Ice Mirrors
By Christine Lennoire
Series: Yu Yu Hakusho
Genre: Romance
Pairing: Kurama/Hiei
I feel like I can't run away
But if I get too close, I know I'll freeze to death
He captivated me so easily
My soul is tied to a love that will never die
Not knowing what it was, Hiei was confused and confounded by these new feelings. Before now he knew that there was something intriguing about his feelings for the red haired half-demon named Kurama. It was just like him to pick a best friend who was so… opposite him. However, lately, things had been very different between them. It was like he could feel the unusual tension. As time went on, he said more and more of the things he normally would think, but never say when talking to Kurama, like Kurama had changed him somehow.
Really, nothing had changed about him. Or had it? It seemed so easy to talk to Kurama now about the things that bothered him. Words that used to seem so unreal and distant, came flying from his mouth. Through the tension, he felt himself opening up to try and fix the gap that was made by Kurama's silence. But the longer this went on, the harder it became for him to fight it back, and his words became more and more desperate… more and more revealing, saying things he never dreamed he'd say, not even to his best friend…
"Kurama, what the hell is wrong with you? You're pulling away… making me do all the talking… but you never respond! It's like you've frozen up. Have I said something to make you mad? I don't know what's wrong, but I need you, damn it! You can't do this to me… you're the closest thing to kindness I've ever been shown, the most expressive and the most beautiful thing that's ever walked into my life without leaving me or being stolen from me! Please, Kurama…" he said, grabbing his arm, and pulling him close. "Don't you dare leave me now, Kurama! Talk to me!"
The eyes that had been so distant focused painfully and a tear escaped. "…Hiei." Kurama gently stroked his face and frowned. "I'm sorry, but I have a choice to make. I'm not going to be very good company right now…" he said, turning away. Hiei grabbed his hand again and pulled him back into his arms, spinning him so that they were facing, and kissing him very passionately, just because he wanted to make a point and wake the fox. Just as Hiei suspected, Kurama wasn't prepared and woke from his half-dead state.
When it was over, Kurama didn't know whether it had been real, or just a dream. He smiled. "You warm my heart, Hiei." He said fondly. "I should have known to listen to you. People who don't talk much… always have something important to say when they do decide to talk." Kurama grinned. "Really, I'm okay. There were just some things bothering me, but, thanks to you, I think I've realized the right answer. You remember what I said a few days ago. About protecting my friends now. Well, I'm not going to leave you, Hiei. On the contrary… I'm going to protect what matters the most to me."
'…I might not be able to protect… others… that are just as important… if not more important… to me, when the time comes.' "Oh." Hiei gasped, blinking. "Hn." He mumbled. "If that's all, then – I promise I'll always keep you warm." He said softly. Kurama hugged the fire demon close and refused to let go any time soon.
"I'll hold you to it, Hiei. Ai shitteru." He said, looking at the floor. "I love you, Hiei… really I do. You make me want to smother you with it too, after all the pain you've been through. I just want to make you forget all of it and give you something wonderful to remember instead…" he said, playing with Hiei's soft black hair. Hiei felt his hand and felt himself become calm somehow. He felt like going to sleep right here. Not long ago, he told himself that he felt at home on the tree outside Kurama's window, but now… so soon… he couldn't imagine going out there, when he could stay here, safe and warm.
Hiei smirked. "Damn you, Kurama. You're making me soft…" he said. Kurama laughed softly.
"Yeah… but I like it." He said, kissing Hiei's forehead and the Jagan eye.
From my heart, a new feeling
Realization forces me to see the true reflection
And with my heart so warm with love
I watch the ice melt easy and beautiful like the love I cherish.
Yes I continued it some more! NOW WHAT?! Now please review! Thank you for reading and… um… please… REVIEW!
Christine Lennoire