I'm reeeaaallllyyyy sorry for not updating sooner guys! Being vice prez of my student council takes up a ton of time! Sorry for not updating sooner… hectic life… Buuuut, enjoy this now!
BPOV
"Listen Bella," Edward began. "I know this is out of the blue, but I was wondering… if you see… Bella, I want you to forgive me. I know Rosalie and I had been asses to you all of those years, and I'm almost positive you don't know why still, and I'm, see… umm, I just would like you to forgive me. I know you might not forgive me, and I accept that. Man I was a jerk all those years ago, and I feel like a jackass, and I really want to make it up to you." Oh. My. God. Edward Cullen was rambling at me, and he was asking for forgiveness. I had never, ever thought this would ever happen.
But wait, he said something, something like… "And I'm almost positive you don't know why still". What is that supposed to mean? What did he do all those years ago? What did he think? Why don't I just ask him? That'd be a lot easier than asking myself all these stupid questions.
"So wait, Edward, you said something that I didn't understand." I looked up at him, through my eyelashes, and noticed him take a deep breath, and adjust his sitting position before nodding his head.
"What is it you didn't understand, Bella?" He looked… different as he said my name. Odd…
"Well, you said 'I'm almost positive you don't know why still', what is that supposed to mean?" I just wanted to know, it wasn't supposed to come out accusingly. It just, kinda, did.
"Well, umm, see…" Edward seemed uncomfortable as he rubbed his neck roughly. I decided I should help him. Tease tease, my brain said to me. And I just decided to listen. Standing up, I placed my drink on the table and moved closer to Edward. I sat next to him, and leaned my head towards his ear. "Tell me, please Edward?" I whispered in his ear. His eyes light up, and seemed to want to pop out of his head. He turned towards me slightly, and breathed deeply. He seemed to be doing lots of things like that since he had come up to me. I wonder if it's some sort of weird disorder he has or if he… but I cannot be thinking things like that around Edward. Not again.
*1983- Sophomore Year*
* I was sitting at my lunch table with my one friend, Angela Webber. We were reading and talking to each other while munching on snacks. Suddenly, a booming laugh came from across the room. We both turned, but we knew who it was. Emmett Cullen. The best linebacker the school has ever had, laughing next to another football player, Jasper Hale. He was currently a running back, and like Emmett, was one of the best. But even though they both were very handsome, I knew who the best looking Cullen was. Edward. He was also single, not that he'd ever go for a girl like me. I mean, I was a geek back then. Yes, even I started to admit it at one point.
But even if he wasn't ever going to ask me out, I could still daydream about him, right? So I did. I dreamed about him, his long lashes, his forest green eyes, and his wavy, messy bronze hair. I dreamed about running my hand through his hair, tracing his features; his full lips, his high cheekbones, and his broad chin. I dreamed about him so much, I would physically hurt every time I looked over at him and some slut had her tongue shoved down his throat. Every time he caught me staring at him during class, he looked away, embarrassed, as though he was the one who was caught. I had never thought anything of it; maybe he was planning what to do to me at lunch. I never thought about that very much, though. The staring, the looking away, embarrassed. I hadn't thought much of it, until now. *
Edward hadn't seemed to notice me blank out; he looked too worried with not showing the tent coming out of his pants. I noticed I was still leaning near his neck, so I slowly licked my way from the bottom of his ear to his jaw. He quivered with excitement, and turned to me.
"Bella, please stop." I tried to look rejected, and I guess I succeeded. He looked upset with himself for that last sentence. "It's not that I don't like it, but I want to answer you. Listen Bella, it might have seemed I hated you all those years ago," he had me intrigued now, and he knew it. "But I just played all those stupid jokes on you because… I didn't want anyone to find out I liked you, Bella. The only person I had ever told was Alice, and she tried to push me towards you, but I knew if I ever acted on my feelings, Rosalie would kick me out of the group. I know that must seem very stupid to you; so what, Rosalie would reject you, but those guys, they were my only friends. If Rose went, they all went. So I acted the opposite of my wants, my needs, and was unkind to you. Alice was so upset with me; she hasn't talked to me since high school. The only reason she started again was because the second she found out she lived near you. She thought it was fate; in fact, she was positive some highly person had set this up for us, but I wasn't sure. Bella, I think I'm still in love with you."
That's when everything blacked out.
BPOV
I woke up what seemed hours later inside a white room, with something tugging in my right arm. Looking down, I groaned. An IV was lodged into my arm, which meant the white room was a hospital room, which meant the blackout had been bad. I looked around for a call button, but my eyes landed on another form in the corner, some person shape. Waiting for my eyes to focus, I realized the person shape was someone I knew. Edward. But what the hell was he doing here? Why, in any parallel universe, would Edward Cullen want to be in a hospital room with me? Then, I remembered, and almost passed out again.
Edward. Cullen. Had. Said. That. He. Still. Loved. Me. Holy shit! He had said he still loved me? Does that mean he had loved me in… I needed to ask him something about this… stuff.
"Edward," I whispered. He was still sleeping. "Edward," I said, a little louder. "Edward, Edward, Edwaaard!" I said, getting louder as I went, until I was all but yelling his name. He suddenly shot up, looked around, and realizing where he was, relaxed. "Edward," I said again. He looked over at me, and stood up.
"What is it, Bella? Are you feeling okay? Is your IV hurting you? Do you need a doctor?" He asked all those questions so fast, I could barely understand him.
"No, Edward, I'm fine. I just had a question for you, actually, a few. Do you mind?" I was asking politely, and wanted to know if it was okay with him because, I mean, Edward had just proclaimed he had, and still, love me, but I still didn't want to intrude.
"Sure, Bella. What about?" I'm pretty positive he's gonna be upset.
"Umm, Edward, you know how you said that you still… loved… me, well if you still loved me, why did you, ya know, 'hang out' with all those girls?" I used air quotes around 'hang out' for well, obvious reasons.
He rubbed his neck, and looked down at me. He lifted one hand to his face, and put his fore-finger and his thumb on the bridge of his nose. He sat down on the chair next to me, and opened his mouth to talk to me.
"Bella," he started. "Like I told you, I didn't want to be kicked out. I still can't find a reason for my actions, making out with all those sluts, and for making you go through years of torture. Sometimes, during the years of med school, I wanted to take a couple pills and make it all go away," Ohmygawd. Edward was going to kill himself over me, because he was a jerk all those years ago, and if he had, we wouldn't be here today, I wouldn't have found out he loved me, and that he was sorry. But most importantly that he loved me. At first, I wasn't sure how I felt about him, but when he proclaimed he loved me, he was still in my hospital room, and kept apologizing, I was positive about how I felt about him. Even though I promised myself this would never, ever happen again, it happened.
I'm in love with Edward Cullen.
So what'd ya think? Is it moving too fast? I think it is, but that will all come into play. As I said on my profile, I need a new beta, so if ya like my story, pleeaaasssee tell me! I need one baaad! Hehehe I'm a sheep!! XD
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Ps, read Falling For You by GreenEyedGirl17. Her story is so good! It's my favorite romance story right now, but I'm also reading Scare Me to Death by orkid. It's really good so far, SO READ THEM! HEHEHEHEHEH! XD
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