not do this."

"No, Godric. I AM going to do this. You taught me to always believe that I can have whatever I want, and that I should let nothing stop me." I pulled my hand from his, and ran both of my hands underneath his shirt and over his abdomen and chest. "I want you."

"Ana, please," he begged. I knew he was close to giving in. He had only once before called me Ana.

"Fine, Godric. I'll stop. If you can look in my eyes and tell me you don't want me. Tell me you don't want to feel my body against yours. Tell me you don't want to taste my skin." I was standing very close to him, and I could feel my breasts moving against his chest with every breath I took. I pressed myself even tighter to him, and I could feel his arousal against my stomach. "Tell me, Godric. Tell me you don't want to make love to me and I'll go."

He growled, wrapped his arms around my waist and crushed his lips to mine. I felt the world around me burst into hot white flames. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held on as if my life depended on it. And, in a way, I knew it did. I knew that this beautiful man in my arms was all I wanted and needed in life.

He lifted me slightly until my feet were just off the ground, and he walked me to the bed and put me back down on my feet. He pulled his mouth from mine, and slid his fingers underneath my tank top and pulled it off of my body. I gladly returned the favor and pushed his shirt up, and he lifted his arms and allowed me to remove it and I threw it against the wall. His arms were around me again and he slowly lowered me to the bed, never allowing for our contact to be broken. He kissed me again, hard, with a passion I had only dreamed he possessed. He finally broke the kiss and I gasped for air. He moved his mouth down my jaw and began kissing, sucking, and nibbling at my neck as his hand moved to cup and massage my breast. I had waited so long for his touch, and now I thought I could die from the pleasure he was giving me. I lifted one of my legs, and hitched my knee around his hip. This was obviously something he enjoyed, because I was rewarded with a growl, and the feel of his hand sliding along the outside of my thigh, and moving to caress my ass through my shorts. He took his hands from my body and put them on the bed on either side of my shoulders and leaned up so that our bodies were no longer touching. I whimpered at the loss.

"Ana, I need to know if this is what you really want. Once I make you mine, there's no going back. Unless you are willing to walk by my side for the rest of your life, you need to tell me now. If we move any further, I won't be able to stop." I could see in his eyes how much he truly meant every word that he said.

I raised my hands to his chest and pressed against him, and he allowed me to push him off of me. He moved to sit on the bed next to where I had been laying, and he laid his head in his hands. I could tell by his body language that he thought this was my way of saying no. I stood in front of him, and lifted his face with the palms of my hands, nudging his legs far enough apart so that I was able to stand between them.

"Godric, there is no question in this for me. You are my life. I could live without food, clothes, dancing, even air if I had to. But, I could never live without you. I wouldn't even want to try." As I finished speaking, I reached behind my back and unclasped my bra, allowing it to fall to the ground next to his bed. This was the first time that a man had ever seen my bare breasts. He must've seen the slight tremble of my body and known I was nervous. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to him, so that his head was resting on my chest just beneath my chin, and I heard the distinctive sound of his fangs sliding out.

"Ana, in over 2000 years on this Earth, I have never been more grateful to receive anything than the gift you offer me this night. You are a gift, Ana. You are a goddess, and I will spend every minute of eternity worshipping you." I pulled myself away from his just far enough to lean my face down and kiss him. He lightly stroked my back as he kissed me, and then he broke our kiss to move his mouth to my breasts. I felt his mouth close over one nipple, just as I left his hand over my other breast. I thought my knees would give way and I would fall. But, his grip on me was so tight, it would've been impossible.

He took his hand and mouth off of my breasts, and pressed against my stomach with just enough force to cause me to take a half step back from his. At this, he moved his face closer to my body, and tilted his head upwards to look into my eyes through hooded lashes. I was frozen in place by his gaze. I couldn't do anything but stare back into his eyes the way he was staring into mine. I felt his hands move to unbutton my shorts, and then I felt them slide down my legs to the floor. He finally broke eye contact with me and ran soft kisses across my stomach while he hooked his fingers into my panties and pushed them down and off of me as well. I felt slightly self-conscious standing there completely naked in front of him, but it lasted only a moment. He stood in the small amount of space there was between my body and the bed. He slowly pushed his own pants and boxers off, and we stood there, barely touching, naked together.

He brought his hand up to cup my cheek, and smiled at me as he said, "Ana, I love you. I have loved you for so long." My heart cried out with joy at his words, and I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him for all I was worth. He gently put his hands behind my knees, lifting me, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He put one arm around my back, and with the other arm, guided us to the center of the bed, and then he crossed his legs underneath me. We sat there, bodies intertwined, simply kissing each other for what felt like hours. Then, almost as if someone had flipped a switch, I felt a power and a sense of urgency flood the room around us.

Godric lifted his lips from mine and said, "My love, this is going to hurt. I am truly sorry. I wish I could make it otherwise."

He sounded so remorseful that he was going to cause me any pain at all, so I simply kissed the tip of his nose and said, "I trust you."

With that, he wrapped his arms around my hips, lifting me slightly, repositioned our bodies ever so slightly, and guided my downwards as he filled me. He didn't stop until he was fully inside of me, and I dug my nails into his shoulders to keep from crying out at the sudden sharp pain. He stroked my back lightly, and I felt the pain being replaced by a new sensation. Only then did he move his hands back to the hips and guided me in movement. We moved together as one, savoring the joy our joined bodies brought the both of us. I brought my lips back to his and continued kissing him as he slowly began to pick up the pace. I felt a tension begin to build in my lower abdomen, and knew he was feeling the same. I pushed the tip of my tongue hard against one of his fangs, and heard him growl deeply when he tasted my blood. We moved faster and faster until I thought I might die if I didn't find some sort of release, and then, just like that, release hit me. I threw my head back and gasped in ecstasy, at the same time feeling his body jerk as he buried his head in between my neck and shoulder.

We sat there, not moving, just holding each other for a few moments, until he felt my body shiver slightly with the cold air. He gently lifted me off of him, pulled back the covers, and climbed into the bed and laid be beside him, and I rested my head on my chest.

"You are amazing beloved," he said as he lightly stroked my hair. "How could I not fall in love with you?"

This made me smile, and I leaned up and kissed him for it. "Can I stay here, in the room with you for awhile?"

"Of course. You may stay as long as you desire. But, please, when you leave, hit the engage button on the keypad outside of the door." This room had no windows, and there were no windows in the hallway, so I knew that even if I opened the door in the middle of the day, no light would shine in.

"I love you, Godric. With all my heart. Forever."

"As I love you, Lilliana."

I fell asleep in his arms, only barely registering the familiar sound of a corvette making its way into the garage.