A/N: I do not own True Blood, Sookie Stackhouse novels, Bon Temps, Shreveport, or any of it's hot characters…none of the less attractive characters either…Also another reminder I still suck at punctuation I know and I never figured out how to do that Beta Reader thing so bear with me for a little while. Some people might be wondering about Jessica since Eric was suppose to give her back to Bill at the end of episode 12, but I do not like Jessica and she is not in the book so no Jessica…One more thing in the next chapter I will have a spoiler about Eric in the 9th book of the Sookie Stackhouse novel shouldn't be a huge deal it will just be about how he became a vampire…Anyway please review and enjoy

I could not sleep, not now when so many things have been happening. In this completely dark room I could just barely see the out lines of Eric's beautiful face. Before we left my house Eric called Pam and told her to buy a king size bed the most expensive one there was and have it in his room before we got there which I had though he just got it for me, but he stayed beside me the whole time. I didn't know if I would ever be able to tear myself away from this place beside him. I couldn't even imagine getting up to go to the bathroom because his pale hand was still rested on my hip, but no matter how much I moved around in bed his arm always seemed long enough to keep his hand right where it was when he fell asleep. It was only just 1:18pm I still had a while till he could awaken so I knew if I wanted to get anything done I would have to do it now. I placed his hand in mine and lightly kissed each finger tip then put it on his bare six pack stomach. I walked around the room a little bit looking through various cabinets, nothing of interest until I got to his dresser and there was this black buttoned down shirt the same one that I had seen him in the first night I met him. I brought it to my nose and the scent of my Eric still strongly lingered I just couldn't help myself I took off the tank top and shorts I was wearing and put on the shirt. This would do while I couldn't have his real arms wrapped around me. Luckily I had brought my purse with me just in case, I grabbed my cell phone and couldn't bear to call anyone I had left in my house a few days ago yet so I better just call Sam first, no telling what Tara has told him.

"Merlotte's"

"Oh…Umm… Hi Sam it's me, Sookie."

"SOOK! Where have you been?! Everyone in town has been going crazy worrying about you."

"I am okay I just… needed to get away for awhile and I couldn't just lie on the couch all day with people pitying me and wishing I would tell them every detail about what had happened."

"I understand as long as you are ok. Where are you anyway?"

"I'm safe and I was hoping I could come to work tomorrow"

"Sure Cher, just… Do you really think you are healed enough to come back to work?"

"I am fine I'll come in tomorrow afternoon. Bye, Sam"

I had to hang up before Sam asked anymore questions I wasn't ready to tell him that I fell in love with Eric and Bill was no longer part of my life. I better not think about that anymore or I will never be able to leave this dark sanctuary. I crept out of the bedroom and tried to find something to do until Eric woke up. I stepped out into the hallway and found that there were six other doors down it. Eric had told me that most of the time he just slept at Fangtasia because even though he shared this huge house with Pam he still could not bear to be in it alone. I was still just beginning to learn all there is to know about Eric including his softer side. I wanted to know everything there is to know about him even about his life before he became a vampire. I wandered around a little more until I found a library whish surprised me since just about every other room had been completely bare. I browsed the titles, but couldn't read any of them and had no idea what language they were in. I wondered how many languages Eric actually spoke and why he decided to live in Shreveport, then I came across almost a hundred books with no titles on the leather bindings I couldn't help myself so I picked one up and opened it to the first page… it was a journal… Eric's journal the writing was foreign as well so I couldn't read any of it besides for the dates, 1939. I placed it back on the shelf and opened the next book, 1940. It seemed as though the books went in order so I counted till I got to the current year. Even though I knew I wouldn't be able to read it I still found myself flipping through the pages, every once in awhile I would notice Pam's or LongShadow's name. I got half way through the journal and then I saw my name in caps obviously it had been out lined a couple of times aw well, SOOKIE STACKHOUSE. After which it was all in English my eyes widened as I read a very, very detailed description of the way I looked that first night I went to Fangtasia. I blushed with each written word. I read about him noticing me before Pam came to his side, about him hating Bill for being able to see me everyday, then I came to the next two full pages written about the first time he saw my smile not even at him, but at Bill. If I hadn't known before that I loved Eric I knew now and that I would do everything in my power to stay by his side. By the time I finished the journal where he saw me in one of Pam's outfits because mine had been covered in LongShadow's blood I had no idea how long I had been there until the door opened and Eric came in.

"There you are my lover I have been looking for you"

I couldn't say anything I just ran into his open arms and gave him one of those kisses that if this had been a movie there would have been music in the background. Without thinking I dropped the journal and in one swift moment Eric had it in his hands flipping through the pages. I did not know what to do or what he would think about me going through something of his as personal as a journal. When his eyes widened I knew I was going to have to say something.

"Um…I…"

"Did you read this?"

I couldn't look at him I was so ashamed of what I had done it was horrible. When I started to cry he lifted my chin so he could look into my eyes. It was times like these when I hated I couldn't read vampire's minds. He had to be angry I betrayed his trust I would lose my chance with him before I even got to really know him.

"I am so sorry, Eric I just…just"

"Just what?"

"Wanted to know more about you and when I got to the part about me I couldn't stop myself from reading it."

"And…What did you think? Did I do you justice?"

He was not mad, He did not hate me, and he did not care about me reading his journal. With a huge grin now on my face I said:

"You might have excoriated a bit"

"No I did not."

He said it so matter-of-factly you could not even think about disagreeing with him. Before I could even think of anything else he picked me up and carried me back to his bed. When he laid me down he realized what I was wearing.

"Find anything else you liked today?"

"Not yet, but of course I have not finished searching the place."

"Well you just let me know when you do so I don't just think some fang-banger is breaking into my house and stealing my things"

Eric laid his hand on my stomach and kissed each of my eye lids. I thought we were going to have sex again which I was completely up for, but it would have ruined the moment and Eric must have known this too because he took his hand from my stomach and intertwined his fingers in mine as he laid his head where his hand had been previously. As I stroked his blonde hair I realized from this moment on each time I learned something new about him I was going fall in love with him over and over again and with each fall the love would become deeper than anyone could ever imagine even on the movie screen.

"I will love you for as long as you want me in your life"

"Always Sookie."