Author's Note: I. Have. Not. Updated. In. MONTHS. Sorry, oh my. I've been so busy with school that I haven't really had time to think about this. Won't make you guys wait any longer though ;)

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It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

( the many ways to F A L L)
& chapter four : Before the Storm

~ colourfuldaze.

She never really considered the possibility that she still loved him. She knew she did, somehow. She kept the emotions inside of her, not willing to crack for a reason that was not enough. She thought about his touch, the sensation of his body on hers. She made a simple movement, and the blood came. She thought about his husky voice, the one that he only used with her. She did it again, and the blood dropped to the floor. She thought about their silent but meaningful moments together. As the moved the knife a third time, she screamed.

Sometimes, the pain was too hard to bear. She had the feeling that James was getting more and more suspicious of what she did when she was home alone. He constantly took her out, always keeping his eyes on her. It was one of those days, when he dragged her to a café. Sitting at the table, was Chad Dylan Cooper.

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"What the heck, James. Why are we here?" she whined, not willing to take another step until her best friend told her where they were going and why.

"Sonny. Trust me" he answered, not giving anymore hints. She sighed and followed him.

They kept walking until he stopped at a little café, sat down, and waited for whoever was going to sit in the empty seat. She sighed, and put her head down. When she heard James talking, and another familiar voice replying, she looked up.

"You're kidding". Chad Dylan Cooper was standing before her.

She gave James the most intimidating look that she could manage, but he merely chuckled in response. She continued to eye him until he managed to give her an explanation.

"Okay. Sonny. We're filming a movie. The only way this is going to work is if you two sort this out".

She said but said nothing, allowing Chad to sit down but not giving him any recognition. She watched as James left, and wondered how this conversation would work.

"Okay… Monroe. I promised, I know. But could we at least set that aside, at least for now? We need to be able to talk civilly, don't we?" he pleaded.

She sighed and responded, "I know, Chad. For now, yeah. Don't even worry about it though, because this will be over soon".

It was ironic, that despite their many differences, everything about Evan reminded her of Austin. The more time she spent with him, the more she was unwilling to forget Austin…

She was sitting on a bench by the lake, feeding ducks and fishes with Evan. She studied him carefully, recognizing the similarities that the brothers had shared. When they were thinking, they both tapped on their knees. When they were sleepy, they both yawned and tilted their head to the right.

"Did you ever think… why it happened to him?" she asked, not recognizing the question in her mind.

He stared thoughtfully at the ducks they were feeding, and then quietly answered, "Well… he would be the perfect guardian angel, wouldn't he?".

They entered silence, more comfortable with each other than they should be.

"Is it my part yet?" she heard Chad ask from the distance. She knew him, and she knew that he definitely did not like being dead. She silently studied him, before being interrupted by one Tawni Hart – or, Cooper now.

"He still loves you, you know?" she told her quietly, her back towards the wall.

"He married you, didn't he?"

"I was his second choice, Sonny. Actually, I wasn't really a choice at all" she said, before walking away and barking at one of the staff to get her favorite lipstick.

This was the last thing she wanted, really. She wanted a peaceful life, one without confrontations and fights. She approached Chad by instinct, only realizing it when her eyes get lost in his, once again.

"Sonny?" he asked welcomingly, almost happily.

"I… Are we good, Chad?" she asked awkwardly.

"Handshake, Monroe?" he said, and smiled, while putting out his arm.

She shook it and for that second, the sparks within them ignited, and they both felt it.

They both heard the announcer: "SONNY AND CHAD, PLEASE REPORT TO SET 3", so they both walked silently, yet peacefully, together.

She stared at his portraits, she was always too scared to take them off.

"You know, I think it's time for you to move these" said a familiar voice.

She turned quickly to find Austin standing before her, dressed in white, and grinning.

Before she could control herself, she immediately hugged him, just to see if she could touch him.

"How.. Why.. What the?" was all that she could manage, and he laughed.

"I know you're wondering why I'm here. But remember what Evan said? That I would make the perfect guardian angel? Honey, I'm your guardian angel".

She stared at him in bewilderment, wondering if he knew what she was feeling now.

"I want you to move on, Izzy. I'll help you with it. I want you to be happy" he said, as though he could read her mind.

"Yeah, I can read you're mind" he said, smiling.

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Distance and time, I'll be waiting
Will you take a train, to meet me where I am
Are you on your way?
I will never do anything to hurt you
I'll never live without you


Author's Note: Filler chapter, kind of. Super late, sorry! I'll try to get a good chapter in by the end of Christmas break. Thanks guys (:

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