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Chapter 18
Itachi woke the next morning before Sakura and stood, waking to a near nightmare. He looked around, panicking for a moment, seeing himself pass by the door. It was all those years ago, walking down the hall, drenched in blood.
He stared in shock before shaking his head. "Just a dream." Itachi slipped from the room and headed out, walking to the living room and he found Diedera crashed out on the couch.
His eyes widened as he ran over, grabbing the sleeping nin by the front of his shirt, lifting him clear into the air. Itachi heard a gurgle from him but didn't care at that moment.
"Where in the hell were you?! Sakura was up till three in the morning crying her eyes out! She said she wasn't going to go to sleep till you got back!"
"Ca-nt breee-"
Itachi dropped him, calming a little. "Damn, Diedera. She was scared to death. She kept saying she didn't think she'd ever see you again."
"Yeah, I, uh." Diedera leaned back, his eyes dark with his thoughts. "I'm sorry, Itachi. I kissed her."
"She told me. It was the first thing out of her mouth when she got back. She said you kissed her, that she let you and she hoped I wasn't mad at her. Then she burst into tears and they didn't stop."
Itachi sat hard on the couch, breathing out his worry and anger. "She'll never admit it, not to me for obvious reasons, but not to you, she'll never admit it, but she does love you too."
Diedera stared at him, wide eyed for a moment before leaning back. "You're about to kill me, aren't you?"
"Then she'd never forgive me. I'll just have to deal with it, but this leaves both of us with a problem. She's seeing me, but what if it's... what if she's more emotionally attached to you? I don't know if I'd be able to handle her leaving me." Itachi sighed and laid his head down hard on the arm of the chair.
"She loves you, she's just upset because I was. She'll get over it, yeah, just wait." Diedera's eyes were darker than Itachi had seen them in years.
"You aren't happy we're together." Itachi looked at him with intrigue.
"Of course not. I love her, I just knew from the start that you were more her type. Hell, maybe I'll get a cute girl here to love me too." Diedera grinned. Itachi shook his head, smirking. "You look so fake."
"I feel fake. I'm a fucking asshole, yeah. I'm not supposed to fall in love. Especially not with the kind of girl that would fall for your hopelessly romantic ass." Diedera laughed, at least it was genuine.
Sakura reached around the hall, her eyes laid on Diedera and she just stared for a moment before going back around the hall. Itachi frowned, following over to find her nearly dragging herself into the bathroom.
After a few minutes Itachi went to check up on her, finding her in the hall, her head down on her knees. "Sakura?" She held up her hand and Itachi sighed.
"You love him, don't you?" He walked over and sat down, smiling.
"I do. I didn't even realize, Itachi, I love you. I don't-"
Sobs took her over, shaking her so hard she couldn't breathe. Itachi picked her up and took her into the bedroom.
She looked at him, scared to death he was about to break up. She'd never had a real boyfriend before, but she was sure that four days was a pretty bad record.
"What do you want to do? What do you want of this?" Sakura shook her head, not able to speak yet. "You know we both love you, I know you love both of us. Maybe, well, you should try and date him."
Sakura looked up, eyes wide. "Ita-" She choked before the word came out and Itachi ran over, wrapping his arms around her.
"You need to calm down. Sakura, you had me so scared last night. He's back, please, just calm down." Sakura nodded.
"My Voice, it isn't-" She choked again. Itachi looked at her, eyes wide.
"You've lost your voice." Sakura nodded, looking up at him.
Itachi wrapped his arms around her, comforting her.
It was a second later that there was a knock at the door. Itachi turned.
"Come in."
Diedera wandered in, looking around till he realized Itachi had her. Sakura looked over his shoulder and jumped, running at the surprised young man. She threw her arms around his neck and cried into his shoulder. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you. I said I'd come back, yeah, I wouldn't leave like that." Sakura cried harder.
Diedera realized her lips were moving, but no words came out. His eyes opened as he looked at her, feeling her shivering against him. "Sakura?"
She didn't move, she just shivered and shook with soundless sobs. Diedera wrapped his arms around her, looking worried over at Itachi.
"She lost her voice. I don't know what to do now." Itachi's voice was nothing happy. Sakura felt her chest constrict at the tone.
"Sakura, Sweety, you need to calm down!" He leaned back, brushing her hair away from her face, seeing her red eyes made him feel guilty as hell. He couldn't help but smile a little though.
She really did care about him.
"Let's get you some breakfast, get a little of the usual routine going, yeah?" He smiled at her, not yet dropping the arm he had over her shoulders. She nodded and leaned in one last time, giving him a tight hug before turning and walking from the room.
Diedera looked over at Itachi who remained seated, curled up like he'd been when he was holding her. "Be thankful, Itachi. She already chose you, yeah. Trust me, she won't want me."
"How can you say that?" Itachi asked, sounding more like he was insulted at the words. Diedera opened his mouth but was cut short. "Sakura's run by her emotion. It's what drives her, and she never lets one go. You should understand that perfectly. She doesn't fall in love easily. She falls out even harder."
"I can't leave, yeah. You've seen what happened when I went to the bar."
"The bar?!" Itachi turned to him wide eyed.
"Of course the bar! Where you think I was, yeah? Leaving to go hang out with Tobi again?!" Itachi stood and ran his hand through his hair. "I got back around four and snuck in. I didn't think that this had happened. Itachi, what am I supposed to do? I love her, she loves me, she loves you, you love her, it's fucked up, yeah."
"Yeah." Itachi agreed and walked past him. "I'll make breakfast. Do me a favor, try and cheer her."
Diedera winced. He'd never sounded that wounded. When he found out that a massive chunk of his lung was missing, when his stomach had started to disintegrate he didn't sound like he was in this much pain.
Diedera walked out and sat, Sakura beside him, seemed to be too afraid to look him in the eye. "Some of the kids from the Gaara 'incident' showed up at the bar last night. Lee told me to tell you he'd be by today to see you." Sakura nodded.
"I think Might was hitting on me, yeah. I didn't think he'd swung that way." Sakura nodded.
"Kakashi whipped out his dick on the bar. Some chick named Kurenai was all about sizing it up with her ex." Sakura nodded.
"I'm sorry." Sakura nodded, sniffing, looking to be on the verge of tears again. "Itachi! Get dressed! We'll eat out!" Itachi looked in, frowning. "I'm in a fully stocked kitchen for the first time in thirteen years. I'm cooking." Diedera stared, wide eyed.
"Wow, I didn't see that coming, yeah." Sakura looked up at him and mouthed out something, but Diedera couldn't hear. He leaned his ear next to her mouth. "Talk right into my ear. I'll be able to hear the sound of the air."
"i missed you."
Diedera looked at her with a smile. He hugged her close, running his hand over her head. "I missed you too, but I needed a moment. I know you really love Itachi, I know I'm not the one for you. I just needed a moment to remember. I'm sorry that I was so... depressed, yeah. I hadn't meant to worry you at all."
"but it did worry me." Diedera looked down at her and shook his head.
"It's just cause you saw me naked, yeah. Hard for girls to resist me." He grinned playfully and Sakura smiled. She sat there for a moment before going into the kitchen.
She tried to speak to Itachi, but he didn't hear her.
She stepped forwards and tried again, nearly screaming, but nothing came out. Itachi turned to her and he noticed the look on her face. "I tried all night to cheer you and he did it in five minutes."
Sakura stepped forwards and wrapped her arms around him, pulling him in. She moved her mouth by his ear, speaking as she had for Diedera. "Itachi, I love you. I may have a crush on Diedera, but I love you." Itachi wrapped his arms around her, squeezing her tightly.
"Are you so sure of that?"
Sakura leaned back so that her face could be seen. She looked him in the eye, showing her the look on her face. She was smiling. It was still a sad smile, her eyes were still red from crying, but she was smiling at him.
He looked in her eyes, seeing them shining at him. She stood on her toes to reach him, but kissed him.
He cherished the feeling, missing it after not having one since yesterday afternoon.
She ran her hands up his neck and her fingers into his hair and smiled.
She pointed over and Itachi turned to the food he'd been making. He turned to her with a smile. "What, are you planning on staying in here and watching me?" She nodded, sitting up on the counter, swinging her legs below her.
Itachi continued cooking, but occasionally went over, giving her a kiss, a taste, a pat on the knee.
Sakura knew he was thrilled that she was choosing him. She knew Diedera was hurting, but there was nothing she could really do.
Except...
Her eyes lit up as she looked over at him. She tried to say his name, but still no sound. She watched him, excited for a moment, thinking through ideas, through her thoughts, and Itachi turned to see the serious look on her face.
He dropped what he was doing and walked over, laying his hands on her knees. "Sakura?"
She looked up, grabbing him and pulling him in for a kiss. It wasn't just a little kiss, it was deep, demanding and took his breath away.
She shooed him on to continue cooking.
It was a little bit later that Sasuke came in, staring behind him. "When did Diedera get here, and why does he look like- Sakura, why are you sitting on my counter?"
She jumped down and tried to speak, still no sound. "Sakura?!"
"She lost her voice." Itachi turned, smiling. "I think she has a plan for Diedera too." Sakura looked over, wondering how he knew. Fortunately Itachi knew her well enough to know why the look. "I know how much it's been bothering you. Either you've decided to date both of us, or you have a plan for a hook up." Sakura stared. Itachi chuckled as he turned back to the food. "What, you don't think I know you well enough to know the direction your thoughts would turn?"
"I don't want it." Sakura turned to see Diedera in the doorway. "Sakura, it's not fair, I don't want you playing with my emotions like that." He was shaking and Sakura froze. She stepped forwards, but stopped, her hand sliding up to her mouth.
"I can't watch you like this!" She screamed, surprising them all. She looked up at him, her eyes wide. "I can't watch you torment yourself! I do love you! I do, but you were right, I choose Itachi! That doesn't mean I can just sit by and watch you suffer! I have to do something!"
She stared at him, half bent over, looking up at him. He was surprised to find the look on her face was almost that of someone about to be attacked. She opened her mouth to talk, but nothing came out again. She started into a choking fit and they watched in horror as blood started seeping from between her lips.
She reached up and felt the liquid, instantly feeling at her throat.
She was going to try and heal it. Sasuke ran forwards, grabbing her hands. "I'll take you to Shizune."
"No, I will. Breakfast is nearly done. I'll take her in just a second. Sakura, do me a favor. Sit and relax." She nodded and turned with her hand held over her mouth.
"Diedera." Itachi turned to him. "I swear to god, if you break her heart I'll break yours. I'll bury it in the back yard here." Diedera turned and sighed. "You think I'd want to? You think this is some game, yeah. I'd love nothing more than to hear her say she chose me instead. She told me she chose you. You should be thrilled. Instead your internally bleeding girlfriend is in the next room while you berate the man she chose you over, yeah. If you don't go now, I will."
"Breakfast was done when I told her to wait. I just wanted to tell you that. You know how to plate." Itachi turned and walked out.
"Ready to go?" Itachi murmured as he walked out of the room, finding Sakura leaning over the side of the couch, her head down. "Sakura?"
He walked around, finding blood draining from her. "FUCK!" He jumped forwards, patting her back, looking at her to find she was conscious. "Should I move you?!"
She shook her head. Diedera ran in after the yell and saw what was going on. He ran back out to the kitchen, getting two towels, a bowl and a cup of water with a straw. "Itachi, go to the hospital!"
"I won't leave her!" Diedera smacked him, Itachi turning on him dangerously. "You're faster than I am, dumb ass! Go get her help!" Diedera pointed and Itachi frowned, looking down. "I'll be back soon!"
He ran and Diedera laid one of the towels under her mouth, trying to soak up the pool on the floor. He set the bowl under it and handed her the other. "If you think you can drink, let me know." He showed her the cup with the straw and she nodded.
He held it up to her and she sucked down the liquid. She knew she'd get dehydrated quickly like this, but how did Diedera think about it? Sakura though about how many times she'd told him to go get water due to dehydration due to blood loss while in the village. She'd taught him well.
He reached up, rubbing softly on her back. "He'll be back soon, yeah, don't worry. You'll be fine." Sakura smiled, knowing he was comforting himself more than her. She thought about this rationally.
She'd spent the night crying. When she woke she'd lost her voice. She screamed and started to bleed.
She may never be able to talk again. She sighed. Itachi would be able to deal with it. Diedera would be able to deal with it.
She didn't think SHE'D be able to deal with it though. She prayed it would be curable, something minor.
Minor things didn't bleed this much though.
She looked up to Diedera who leaned down and rubbed softly on her back, leaning his head against her shoulder. "How do you feel?" She realized he'd leaned in so close so that he could hear her without words.
"dizzy"
"Would more water help?"
"no thirsty though" Diedera held the cup up to her and sighed, his hand on her back never stopping.
She took a few deep draws before lifting her head away from the straw.
"i'm sorry"
Diedera smiled at her, nodding.
Itachi reached the tower in less than a minute, finding Shizune in the office. "I don't remember where things are, I need a doctor quick!"
"You live with Sakura! She's the best here!" Shizune stared at him as if he were oblivious.
"She's the one I need help for!" Shizune stood, staring.
"What's happening?!"