Well this is chapter 8 think…….. It's in Bella's POV the whole time. And might be kind of short. Because of that. I write longer when I switch POV's. but this is a strictly Bella chapter. So……. REVIEW!!!! (but read it first. J)

Bella's POV

I laid in my bed for about an hour after that dream. Where Edward came back. (she thinks reality is a dream.) I kept trying to go back to sleep. So I could get back to where we left off. Yes I dreamed. That I heard my song. My lullaby that Edward made me. So I went to where it was coming from, and when I was trying to get it out of my floor. I started to bleed. That's when I saw my love. He came back to me! I decided to give him the only thing I could give him. My love, my blood, and my life. But I fainted. That's when I woke up. And my angel was gone.

I went to my closet, and decided it was time to take a shower. Standing over the crime scene in my dream, I searched through my limited clothes options. I had thrown away all the clothes Alice gave me. To big of a reminder. Searching and searching. That's when I heard it. . . I would know that song from anywhere. My lullaby. I dropped to the floor, and stuck my ear to the cold hard wood. Yep that was definitely my lullaby. Wait if that was true, then. . . He really was here. Maybe still is. I looked at my hand the bloody one in my dream, the only proof I would have. Yes it was cut. Bad. That means. Maybe Edward was still here…. "Edward?" I said softly, knowing he would hear me. "Edward?" I said a little louder. I looked around frantic. Then I decided maybe he was down stairs. Yeah that's it. He was down stairs. I ran down stairs calling his name with every step I took. And every time he wouldn't reply I would lose hope. But I kept going, with what little hope I had that was slowly fading. "EDWARD!" I shouted, looking around. Silence.

I began to panic. The truth was coming back to me. He left, he doesn't want me. Why would he? I fell to the floor, clutching my sides trying to hold myself together. "EDWARD!" I screamed an hairsplitting scream. After that I truly felt alone. "Edward" I whispered. I laid there for about ten minutes, before dragging myself up and to the shower.

I walked to the bathroom, and once in there I looked in the mirror at the face of the plain girl, that no one could ever love. Not even herself. "He left, because I'm plain." I scolded myself. It was time to let the truth out. I needed to hear it. "He never loved me." I spat the words. "Never did. He is beautiful, and I'm just Bella, the plain ordinary lifeless girl." I shouted this. I punched my reflection. Making the glass shatter. Wow we had some weak glass. My knuckles were bleeding, but I didn't care. It felt right. Like all my pain was leaving my body.

I felt relieved, good, happy. I picked up my razor, and my tweezers, and got the razor blade out. I pulled up my sleeve and made contact to my skin with the razor, bleeding out pain, my numbing pain.

I cut a couple times, like six or seven, at the moment. Then I got in the shower, to let my body relax even more. But seeing the blood rush down, I realized that Edward disapprove, and so did I. I began to sob uncontrollably. What have I done?

Sorry it's short but yeah, I right more on this chapter, because I would have to switch POV's. and btw I am not happy with Jacob should he have one more chapter to himself, making that his last? If you like that idea tell me in reviews!!! By the way I'm writing a another fanfic. Too. It's a twisted love story. With the vampires that we love in it. So please check it out and review!!! Oh and tell me what you think about this chapter?