Okay so this is chapter nine. Yeah I know no reviews yet, but I wanted to write, this since the idea was in my head…… so enjoy. J oh and it will probably be in Bella's POV the whole time again. MAYBE…… I'm not too sure. You'll find out soon enough though…..

Bella's POV

It has been a two weeks since I saw Edward and I started cutting. Charlie doesn't know, obviously. But he is getting suspicious. I have been wearing my hoody where ever I go. I decided to switch to some long sleeved shirts, after he confronted me.

"Bella?" He asked eying my curiously.

"Yes?" I asked casually.

"Why don't you take off your hoody?" He asked me.

"Because I-I'm cold." I lied.

"I can turn the heat up. Go ahead and take it off and I'll turn up the heat." He said going walking closer to me.

"no that's alright. I'm fine really." I lied

I was starting to get nervous. Charlie was never this observant. "Bella take off the jacket." He said reaching for me.

"No!" I screamed and ran to my room and locked the door. Charlie didn't bother me again that night.

Ever since that awkward conversation. I had decided to wear arm warmers, long sleeve shirts, and occasionally short sleeved but I would keep my arms crossed and my distance. It was working out so far. He had not said a thing since then. But I made sure for him not to get suspicious.

(a/n: she is lunch, at the moment.)

I was walking into the cafeteria. I had learned about two months ago not to glance at the table where my angel used to sit. I walked through like clenching the ends of my sleeves. Not getting anything except a bottle of coke. "Bella don't you want anything?" Jess asked as if she actually cared. "No" I said no emotion at all. I was always this distant at school. Most of my old friends had given up on me already.

I walked to the table with Jess and sat down at the end. Not getting into the conversation. Just sitting there. Then that's when Lauren un-expectantly "oh Bella?" she sneered my name. "Yes?" I asked confused. What had I done to her? "so." she started casually, "How long have you been emo?" Everyone gasped and looked at her, then to me. "Well?" she asked when I just stared at her with a pleading expression. "I'm not emo." I laughed. Mike relaxed a little. "oh don't be innocent Bella, I saw them." she very nearly shouted. And almost everyone in the cafeteria turned to look at me.

Why was everyone so fucking nosey! Didn't they understand? Of course not. No one would. "Saw what?" I whispered. Suddenly my bottle was very interesting because I would not stop staring at it. "your arm." she shouted. She wanted a scene. "nothing is on my arm." my voice was breaking just like the little of my heart that was left. "Then show me, show everyone!" she shouted smiling pleased with herself. Everyone now moved to get a better view. You could tell this was as much action as they were getting in Fork's. how pathetic. "Nothing is wrong with my arm!" I screamed at her. She looked taken aback.

"Then show me." she said smirking. I wanted to punch the bitch, right in the face. "No!" I screamed at her and made a run for it through the crowd. I decided it was time to ditch school.

I ran to my truck tripping over air its self. I drove him crying. Ran straight to the phone. It was time to call my best friend Jacob. I dialed his number quickly. It rung four times, before he finally picked up. "What do you want?" He asked. "Do I have the right number?" surely I did Jacob wouldn't talk to me like that. He was my friend.

"No" I said annoyed. "Oh. Hey Jake." I said. "Bella leave me alone, I swear you are so annoying sometimes." He said. My heart sank. "What?" I stuttered out. But he had already hung up on me.

Why was everyone starting to hate me? Wait of course they hated me. What was to love? Edward didn't ant me. He was all that mattered. My world left me here to die. Unprotected. I loved him, but he never loved me back. I ran to my room grabbed my prized procession and went to the bathroom. I looked into the mirror, and decided right then that Suicide was the only way out of this never ending hell.

I put the razor up to my face and cut deep. All of my body I cut everywhere. (no not those three places!!!) I then went to the medicine cabinet and took a whole bottle of Advil. I got into the shower fully clothed and laid there crying, thinking of my angel. I would make sure my last thoughts would be of him. Edward….. I love you. Till the day YOU die.

I didn't write a note, everyone already knew why I would do this. If they even cared. Suddenly life was hell, and I had to end it. I was slowly fading away into unconsciousness when someone burst through the door. It was my angel. "I love you" I whispered as I fell into the darkness. Which I was surely hell..

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