Hello again, I know it has been ehh FOREVER since I've updated and I will not make any excuse for it. I will only apologize and provide you another chapter of Bella's life as a skater chick haha. (: Love Bri

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Time? 9:00 am

Date? Monday

My location? Somewhere above Utah I'm guessing.

Why? I screwed up. BIG TIME.

I made a huge mistake, okay multiple huge mistakes, but that's beside the point. Anyway as a consequence I was on a plane, in a small leather seat, with the person to my left unsuccessfully trying to tame her screaming baby, and a man to my left trying to quickly figure out where to stick in head phones to watch the plane movie. Oh and the movie playing? Mean Girls. Please tell me why this man so desperately wants to watch a movie about four teenage girls who destroy the lives of others and each other? Actually never mind I don't want to know. I guess these are just the type of people in Forks, Washington. What a stupid name for a town. I think a better name would be Gelanbrea or Plickfrom. Something interesting. But then again that would require the town to be interesting itself.

Forks… My new home. God help me.

I miss my friends already. Telling them was a hard thing for me to do. I was so close to them and now I'm just picking up and leaving again. I guess it's just a reminder that I shouldn't get closed to people. All that ever happens is it all gets ripped away from me and I end up getting hurt.

It was Saturday when the most important people in my life came over unexpectedly. That's when they found out. There were clothes scattered all over the floor and five suitcases lying around. They took one glance at the floor and caught on. Phoebe took it the worst but kept denying it at first. All she would say was "you're going on a trip" and "you'll be back". But eventually the truth hit her.

I wasn't going and visiting family for a weekend. And I was not coming back.

That truth hurt.

After a long day of tears and reminiscing everyone went home. Well everyone but Abel. He stayed behind and we just talked. It was nice but…. Painful. I was going to miss him. I do miss him.

The next day they came over again and I was already done packing. My room was vacant of almost everything except for my clothes for bed and my clothes for the next morning. The day was spent with don't forget mes and I'll miss yous. It was filled with reminders to call and email and text every day. Filled with good lucks and have funs. I was filled with memories and laughs and tears… mostly tears. Once again they all stayed until they were called home, and once again Abel stayed behind.

"Well kiddo…" He grabbed my hand while we were sitting on my bedroom floor.

"Well…" I couldn't look at him. Cheesy as it sounds it was just to heartbreaking.

"Bella, Bella, Bella" His voice had a certain light heartedness in it. I look up to see him smiling but the anguish and pain… It was still shining through his eyes.

"Yes mother?" We both chuckled but it didn't sound right. It sounded forced. Suddenly his tone turned serious and he looked me dead in the eye.

"I'll miss you."

"Not for long, you'll find me a replacement" I tried to joke but he didn't even show a sign of happiness.

"There is no one in the world that is better than you I can promise you that." We just sat there making no noise at all. Just looking at each other. "I love you Bella."

"I love you, too" I smiled and he smiled back.

"Do me a favor?"

"Anything" In my mind I wondered what he could possibly want but his reply was far from what I had expected.

"When you go there, don't forget about me"

"Never!" I cut in. He smiled that gorgeous smile of his and I melted instantly.

"Shh… Let me finish please" I acted as though I zipped my lips, locked them, and threw away the key. He sighed deeply and then continued, "Don't forget about me. But move on. Find someone to fall in love with there. You shouldn't waste your time on me when I'm so far away."

I didn't believe what he was saying to me. Was he serious? I scanned his face for any sign of lying or sarcasm. I saw none. I nodded.

Soon after that I walked him out to his truck to say goodbye one last time. The moon was shining brightly and the temperature was a nice mid-seventies. A perfect night for a very imperfect situation.

"I love you Bella and I will miss you everyday"

"I love you, too and I will miss you every minute" He smiled and put his hands on the sides on my face and leaned forward. This kiss wasn't like our usual kisses. It was… gentle but desperate. Kind but upsetting. I loved it and hated it at the same time.

As he drove away I stood in front my house and cried. I cried because I was leaving everything I once knew. Because I was leaving the best people in the world. And because I was going somewhere I knew I wouldn't belong. I cried because I was angry and sad and alone. I was alone.

I am alone.

The goodbye to my mother wasn't as bad. It was quick and simple. I said goodbye I love you. She repeated it. We hugged. We walked in separate directions. Both of us alone.

Is that what life is like? Being with someone you love and then being left alone? I think that's all there is to life.

The man to my left, was he once with someone and then left to be by himself? Or is he the one that left? Is he returning to what he left? Or is he leaving right now? Same with the woman to my right. Did any of these situations pertain to her?

I look at both of them and see that they're both too busy for me to ask them. Not that I would even if I could, I wasn't that bold. But as I sat there on my way to meet my father and see my new home, as I sat there and read Romeo and Juliet, these questions still remained in the back of my head.