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HATE

It was a week before my 13th birthday, on a gloomy rainy day, the kind of day where you'll never catch me out of the house. You see I hate getting wet; I hate the slimy feeling of the fat rain drops falling on me from the ugly gray clouds, I hate the smell of wet hair. But most of all I hate being cold. Alex always laughs at me saying that I look like a drowned kitten when I get wet.

Since I told Ivy that I'm going to drop by Alex's house and come back soon, I warned to hurry home but when the rain started pouring, Alex suggested knowing my dislike for getting wet that we make some hot coco and wait for the rain to stop. "And after that we should sit next to the heater so that you won't become a catcicle." Alex said ending his sentence with what he thought as a funny remark. Well it might have been funny, if I hadn't heard this a thousand times. "Alex, why don't you let me make the coco, seen as you have the amazing ability to burn water" blushing Alex, gave me the pot filled with milk and a chunk of chocolate, looking offended.

That's what I like about Alex; he probably wanted to cheer me up by making the hot chocolate. He's so adorable. But he doesn't like it when I say that, or say his cute. He shakes it off and says:"I'm too old to be called cute" or "can't you see me, as more then that". But I can't help it he is nice, he is really smart (no matter how hard I try even if I will get 100 in a test, he'll find a way to get 101, just to spite me), and he always helps those in need (usually me) But above all he is just plain adorable, every head shake, every smile- reminds me of a cute puppy dog. Of course I'll never tell him that.

"I don't know what you're thinking but, it's probably really evil, judging by your smile" Alex said. I forgot to add all his bad traits, like being super sarcastic and always trying to make jokes, although his sense of humor isn't that good.

As I was boiling the milk and mixing the chocolate, I noticed Ben's cult. They seemed to have a 4th member now. That reminded me of brother's situation. "Hey Alex, I know we talked about it allot, but I'm afraid for Ivory, you know his situation with the cult." "Yea I know Coral, we did talk about it allot. And we already got to the conclusion that your sweet and lovable brother won't go over to the dark side. The whole "situation" with the cult and your brother is none existent. So rest easy, OK?" Alex said in his soothing tone. Usually it helps, but I had a bad feeling about today, and I told him so, adding "and you should see the way they look at him, like their waiting for him to make a mistake, like they own him and he will be part of them. Each time I see them I can't shake my dread away." I didn't sound too scared, I hope. "Of course you have a bad feeling today, it's a cold and miserable day, and the rain keeps falling. Your ominous sign is nothing but some gray clouds, so relax and worry about what you can affect- like that supposedly hot charcoal that you have neglected".

Sometimes Alex can get so annoying, like how he won't stop laughing at me for one mistake I made as apposed to all the others he made. Maybe I should allow him to cook next time, will see whose laughing then. But except that Alex is amazing; he has the ability to change the subject and he can always take my fear away, just by being there or smiling his peaceful smile, with his brown eyes and his long hair glittering in the sun.

The sun?

With that realization I said formally "the sun finely came out to bless us with warmth and a break from the wet rain". "Is rain always so wet?" said Alex his lips twisting into his condescending smile. "Oh what ever, the suns out and so should I be, unless I want to be stuck here for the next rain shower, and I did promise Ivy that I'll return before night fall."

And with that I speed out from Alex's house, running fast, hoping to reach my house before the rain will start again. Luckily enough I reached home just in time, as I opened the door I could hear a rumbling thunder. Inside the house it was freezing!

Gee brother, can't you close a window? I quickly went up the stairs into Ivory's room, hoping to close the window he probably left open when he left the house.

But the room wasn't abounded as I had thought. In the room I sow none other then the Ben cult, including their new 4th member, my freshly cut short haired brother. Immediately I knew that I have lost the battle and probably my brother. "Ivy" I said, the hurt fracturing my voice, "I thought you hated them, you said you won't join them". Already he seemed different, taller, and wilder, not the calm and relaxed brother I knew, and overconfident is the best description I can think of. His voice too sounded over confident when he answered me "I probably did say that, but it was a mistake from me to think that, I was wrong". He was standing in the edge of the room, next to the window, and in attempt to close the mental gap between us I closed the physical gap. "A mistake you say? Ivy, you weren't wrong, Ben stole Embry away from you, who then ripped your girlfriend away too, leaving you alone. How can you befriend them? They hurt you!" Patting my head like he used to do when I was acting silly as a little kid he said: "some stuff you will never understand until you grow up." My brother never says stuff like that, no my brother used to never say stuff like that, it will take time for me to get used to the fact that my brother is no longer here, replaced with another corpse from Ben's cult. Disgusted by him, I slapped his hand away, shouting "don't touch me". I was so angry at the time that I didn't even stop to think as I jumped threw the open window into the rain which my hatred to it couldn't hold a candle to the hatred I now felt.

And so for the first time in my life I felt the poison of real hatred.