Celeste didn't get an ounce of rest. She felt guilty about letting the others get hurt all because she was there. She was going mad with fear and confusion. Not only that, but she had nightmares every single night, leaving it impossible to sleep. How could it get any harder? She finally let herself quietly sob into her knees. She heard someone walk in and stand next to her. She tried to stop crying and looked up to see who it was. It was Munkustrap standing above her looking very worried.
"Kit…you've been crying, what's wrong?" he asked sitting next to her. She leaned against him and shakily said,
"Everyone got hurt all because I'm here. If I didn't come everything would be great for everybody." She tried to fight back tears that threatened to escape her eyes. Munkus rubbed her shoulder. He and Demeter had often talked about when to tell her, but they were frightened of how she would react. Would she be angry, sad, scared; they didn't want to hurt her.
"No Kit it's not your fault. We've had attacks from Macavity before, but don't ever say that it's your fault." He comforted her. She tried her best to believe what he said, but it didn't seem like it was true. She spent the rest of the week healing from the damage Macavity inflicted on her. It took a lot of persuading to get Jelly to release her to go back to Munkus and Dem, but she finally managed to get out. When she padded out she saw that Mungojerrie was out there, wanting to talk to her. He pulled her aside.
"Kit, I've been waiting to see you, I need to ask, how did you find this place?" Jerrie asked whispering.
"I'm not sure. I remember I fainted, but when I woke up I was here. I'm pretty sure it was Munkustrap who saved me." She whispered back.
"I'm just glad you're safe." He said hugging her.
"Jerrie…the day Macavity attacked, he told me t-that he wasn't my father." Mungojerrie looked stunned all this time he thought Celeste was the hidden paws daughter. Although he never thought she resembled him at all. "I need help; I don't know what to do."
"I'm sorry Kit, I can't help ya. I didn't know till now." Celeste looked down disappointed. "Hey, chin up Kit; I'm sure you'll figure it out soon enough."
"Yeah…" she said sadly. She left to go to Munkus and Dem's den. She waited there for a long time trying to sort out her thoughts. Her mind was far from eased and she felt like her mind was going to fall apart. She needed help, but no one understood. Finally decided she needed to talk, just talk. She slowly got up to see Misto. She walked across the yard and up to Misto's den. She knocked on the door hoping that he was still awake. She heard him going to the door and when he saw her he smiled. When she saw the white bandages wound around his chest she cringed.
"Hello, Kit." He noticed how tired and sad Celeste looked. "Is something wrong? You look exhausted."
"I was hoping that we could sit down and talk. Right now I feel like I just need someone to talk to."
"Of course, come in." he led her to his bed and let her sit next to him. "What do you want to talk about." She took a deep breath.
"I grew up with Macavity…he used to get enjoyment out of hitting me. Now that I'm free of him, I've had nightmares about him every night since I got here. That's why I'm so tired all of the time." Misto started to look very worried; he didn't know Celeste was with Macavity. "For years I thought Macavity was my father…but the day he came back he told me he wasn't. Now I'm just so confused." She started to cry into her hands. Now was another time she needed to break down and cry. Misto knew he'd never understand, because he never had Macavity abuse him. When he tried to put his arm around her she stood and started to sob even louder. "I just want to know who I am!" she sobbed into her hands. She sunk to her knees repeating the phrase "Who am I?" Misto got up and knelt next to her and put an arm around her shoulders.
"Calm down, it's going to be just fine, you'll see." He tried to comfort her as best he could, but she kept sobbing. She turned and faced him still crying.
"I'm sorry to bother you." She tried to get up, but Misto held her there. She simply buried her face into his chest and continued crying. He was surprised at first, but he wrapped his arms around her trying to stop her from shaking. He scooped her into his arms and sat on his bed and rocked her gently. When he cries finally died down into a soft hiccup she looked up at him. She saw she basically soaked his chest in tears. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay. Anytime you need to talk I'm here…do you want to get up now?" he asked not trying to be rude; he just wanted to know if she was comfortable.
"No…can I stay here just a bit longer?" she felt safe if Misto's arms and that was a feeling she rarely felt.
"Whatever you want, kit." He'd let her stay in his arms as long as she wanted.
"Misto, you can call me Celeste…" she told him her real name. He thought it was a beautiful name. After a while he noticed she was drifting off to sleep he kissed her head. He stood up and started towards Demeter and Munkustrap's den.
When he got there Dem and Munkus were waiting out front looking for Celeste. When they saw she was with Misto they were so relieved.
"Where has she been?" asked Demeter still a little worried. Munkus took Celeste out of Misto's arms.
"She was with me and she fell asleep…um Munkus, I don't mean to be rude, but I think that Cel-Kit has a problem. She had a break down, and she's had nightmares…I was hoping you could help her or find a way, I don't like seeing her so upset all the time." Munkus knew what he had to do tonight.
"Thank you Misto …I'll try to help her." He said goodbye to Misto and laid Celeste on her bed. He went to go talk to Demeter. "Dem…I think it's time we tell her."
"Tonight? Why?" she asked confused.
"I know we've feared telling her, but she's suffering everyday for not knowing who she is…" after a long talk they decided it was best for Celeste to tell her. Munkus sat beside her and gently shook her shoulder. "Kit…Kit wake up dear." She opened her eyes to see Dem and Munkus sitting beside her.
"Huh…" said tiredly.
"Um…Kit we need to tell you something, we should've told you the day you were here." Demeter said quietly.
"You already know Macavity isn't your father, but…he is your uncle."
"What…" Celeste was confused where was he going with this?
"What I mean to say is…Demeter and I….we're your real parents." Celeste's eyes widened. Were they telling the truth? How is this possible?
"W-what do you mean?" she was still in shock. "How is this possible? Are you telling the truth?"
"Yes, of course we are. We had a kit about two and a half years ago and that's your age. When you opened your eyes I knew it was you…I knew it was Celeste." Munkus explained. Her eyes were even wider, they knew her real name. She never told them.
"Why didn't I grow up here? Didn't you want me?" she asked still confused.
"Of course we wanted you, we loved you so much, but Macavity took you away…your father fought as hard as he could to get you back, but it didn't work. After a few hours your other uncle Tugger tried to find you, but all he found was your collar soaked in blood…we thought Macavity had killed you." Celeste was holding back tears.
"All my life I thought my father was a murderer…and I never thought of him as a dad. I always wanted a real father and mother to find me…and now they have…" Tears escaped from her eyes. She took a shaky breath and she smiled. "Mom...Dad!" she leaped into their arms and began to cry tears of happiness. "I never thought I'd get to say that!" she cried into her father's chest. Demeter began to cry too. They were a family again, and that's all that mattered.
