A MEETING IN THE RAIN

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Ben's point of view

It's never easy to be a werewolf.

sometimes I think that god himself has punished me with this curse to make up for some forgotten sin. But Curse or gift, neither matter, it's responsibility. I have responsibility to my village to protect them from those who would harm them. I wish she would see it as such.

Luckily for me I am not alone in my mission. Once I was, and the memory of that is still very sharp. The first days were madness, I didn't know what is happening, the confusion led to anger and the anger to multiple transformation. I thought I was going crazy, heck maybe I was, maybe I am. I kept it a secret, not like I could speak to anyone about it. I started going out at nights to practice, that led to tiredness, I was never in the mood for company and without notice- I became a loner.

Along with the insane wolf change, there was another traumatic event. I had a girlfriend back before my changing, and I thought I loved her. Yes only thought, for the love I discovered at the day after my transformation, was so great that none can compare to it. Imprint. The legendry, love in first sight, mambo jumbo in the legend was actually true. Well I shouldn't have been surprised, after all the transformation sounded ridicules too, until I found out the bitter truth. Back then I couldn't approach her, although she is meant to me, I cannot be with her. She was eleven at the time, and it was too early to act. Now it is too late, for she hates me.

I was so excited when Leon joined me in the wolf world, finely some proof I was not totally mad, finally another to share the burden. But then I begin to notice her discomfort towards me. And so it continued, Embry joined us, and he too imprinted, but on his best friends girl. He was torn for days, but in the end I told him that he shouldn't wait too long or we will share the same love deprived fate. And he did. And in so acting she despised me even more, for harming her precious brother. I knew Ivory would turn wolf too, and that scared me. What now, will she hate me even more, should I just explain to her everything?

Please, oh please Coral, please don't hate me, I can't stand it much longer. But my silent prayer didn't help. The day came and past, Ivory joined us and Coral's hatred grew. Alone she felt, betrayed, scared. But before her emotions could take her into dangerous places, her faithful friend did what that I myself couldn't, he saved her. And so she was no longer alone, and she found herself a new balance in life that didn't include her brother. But she was depended on Alex, and I feared what will happen when he too will become one of us. But that is still far away, maybe by then I---

'God Ben do you even hear yourself? If you want to do something then do it, and stop mopping around when your in wolf form, I don't think I can stand your rambling for much longer'

Interrupting my thoughts was Leon's rude comment, he sometimes over exaggerating his role as beta thinking he can say such things to the alpha, disgraceful.

`I heard that to moppy'

'Fine I get your point Leon, now why did you come so early, your shift doesn't start until eight o'clock?' I thought towards him.

'It is eight, you were too busy whining over your girl that you didn't notice the time' was Leon smug replay. Seriously, one day I will teach him a lesson! I would have done so already if I thought it could help. I heard Leon's snicker, right before I returned to human form. As always the change could be felt, the sudden loss of another identity in your head, the loss of protective fur, the fangs too were reduced to mere human sized teeth. But I always feel more comfortable as human. Maybe we aren't made for this change as much as the legend claims.

Heading back to the village I heard a thunder and groaned. Soon it will rain, and although it didn't bother me much, my chances to meet Coral today are none existent. But I was wrong, standing under the small cover from rain that a closed shop provided, was none other then Coral, caught outside by the heavy rain. I was so happy for the unexpected view that without notice I already stood next to her before I could think. I worried of her reaction but there was none. That was new, but soon I discovered how painful it really is.I never thought that I would miss the days she just plainly hated me, hatred had some passion, some feelings. But this blankness, the indifference, it was worse, far worse. Oh Coral can't you see, I cannot explain to you why, not yet, not until I am sure the truth won't send you running away. Sometimes I think it's too early, but mostly the dominant thought is it's too late.

"I wish you would smile to me like you did when I was still working in your dad's dinner" I whispered my whish. "When you were still working in dad's dinner, I actually liked you" came her quiet answer to my words. Could her human ears have heard me, I asked myself, or maybe it was just my imagination and a bit of wind? I searched for answers on her face, but she was emotionless, looking forward without even a flicker of an eye towards me.

Just then there was a break from the rain, and she already left, running away from me as fast as she could. I could reach her if I wanted too, I was fast enough. I could scoop her in my arms and never let go, I was strong enough. But I could never do such a thing to her. I want nothing but success and happiness to her, even if it is not me who gives her that.

Yes, it's never easy being a werewolf.