Chapter 4- Finding's out

Edward POV:

I got into Bella's opened window to find she was fast asleep. Great. What would I do now? Hmm I had heard from Alfie that there was a party going on tonight- maybe if I could call him, I could catch a chick- I was glad Bella didn't know about this part of my life. But what did she expect vampires to do at night- when everyone else was asleep?

"Alright Eddie?" I tried to hold a growl as he called me that- knowing to well how I hated that name, I choose to ignore him.

I was already back in my bedroom- jumping across from Bella's window, on the phone to Alfie, "Yeah look's like I got a free night- that party still on?" I asked him.

"Yuh-huh, I'm just on my way now- want a lift?" He asked- sounding proud for not getting a beating from calling me Eddie. Alfie was 16 now, so could drive a car- I still had to wait a few flaming months!

"Sure, thanks' bye." I replied, flapping my mobile down.

"Edward?" A timid Alice asked, in the doorway- why couldn't she just leave me alone for once?

"What?" I barked back at her.

"Are.. Are you going out tonight?" She barely whispered- okay she was only 13, but still.

"Yeah, what's it to you?" I asked her back- wanting her to hurry up this conversation so I could get changed.

"Nothing… Why aren't you at Bells?" I cringed at her name- I knew if Bella knew what my life was really like, that she wouldn't want to be my best friend.

"She's asleep- is that all Alice, because I kinda need to …go." I said kind of rudely, motioning her to move out of my door.

"Fine." She huffed, running down the stairs.

At Last, I thought to myself. I decided to get changed into some demin jeans and a white shirt- perfect.

I could hear Alfie outside calling me, so ran downstairs and into the car in a matter of second's- I loved being a vampire.

"Alright Mate." Alfie asked, quickly pulling away and driving down the road.

"Yup, you?" I questioned.

"Yeah- hope to get one tonight to be honest though- James said this party should be good, so blame him if not." He laughed to himself.

"Okay, but mate none of the girls are going to be looking at you, if I'm there." This wasn't even a joke- more the truth, I could literally have any vampire I wanted. I smiled at the thought- but suddenly Bella's image came to my head? It never had before.. Odd.

Lucky for me though, I didn't get teased-unlike poor Bells- for "knowing" a human family, most people believed me when I told them it was my parents fault and I hated the family. I always felt a tinge of guilt saying that- I loved the Swan's they had been more then nice to our family- which was more then any other stupid human did!

My good looks and reputation led people to believe every word that came off of my tongue- including the ones about the Swan's; which I guess in some ways was lucky, wise I'd be a loner like Bellatine. But would I really care? I mean if Bella was in my life- I wouldn't care if people hated me or not, and I didn't, it was just for nights like this that I did.

"We here." Alfie said second's later, pulling up to a house in the middle of no where.

***

"Edward is that you?" Esme called out, from upstairs- it was only 3 o'clock, the party hadn't gone so well.

For some reason as soon as I spoke to a girl- Bella's face popped into my head and I had no idea why. It was probably because I had hardly seen her today- it was odd. I spent nearly all of my day's with Bella, even when she was asleep. I knew that Charlie and Renee had started to 'ban' her from seeing me- for what ever reason I had no idea. I mean Bella was a human.. Come on! Sure for a human she was pretty- but that was sick! Eurgh.. Just no. We were good friends and I loved it but anything beyond on that would.. Just be wrong!

"Yeah." I replied, silently whipping my shoes off and walking into the lounge.

Alice was there- with Emmett, watching some kind of crap game show- I don't know why though, there was plenty more interesting thing's to do.

"Hey Edward." Emmett called out to me.

Emmett was nearly finishing High school- lucky bastard, I didn't even get why we had to take high school! That was for thick humans not us! It's not like they could teach us anything more, we'd learnt nearly all the subjects by the time we were ten. Which in comparison to Human's, was very fast.

"Why are you watching this crap?" I mumbled, but still took a seat by Emmett.

"Alice fancy's the guy on it." Emmett laughed, causing both me and him to laugh our heads off.

Alice gave us one of her evil's glare- but I was sure that if she could blush then she would be, "Eww, a Human- no thank you." She mumbled, reaching for the tv control.

"So why are you watching Human tele crap?" I teased her- knowing full well why.

"Sorry Eddie, would you like to tell me the number of the channel for vampire television?" Sarcasm didn't suit Alice, but I sighed in defeat. Vampire's were banned from most things- including appearing on Tv, except from the News now and again.

"Why watch it at all?" I grumbled, leaning back in the leather sofa.

I could hear Carlisle and Esme moving something back and forth upstairs- I wondered what?

"What are they doing?" I asked Emmett.

He turned around to look at me before saying, "Dunno, moving something I guess? Hey, why aren't you at Bell's?"

"Fell asleep." I grumbled again- Bella was the only thing that kept me going into boredom-madness during the night, I didn't know why- but I could watch her sleep all night. It was sort of.. Relaxing and calming? Though I never told any of my family this.

"Well what else does she do, when you spend the whole night there?" Emmett laughed.

"Talk… I duno- not die from boredom!"I replied, deciding I had, had enough of them for one night, so got up and walked to the front door.

Esme heard me.

"Edward where are you going?" She asked, Esme was such a caring and loving Mother, but sometimes she could just be plain annoying.

"Out!" I replied, getting my jacket and shoes and starting to run.

I ran and ran- my instincts knowing where I was going, but my brain hadn't quite let on.

My Meadow. Okay it wasn't mine- but know one else knew about it. It was good for night's like this- on the off chance that Bella was out or anything. It was beautiful, no it was more then that, it felt… felt like home. No one could disturb me here- not ever; and a place like that was hard to find these day's with the stupid nosy humans! I spent hours and hours out here, just feeling the hot sun on my back- watching my hands sparkle in the sunlight. But this was Forks. And it never was sunny in Forks- only if you were lucky. Today wasn't one of these days.

I looked up to see the ominous grey clouds looming above my head- just for a change, not. I was soon at my glorious meadow though, one day- soon, I would show Bella this place, I think she'd like it. Bella was the only person I could 100% trust, the only person who knew me like I knew myself, the only person I ever wanted to be around. She was my life. And it teared me to pieces inside, when I realised that some time soon she would go to college- find a man and I would never see her again. I wouldn't blame her- I mean what human would want to stay lonely with a vampire for the rest of their life's?

I laid down into the meadow, sighing at the feel of the grass against my back. I wish that the stars would shine through the clouds- they were so beautiful. I decided on closing my eyes- it was better then seeing greyness I guess.

Again Bella's face came to my mind again- why? I really did need to see her tomorrow I guess, maybe that would get rid of this annoying thing!

***

"Bella, Bella wake up." I whispered in her ears- it was only half 5, but I'd already waited hours for her to wake up!

I decided to go and watch Bella sleep- after the meadow, she'd looked so peaceful and .. Pretty. Well I guess for a human she did- but nothing compared to the vampire girl's, no their beauty-ness was so.. Soo… much more?

Bella stirred- moving from side to side, moaning- as per usual, she was so lazy!

"Bella WAKE UP!" I shouted, only loud to her- I was pretty sure neither Charlie or Renee would hear.

"Urghh.. 5 more minutes please… Edward?" The last word came out as a question and she soon started to open her eyes.

I was leaning right over her, playing with a piece of her hair- it was always so soft and smelt deliciously of strawberry's.

She stared into my eyes for a second- then looked to her side at her clock and moaned again

"Edward! Why you wake me up! It's only half 5!" She groaned, turning over so that her face was in the pillow.

"Because.. You didn't wait up for me last night!" It was a good enough excuse- she would of got a bit weirded out if she knew the truth, even I was a bit scared by my actions and thoughts.

"I was tired! And you kept me up the night before!" She grumbled into her pillow. I was now playing with the back of her hair, it felt so smooth and soft and was a gorgeous colour.

"Fine.. Go back to bed Bella- I understand that you don't want to see me … it's okay." I started to walk back towards the window, knowing the guilt trip would work so well on her.

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"Fine!" Bella called me back, "No I do want to see you Eddie, come on! Pleasee" She pleaded.

I hesitated for effect by the window, then ran and jumped on her.

"You called me EDDIE Bellatine!" I exclaimed, starting to tickle her.

She reacted instantly into a giggling fit, until she could hardly breathe anymore and was crying.

"Please… Edward… nooo… I'm sorry!" She cried out in between giggling fits.

"Hmm.. when are you going to learn Bellatine?" I sighed, stepping back away from her bed and leaning against her desk- filled with homework- of course.

"When you stop calling me that stupid name!" She cried back, trying to put a shock expression on her beautiful.. Wait no Edward what!- face.

I giggled, "Not a chance Bellatine."

"Fine then Ed-"

But I stopped her with a glare roughly translating as 'say that name and the tickles are coming your way'- which must of got it's point across.

"So how did last night go?" I had to ask, expecting a moan or something out of Bella.

But she just smiled, "Actually it was quite good- I met Jake, Billy's son, he was really umm.. nice. I liked him." I could feel an emotion run through me, but it was unfamiliar to me. It felt like… Jealousy? But why, I knew this would happen- Bella could make new friend's- human ones..

I felt better- though God knows why- when her grin suddenly turned into a frown, "But they had some news, that they were leaving, Billy got a promotion, Charlie was so upset." Yes! The bastard was gone! No- what? Why am I thinking this- I don't even know 'Jake', this was stupid.

"Sorry Bels." Was all I could say- though inside for some weird reason, I wasn't sorry one bit.

"It's okay.. It was just nice.." She took in a big sigh, "Nice to know a 'human' who actually liked me- not tease me."

In that instant I felt so sorry and guilty for Bella. Because of me I knew Bella had no friends- and look at me! I couldn't get rid of them! It was so unfair and cruel. Bella deserved lots of nice friends and.. Just to have fun with someone other then me- I shouldn't be consuming all of her time, it was incredibly selfish of me. Maybe Charlie and Renee did had the right idea.

"Bella I'm sorry.."

But she cut me off, "No Edward! Don't start this again! I don't want your apology-like I said, if I don't have you as a best friend, then I don't want any other friend's. Anyway I don't think it would make much odd's if you weren't my friend form the beginning- the girl's in my school are bitches especially Lauren." She shuddered at the thought of them.

I just growled. If I had a list of people I wanted to kill - Lauren would be right at the top! I'd never known someone to be so cruel and nasty in my life! And I knew vampires…

"Edward- just don't! Anyway I need a shower now, so.." She blushed, just at the thought- bless her. Blushing brought such a beautiful colour to her face, which I liked.

"Sure, sorry." I said, going to the window and jumping out. I went back into my own bedroom to shower too.

Sorry for the long updateee! :( been to busy on FTL :P

umm so yeah, hopefully you know more about eddie now ;) i really really really don't like this chapter- its just eurghh. no.

I wana thank my beta for helping me create a plan for the rest of the story :L becoz id forgotten like ALL my ideas :L she didn't beta this (becoz i let her off ;) ) so sorry for bad mistakes D:

the next chapter will be a few years later (again sory :L) wen bella and edward are in their final year and lets jst say its not just eddie who is starting to feel weird things...

again sorry for a crap chapter :/eurghh, i dont know wen im guna update sorry (N) hopefully by next week tho :D

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thanks

Laura