Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump…
Kate sat and listened to her heartbeat. She sat on her bed, starting at the roof. She could not bear to watch the news anymore. There was no mention of Jack Shephard, or any doctors really. Mostly just patients and families.
She had called Jack, and got his machine. Two hours later she called again, and got his machine. She called once again about five minutes earlier and got his machine again.
Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump…
She was petrified. She had never been so scared for anyone in her entire life. It felt as if all the joy, all the happiness, and good in the world was permanently gone from her. She felt a huge ache in her stomach. Not in her heart, but directly in her stomach, a permanent tummy ache that couldn't go away.
Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump…
She knew why to. She was in love with Jack.
Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump…
This thought didn't help. She had fallen in love with a sweet, handsome, smart, charming, gentle, nice man, and she may have lost him, before she ever even got to touch him, to hold him, to kiss him, to love him and have him love her back, to just be with him.
She would do anything to have him, or at least be able to tell him she loves him.
Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump…
'Please, god, I know we don't talk much, but please, please, let him be okay.'
Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump…ring, ring, ring…
Kate sat up.
Ring, thump, thump, ring, thump, thump…
"Kate! Phones for you!" Claire called.
Thump, thu-
She gasped and flung herself over to the phone. She turned it on and slammed it to her ear. "Jack?" She gasped.
"Kate." He whispered.
"Oh my god." Kate sobbed. She sat up and crossed her legs, then buried her head in her hands, sobbing quietly. She felt a weight being lifted off her shoulders. "Oh my god. You are okay."
"I'm fine." He reassured.
"What happened?" She whimpered.
He began to explain what had happened. Or at least, his version of it. The fire had first started in the kitchen. It wasn't properly controlled, and spread. He was on his way to work when it happened. When he arrived the hospital was ablaze. Instead of turning around and leaving like every other doctor and nurse. He helped out. He helped perform CPR and worked with some of the paramedics. He had just gotten home, and saw that he had about twenty missed calls, but he called Kate first.
Kate let out a soft sigh after he was done his story. "I'm so glad you are okay." She told him.
"I'm fine." He murmured gently to her again. "Are you okay?"
Kate paused before answering. "I want to tell you something."
Jack moaned slightly, not in a bad way, but in an encouraging way.
Kate took a deep breath. "I think…" She sighed again. "I don't think. I know. I know this. I'm in love with you."
There was a long pause. Jack sat on his kitchen table and started out the window. He couldn't go with Kate. He didn't want to go with Kate. He shouldn't bother going with Kate. He felt a clench in his stomach. This wasn't going to be pretty.
"Kate…" Jack started. "Kate…you live…far away. I'm in Los Angles and you are in San Jose. I mean, long distance relationships don't work. It wouldn't even make sense for you move out here. We haven't even met. I'm sorry. I don't…I don't…" He gulped and the clench in his stomach became tighter. "I don't love you. Not like that."
"What?" Kate whispered on other line. Jack was glad he couldn't see her face. See the heartbreak. He is as bad as Sawyer. "You flirted with me! Called me beautiful!"
"But I'm not in love with you. I'm sorry, Kate. It just isn't right." Jack said, and he couldn't help up notice tears welling up in his own eyes. He did like her, he defiantly had a big silly, childish crush on her, but he wasn't in love.
"I…I…" She sobbed. "Good bye, Jack." She hung up.
Do not give up hope yet!!