Hey guys! Okay so originally this was gonna be a ONE-SHOT but I decided I would finish it up with this chapter instead. =)
Disclaimer: CHaracters are SM's!! And the song is Who I Am by Nick Jonas & The Administration
=) Enjoy!!
A few weeks after I broke it off with Tanya I was feeling great; kind of lonely, but great nonetheless. I knew that after we broke up it would be hard transferring from being with someone 24/7 to being by myself, but it was still a little weird.
I've been hanging around with my friends a lot more lately, and they're definitely enjoying it. Tanya was always very controlling over who I hung out with, so I have been neglecting all of my real friends. Being around them made me a little bit depressed though. They were all coupled off; Alice and Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie, even my parents for God's sake! I longed for the type of relationship they all have, but I knew love that deep wasn't something you really searched for, you just kind o stumbled upon it when it's least expected.
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I want a brake of madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
It's been three months. Twelve weeks since I've been single. Alice, being the ever so observant person she is and always has been, noticed the change in my mood. She knew that I was getting lonely, and she was trying everything she good to bring me out and find me someone I clicked with, but I refused to be a player in her matchmaking game.
One night, she finally succeeded in getting me out of the house. She got Jasper, Emmett, and Rose to come out with us to a restaurant in Port Angeles called La Bella Italia. It was one of my favorite restaurants, but I haven't been there in forever.
After getting ready (with Alice's fashion expertise of course *rolls eyes*), we headed out. The restaurant was pretty busy that night, but we managed to squeeze in. Alice said she knew one of the waitresses and called ahead of time to reserve a table for us.
Sure enough, as soon as we sat down, one of the waitresses bounded over to us and scooped Alice up in a hug that could have rivaled Emmett's strength. When she finally let go and looked around at the rest of us, I felt my breath rush out of my lungs in one big gust.
She was beautiful. She was short, about 5'4". She had long mahogany that reached mid back, pale skin, and a slender figure. The mystery girl had soft features and the deepest chocolate brown eyes I had ever seen. She just pulled me in. I hadn't realized I was staring until she blushed and looked down. Surprisingly, so did I. Me, Edward Cullen, blushed! Alice giggled and whispered something in the girl's ear.
"Everyone, this is Bella! I met her last week when I dropped by to get something to eat."
Bella looked up and shyly waved. Everyone smiled back, and Emmet being Emmet jumped forward and brought her into a suffocating hug. Everyone laughed at Bella's surprised expression, while I frowned at Emmett's back. He was going to scare her away!
That night had been great. Bella served us our food and stopped by the table frequently to talk before she was called away again. I noticed that she looked at me more often than the others, not that it bothered me at all. I did nothing but think of her all through our meal, and afterward too. Her expressive eyes and melodic voice kept me up all night.
Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right, nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I was really confused about my feelings. No one had ever captured my attention like she had. Bella was the center of my thoughts for days; I couldn't seem to get her out of my head. I needed to see her again.
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
After about three weeks of these confusing thoughts swirling though my mind, I finally gathered the courage to go see her again. As if she knew what I was planning, Alice came knocking on my door later in the afternoon, demanding to allow her and the others come along with me. I reluctantly agreed, although I was secretly glad to have some support.
Arriving at the restaurant again was live de je vu (AN: sp?). We walked through the doors and were led to the same table as last time. Bella, once again came over to our table and greeted us. She really did have a beautiful smile. I made myself ingage myself more in their conversations, and I found it easier and easier to be myself and not so nervous. Then Alice had to go and ruin everything and make me a mess.
"Hey Bella, why don't you join us after your shift? We were just planning on going over to Edward's place and hanging out. We would love for you to join us."
Bella looked at us hestitantly. "Are you sure? I mean, I don't want to intrude on your night or anything."
"Of course you wouldn't be. Please come? I...we'd like to get to know you better." I think I was just as surprised as everyone else to hear this come out of my mouth.
Bella's answering smile made my heart swell. She gave a shy agreement and went to ask her boss if she could get off early. She returned with another big smile and said she'd be off in five minutes and would meet us outside.
After Bella came out, Alice tricked her into riding with me back to my place. The conversion was pleasant the whole way there, and I was happy to see how comfortable she was with me, and I her. Even after we arrived at my house, the conversation kept up and I found myself wanting to know every little thing about her. That's how we spent the rest of the night. We were blissfully unaware of the conversation around us, and the joyous looks we were receiving from our friends.
As she collected her belongings to leave, she said goodbye to everyone, promising to call Alice and make plans with her the next day. Bella then turned to me and smiled shyly, telling me that she hoped to see me again soon, and that she'd had a great time.
I smiled back real big, so wide that I was afraid my face was in danger of cracking in two. I leaned forward kissing her on the cheek and embracing her, whispering that I'd see her sooner then she thought, and led her to her car.
When I strolled back into my apartment, everyone went quiet, and Alice just smiled knowingly at me. I grinned back and told them to get out so I could get some rest.
I fell asleep that night with a small smile on my face, dreams of a brown eyed girl floating through my mind. Little did I know, that the very same 5'4" stunning brown eyed girl I was dreaming of, would be the center of my world for the rest of my life; she would be my life.
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
Yeah, who I am.
Thanks for reading!!! I hope you liked it. This was the last chapter of this story. =) Reviews make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside!!!
xoxo- Britt