Hey thanks for reviewing everyone! Yes this chapter three. =] and for all of you who was wondering what EDWARD doing during new moon when he left. Well you're about to find out……. *smiles evilly*

Disclaimer: *sigh* I do not own the twilight books………. Yet. *laughs evilly at my diabolical pan.

EDWARD (FREAKING) CULLEN'S POV!!!!

(sorry had to do that)

I was running through the woods heading the place I shouldn't be. After all I was supposed to trying to forget about her. But I kept thinking is she okay? Does she hate me? If I come back will she still love me? all questions I simply did not have the answers to. So I smiled sheepishly as I ran for her house.

I made it clear to myself that when I saw her I would stay hidden from her. and throw myself at her, begging for forgiveness, and kissing her so passionately that I ever let myself go. NO! I wouldn't do that to her. I snorted. She probably didn't even want me anymore. I winced at the thought. Bella, please want me. Bella please move on. I thought to myself. I hated when I had mixed emotions. I get so confused I don't even know what to do.

I was just a about 3 minutes from her house when I picked up speed. Because who knows after all she could be trapped in that old ugly house with bursting into flames, breaking her leg trying to run, and falling down going into unconsciousness. it could happen……

So made my 3 minutes into 1 minute and 25 seconds. Snuck into her bedroom window, playing spy wishing I had Emmett so we had have spy names (A/N: by the way his spy name is the sexy thing. =] )and have walkie-talkies. I crept around the house, and soon realized I was alone.

I lowered my head, and if I could produce tears then they would have been rolling out. Probably seeing that pathetic excuse of a friend Jacob Black. I spat the name in my thoughts. So I ran to her room and ripped of the floor board and grabbed the CD I made her for her birthday grabbed and stuffed it into her Stereo, then pushed the repeat button and turned it up so you could barely hear it, but enough to hear all over the room, and pressed repeat. She would hear her lullaby for the rest of her life, I thought as I stuff the stereo in floor, and put the board back there.

I didn't know what I was doing but I kept up with my plan, that I didn't even know. I sat on her bed, and sighed a heavy sigh, what have I done? Just then I felt a reassuring hand on my shoulder and I looked up with hope clearly in my eyes as I hoped it was Bella. To my dismay it was sister, Alice. I had a vision of you coming here. she thought, not able to speak, as my hope turned into agony and excruciating pain. "I couldn't myself." I admitted shamefully. Don't be sad. Go back to her, if you will be happy again. she thought. I just shook my head. Edward don't deny it! I've seen you mope around ever since you left. So dazed out of it, always whispering I love you, Bella Swan. Over and Over again. she shouted at me in her head.

Alice went into a straight stare, her jaw dropping as she saw the vision. I quickly tuned into her head and saw the vision as well. I fell to the floor no longer able to keep the act up. Because in Alice's head was a vision of Bella, turning me down and running into the arms of Jacob Black, while kissing like we used to.

"Edward." Alice said my name, her voice was thick with worry. I finally heard he leave. I was left all alone. In a daze so bad you want to claw you eyes of your own head and eat them. All I could picture was Bella saying, 'I don't love you anymore Edward' and I would stretch my hand out to her and she would start to walk backwards slowly so I couldn't reach her. 'Bella…' I said letting my voice trail. Then Jacob appeared and picked her up and kissed her, no made out with her. Right in front of me. My heart ripped and fell into a thousand could hard pieces and Bella was stomping on the pieces.

I was on her floor saying over and over, "Why Bella why?" when she walked in her room and saw me, there laying on her floor curled in a ball as I repeated the words and the agonizing bursting into flames pain in my heart kept reminding me of my little day-dream. She took one glance at me and ran to me side and fell to her knees.

Probably to tell me she didn't love me anymore. After all that's what I deserved. But instead I heard her voice in a loud soprano shriek worried about the broken man lying lifeless repeating the words, "why Bella why?"

I can't believe he kissed me. Okay so those definitely weren't my thoughts. Edward wouldn't of liked that. Whoa, she's thinking about me?! Thump. Thump. Thump.

Okay so I must hide! She cannot see me. So I scrambled to my feet and hid in her closet.

"Edward!" she shrieked. And I instantly thought, Crap! Did she see me? "Oh never mind I guess I didn't see him." she sighed and I saw a tear roll down. That just about took me out of that closet and made me run to her. Almost. She fell on her bed, and curled up into a little ball. Maybe I should tell Jacob I love him more then Edward. My dead heart ripped apart and fell. Then again it would the biggest lie on the planet of the earth. Did she know I was listening? No of course not, she really meant that!

Then that's when she heard her lullaby. She jumped up and started looking around. Crawling on the floor trying to find where the sound was coming from. He left the lullaby playing! I must find it! I looked down and beneath my feet was where the sound was coming from. So I crawled on top of shelf in the closet and hid in the darkness. Right on queue she ripped the closet door open. And fell to the floor to listen better. She then started scratching the wood with her fingernails. They started bleeding and I smelt the sweet mouth watering blood, and let my hunting senses take over. I Let my white sparkling razor sharp teeth show, and a hiss escaped my lips. What the hell was I doing? I thought trying to control the inner monster who craved her blood, and who could easily have it right now.

"Who's there?" she said scared. Please be Edward!!! Wait I'm bleeding….. If he was here then……. Oh I don't care! Edward I know it's you! I was controlling myself as much as I could. Then the most awful thing happened, A drop fell to the floor, that's all it took for me to decide to pounce. "AHHH!!!!" she screamed as I landed on her. "Edward!" She shouted happy to see me, I didn't know why she was so happy I just pounced on her and I'm trying to drink her blood. She then stuck the blood mess to my face to offer me a sip.

I froze dead in my tracks. That's when I realized I couldn't kill her. (A/N: sorry I couldn't make Edward the bad guy.) Never, I have to keep her alive, she deserves that much. I then backed away. And that beautiful idiot followed me. She was smiling and holding out her bleeding fingers. I Ran at vampire speed down her stairs and got a wet washcloth and some peroxide and. I ran back up the stairs and Gently threw the washcloth and bottle of peroxide at her.

She actually caught them, my jaw dropped and I was in shock. She actually caught them. "Wash the cuts! And pour the peroxide over the them to drown out the smell!" I ordered. She did what she was told. You came back. She thought. Her eyes were watering with tears of joy. Her breathing was fast and deep. Wait no, I cannot get y hopes up. I forgot one tiny detail he doesn't love me anymore.

I felt the pain and agony then and I knew it was written on my face, as I held my breath. "Don't say that" I whispered. But she heard me. You said it yourself. "I lied."

She then did what I least expected. She passed out cold. I caught her before she hit the ground. "Good night love." I said as I put her in her bed and jumped out the window.

When she woke she would probably believe it was a dream. God I hope so. I ran home and I quickly slowed down to a walk. I knew I was in trouble, so why rush to my death? I walked as slowly as possible and took the long way. I chuckled at the vision Alice would get. Me walking as slow as a human, taking my time whistling one the way. I could just see her eyes narrow and her tiny fists ball up. Poor Jasper, he would have to cheer her up, and there's only one way to do that. Shopping.

Okay well that was chapter three!! Edward's POV!! If you want to know what happens next then….. REVIEW!!!! =] please.