I do not own Naruto or any of the charas…..

I just lay there in bed and sigh. I am at sick of my life and wish for nothing more than death. I can feel someone placing a cool rag across my forehead soft whispers of how everything will be alright. I know the voice ….it's Genma. I really don't understand why he is pretending to care. I open my eyes and look up at him. His eyes are full of concern and worry. I look away as I feel my heart constrict. I can't cry because, if I do I will never stop. Once again the feelings of self loathing come over me and I want nothing more than to be alone so I can cut myself and release the pain in my heart. What a cruel cycle it is….I cut myself to ease the pain; Then later I feel guilty for what I have done to myself. I then punish myself for what I have done. It is never ending the only way to finally end all of this is to die. I am not afraid of death, in fact I long for it. I want nothing more than to fall in to the black abyss. I know that at the moment I can do nothing more than lay here and suffer. Because they will not leave me alone. I have now been put on suicide watch. Kakashi-sensei and Genma do not trust me to be alone. I give a mental laugh as I realize that they are a bit more perceptive than I had given them credit for. I hear Kakshi-sensei come in to the room and ask Genma if I am awake yet and he tells him that I am. He comes over and sits on the edge of the bed and looks at me. I look over at him and say nothing. After all it's really none of his damn business what I do…well I am property of the Hokage. Once again I give a defeated sigh. I once again feel anger well up in me as self loathing rears its' ugly head. Property that's all I am . Just a tool to be used…. A whore. I look away as I feel tears come to my eyes. ~Kakashi POV ~I look at her and see the deep sadness then suddenly I see an almost hatred as she quickly looks away. I wonder what is going on inside of her head. She needs help and fast. None of us here are trained for that. I can see that she is breaking. A broken ninja is never a good thing to many things can happen. The last time I saw someone snap they murdered ten people before the ANBU was able to stop them. I do not want to see the same thing happen to my student. I know how smart she is and I think I have seen a small bit of her power. She is a lot stronger than she lets on and it upsets me that she is downplaying it. I turn her to face me again and I see desperation in her eyes. I feel my heart constrict as I see a small part of her true self. I need to help her …. But I don't know how. After all how does one fix a person? I try to start a conversation with her but all of her answers are either yes, no or I am fine. I hate it when people lie to me and told her so. I see a spark of almost hatred in her eyes as she tells me to mind my own damn business. Ok…now I am angry and I tell her so just to have her turn her head and ignore me. I play hard ball and inform her that I am her team leader and if she doesn't straighten up the deal is off and she can go back to being a gennin. After all the Hokage has no use for people that don't follow orders. That being said she starts to sob and it is the sound of someone that has been broken. Genma takes her in to his arms and holds her letting her cry herself out. I watch them and give a small sigh. What the hell is going on in her mind? What is the cause of this? After a moment she begins to talk quietly she tells us everything and I feel a rage build up in me for her father. That bastard will pay for all that he has done to her. I can see how strong she is and smart. This girl is not a whore or some want to be ninja. She is the real deal. I can not understand how a parent could ever treat their child like that. Hn…when we get back I do believe Haruno-san and I will be having a nice chat… he may need medical treatment afterwards though. Genma lays her back down on the bed as she cried herself to sleep. We look at each other and he gives a deep sigh as his eyes harden and his senbon starts to dance around. " I am going to kill that man" he whispered and I gave a small nod of agreement. "What kind of parent would be so cruel as to do all that to their child.?" he demands and I give a small shrug. After all I have no children but, if I did I certainly would be supportive not an asshole constantly dragging them down. "Well after we finish our mission here lets go and pay him a visit." I answer and give a small smile. He gives a small nod as we settle down for the night to make sure she doesn't kill herself. I hate seeing my student in pain…..