One step…. two steps. Breathe. This was the first time I've stepped outside since Jail. I found my car in the empty parking lot and left. I was going straight to Raw, it was live so all of Vince's lectures would have to wait. I needed to tell the fans I'm sorry. It wasn't my fault, but they don't know that, so it's the least I could do.
Later –
"What's up WWE Universe?! Well as most of you know what happened, I want you all to please forgive me, We all make mistakes in life some worse then others, but I am truly sorry and have learned and won't do that ever again, if you can somehow find it in your heart to forgive me their will be a poll up on tonight and vote if you want me back. Thank you and bye."
I walked backstage and Vince grabbed me by the arm.
"What the hell were you thinking?"
"I was thinking I owed them an apology."
"No, what were you thinking doing drugs? You were one of the hottest divas."
"Sorry, just believe in me that I won't do it again."
"You back on the job but listen to me if you EVER think about doing it again, your hanging up the ropes understand?"
"Yes sir, thank you so much."
"Don't mess this up."
"I won't, I promise."
John was walking down the hall and tried to get my attention I ignored him and kept walking. No one was going to change me ever again. I saw Jeff in the locker room and ran in and jumped into his arms.
"Angel! I have missed you so much, don't ever do that again."
All I could do was say I'm sorry over and over again and hold him. When I finally gained my composure back I sat on the bench.
"I just didn't want to lose you."
"And you thought I wanted to lose you?"
"No, I just had to do it Jeff, you mean everything to me, and you would not have been allowed back to work if you would have been caught."
"So let them catch me, I love you, that's what's important."
"Hey Jeff?"
"You caught me."
"And I'm going to hold on too. And I'm never planning on letting go."
I just balled my eyes out and he was right, he didn't let go that whole night.