Unconditional Love

Part 13

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Jo walked back into the fort feeling like she had just fought a bear. Tears were falling. She knew better than most Dean had issues. She had thought the liberties he had took the night he had been drinking had been a one time deal, Jo had never said a word about it and neither had Dean. She had believed for over a year now that he had been to drunk to remember what had happen, what she had said, what he had said. How could he use how she felt about him against her. She cursed herself for not being stronger. He and Sam had to much control over her. She had to get away from them as soon as possible, but she couldn't leave till Mr. Winchester ok'd or there would be a repeat performance. And regardless she could not do that again.

Jo went into the fort and sat down next to Sam. She reached down and brushed a lock of hair away from his face. His eyes opened then studying her. Jo's body started to tremble uncontrollably. Sam sat up cradling her against his chest. Jo's tears ran down Sam's warm chest. The steady beating of Sam's heart lulled Jo to sleep. When she woke she was in her own bed and the rays of daylight were coming through the window.

The heat and steam from the shower made Jo feel human again, she switched to cold to finish bringing herself completely awake. Jo made a vow to herself then, as much as she loved the boys she had to distance herself put the mountain load of emotions on a shelf. She still had awhile before she could put some physical distance between them so for now it would have to be an emotional wall. Taking care of their needs had always come before herself but she couldn't let that happen anymore, it would cause her to go crazy.

As Jo stepped out onto the porch she felt the damp cool morning. Even if evil was all around the sky still held a beautiful hope that things could be wonderful and good. She smiled as waited for the boys to wake and join her for their daily training.

Training began with stretching and warmups. But full contact sparing was what Jo was looking for. She studied the boys intently, they were going through the routine but were not trying to hard. Jo was itching for her time up. Dean ordered Sam and Jo to spar. Sam gave her a huge smile and the match started. Sam wasn't paying attention, it was clear. Jo move to the left sidestepped and made good solid contact with Sam. His eyebrow came up as he released Jo wasn't messing around. Ten minutes later, they were matching each other with each strike and block.

Dean was yelling out orders to she and Sam trying to coach them but finally gave up ordering Sam to step back so he could demonstrate in person. Jo forced herself to still cool, concentrating only on anticipating Dean's moves. She was bested several times before she found a rhythm. Dean's stance changed from offensive to defensive. Sweat was pouring down his face, Jo could tell he was getting upset because she was keeping him at bay. Dean's jaw clenched, he pulled his t-shirt off in one swift movement wiping his face then discarding it on the ground. Jo took a deep breath, she was sure he was trying to distract her but this time she wasn't going to let him win.

Sam watched on the sidelines trying to envision Jo and Dean's next move but he noticed quickly that his brother had changed his technique. And Jo, well he had never seen her this focused. Dean bested her in the end but with some more practice at this level, Sam was sure Jo could do serious damage.

The day rolled by fast and night began to fall. Jo opted to go swimming, when she let Dean know what she was going to do he said he would go with her. Sam was engrossed in a new book he had found and declined to go along.

The moonlight shown on the lake giving a feel of tranquility. Jo got off the quad and loaded "Sitting on the dock of the bay" by Otis Redding. Dean watched as the blonde beauty went and stood at the edge of the dock. Dean let out a long breath. What he was about to do would cause problems but he couldn't be away from her any longer. Jo was so entranced with the water she didn't hear Dean come up behind her. Dean reached around cupped her cheek. He slowly turning her around to face him. Jo's first instinct was to run but she looked into those soulful eyes and she couldn't move. Dean put his other arm around her leading her into dancing with him.

Dean's body felt completely relaxed against her, and that was odd. Jo knew he was a protector through and through but tonight for this moment he was just Dean Winchester. Quiet descending, Dean ran the pad of his thumb down her cheek and then across her lips. Jo parted her lips slightly to catch his thumb.

With the look of a determined man Dean kissed Jo then for the first time. The softness of her lips and the sweet taste of her mouth made Dean's knee's weak. He thought then the smart thing would be to run but he didn't move.

"I'm sorry for how I treated you." "Keeping my hands to myself is hard when your around."

"I want you Joanna." "I always have." "I thought ignoring everything would be better, but I'm done, I can't anymore."

"Did you mean what you told me Dean a year ago?"

There was a sharp intake of air from Dean. "Every word baby, I'll never love any woman more than you."

"Dean I love you to." "And that's why I'm telling you no." "Nothing is going to happen with us ever again." "It's to dangerous to become involved seriously with anyone." "So if that means I have to let you go to help keep you safe then that's how it will be."

Dean felt like he had been slapped in the face. The one time he finally took down the walls, the one person he was sure would never would walk away from him was doing just that. Dean's eyes narrowed, damn her for doing this. Dean's eyes were brimming with tears but the hell if he would cry.

He turned around determined not to go after her, deep down he knew she was right but it was hard to swallow. Dean frowned and thought, happy endings were for fools. He was a hunter and hunters don't have those kind of options. But he knew one day he would have Jo, he was certain of it. But when that happened he would make sure he wouldn't be in love with her. She would know what it feels like to have him walk away and take part of her heart with him.