Love Games

A/N: All wrestlers mentioned in this story belong to themselves, the OC's belong to me but other than that please enjoy the story and I enjoy getting reviews. Thanks much.

The start of this chapter is from Punk's point of view (thanks Kate for the idea!) then it will switch to Lexie's later on. I will note when it does.

Chapter four: From bad to worse

(Punks POV)

I never wanted kids, they were always just a complication to me. Then when I looked into my daughter's eyes for the first time the driving force behind everything I did changed. It went from being all about me and proving to the world that I was the best out there, to making my little girl's life better than mine. In the process though I lost possibly the one woman I ever loved and my daughter in a stupid mistake. I can't blame my mistakes on drugs or booze like so many people do. I'm straight edge, humph… but I'm not better than you.

Arrogance got the best of me, that's the honest truth. Lex had become distant since she found out she was pregnant with Zoe, I pushed her away thinking that if I pushed hard enough that she would have an abortion and we could get back to our lives. My plan backfired on me in a horrible way, Lex kept the baby obviously and I pushed harder. I didn't want to be a father, part of me still doesn't want to be responsible for another life, so I did the one thing I knew that would drive Lex away. I cheated on her, then accused her of cheating on me and said that my little girl wasn't mine. Though you look at Zoe, you can tell that's my baby… those eyes are unmistakably mine. I should have known it would come down to me against them and all over an innocent little girl.

I am about to get on a flight to go to yet another town and spend yet another week on the road. The air port is crowded and I'm by myself, which is nice after spending the whole week with Amy up my ass. I'm not really even paying attention to the chaos around me till I see this little girl out of the corner of my eye. She's the spitting image of my Zoe, blonde curls, huge blue green eyes and this cute little crooked grin. My heart sinks. I missed her birthday yesterday. FUCK. I am shitty fucking father.

The little girl glances over at me and smiles, it makes me miss Zoe even more. As much as I wish she was never born some days, when I look at her (even a picture of her) my heart brakes knowing that she is my daughter. My flesh and blood. The little girl spots someone coming towards her, I stop and watch as she sees a man who I can only assume is her father come towards her. Her mother lets go of her hand and she races into her father's arms. I wish that was me and she was Zoe. Zoe has never ran to me with a look like that on her face. "Fuck it" I mumble.

Reaching up I pull my baseball cap down over my eyes and toss my hood up. I don't want to talk to anyone right now, I don't want to deal with anymore people. Alexis's brother last night was enough to get me so riled up I couldn't sleep, then when I called Lex to bitch her out for it because I am more than sure that she had to have put him up to it (she has the three of them, Jeff, Matt and Shannon, wrapped around her little finger) only to find out she has a new boyfriend. I'll admit to the fact that I am insanely jealous right now of Josh. I want her back, I want my daughter back. I want the life that he has with her and if I have to destroy everyone and everything around her till they all leave her just so I can pick up the pieces, I will.

As I get on the plane I turn on my IPod, the first song that plays is Zoe Jane… my daughter never gives me any peace.

(Lexie's POV)

Getting to our little hide out wasn't had, and I had to swear Josh to secrecy about the location and told him if he ever told anyone about it that he would be drawn a quartered. "Yup… Daddy never came out here." Zoe piped in from her car seat behind us. "Right mama…" I let out a little laugh.

"Yup, Uncle Jeff never let him come back here. So Josh should consider himself lucky." I threw the car into park and looked over at Josh who just smirked at me and leaned over the center console and gave me was quick peck causing Zoe to giggle in the back seat.

We all got out of the car, Zoe took Josh's hand as we all gathered around the ring. A bunch other people were there, Greg, Kimo, and a few local kids that the boys have taken under their wing. Josh helped Zoe into the ring and she sat on the edge leaning forward against the bottom room as the boys began to hash out who would be working with who. Matt seemed distracted and kept looking over at Josh.

Josh had wrapped his arms around waist and pulled me back against him and was telling me how happy he was that we were together finally and he would do anything to make me happy. I jokingly asked him would he move down to North Carolina. "I don't think I could do that… but what about you coming up to Detroit and staying with me?" He whispered in my ear.

"I can't do that to Zoe, this is the only home she's ever known. Jeff would kill me if I took her that far away." I muttered looking back at him for a moment. I had thought about moving away for awhile, get a clean start some place new, I was thinking New York or Boston… but then I remembered it wasn't just me I had to think about. It was Zoe and what was best for her. Josh sighed and kissed the back of my neck.

"We'll cross that bridge when we come to it baby, but the schools are good out by me and don't deny the fact the both of you could do with a change of venue. I'm just saying if you need to get away you and Zoe can always come live with me." I turned around and kissed him quickly and told him that if I needed to runaway he would be the first person I would turn to which seemed to make him pretty happy.

Matt came over towards where Josh and I were standing. "You and Sabin… if you can handle me boy … " Matt said rather coldly. I could tell something was up with Matt. He had seemed off since he saw me and Josh kiss yesterday on the deck. If I didn't know better I would say he was jealous of him. I glared over at Matt.

"Whatever bro," Josh said letting go of me and going over to talk to the boys.

I reached out and grabbed Matt's arm and dragged him off into the distance. I could see the boys climbing into the ring and playing with Zoe. Both Josh and Jeff were totally selling that they were getting beat up by a five year old, but I needed for find out what had gotten up Matt's ass. "Do you have some beef with Josh I should know about because you have been distant and bitchy since yesterday and this ain't like you Matty."

Matt looked at the ground for a moment before looking up at me. "Do you really think this is smart Alexis? You are rushing into things with Josh head first." I let out a heavy sigh and looked at him. Matt is a horrible liar, he can sell anything in the ring but when it came to telling me a lie he was the worst. There was more behind that statement than I knew.

"I've known Josh for years, I've had feelings for him for years Matt. I am a big girl and can handle a relationship moving a little fast alright. I care a lot about him. He's a good guy even you can't deny that." Matt shook he head. "What is so wrong with Josh?" I demanded.

"I just don't like that he's all touchy feely with you in front of Zoe. I mean come on, the kid's confused enough already what if he leaves you for some girl back in Detroit huh? What are you going to do then? Tell me that Alexis. Zoe already wants him to replace Phil. When it should be…" He paused.

"What Matthew? When it should be who? One of you guys? Fuck you… really didn't we try that shit and we both agreed it was too fucking weird and I don't think Beth would take kindly to me trying to fuck Jeff." I snapped. I must have been screaming because everyone stopped and looked at Matt and I as we argued.

Josh was trying to get out of the ring and come over but Jeff and Shannon stopped him.

"Just fucking go Lex… I don't want fucking deal with you and all your fucking drama. Go fucking be with that fucking dumbass, you'll see he'll be just like Phil and knock you up leaving you to raise his fucking kid by yourself and you'll come running back here in tears. I'm not going to fucking pick up the pieces again Alexis. I sat by once and let you get stomped on by a man who didn't treat you right I ain't gonna do that again." Matt said pushing me away. I just bit my bottom lip and crossed my arms in front of my chest and turned my back to him and the boys and I could hear Josh yelling at Matt.

"Fuck you Matt… you haven't even given Josh a chance.." I muttered as I started to cry.

"What the hell? Really can't you guys just let her be happy for one fucking day." Josh jumped out of the ring and went over to Matt grabbing him by his t-shirt. "If you love her like a fucking sister, like you say you do, why can't you just let her be happy huh? She was happy… she was fucking laughing. When was the last time you saw her happy? If she means so much to you fucking tell me Matt. All she does is cry to me telling me how she feels useless and she has to live with you breathing down her neck about everything. Let her live her fucking life man." I bit my bottom lip as the boys fought.

Jeff looked down at me and sighed, Shannon jumped out of the ring and ran over to me. "What happened?" I just shook my head and mumbled I don't want to talk about it and told him I was going away for a while. "What about Zoe she's got school."

"I'm not going to take Matt's shit!" I snapped and Shannon grabbed my shoulders demanding to know what happened. "Every time I find someone… he has to fucking ruin it. This isn't happening again Shannon…" I pushed my brother away and grabbed Zoe from Jeff. She was crying because she was confused and asked me why Josh and Matt were fighting. I told her I'd explain it to her later.

She nestled her head on my shoulder. Shannon was fallowing me as I walked towards Josh and Matt who were being held apart by Kimo and Greg, asking me the same question over and over again. "Shut up Shan! This is just one big cluster fuck around here! I need to get out for a few days, a week… a month.. who knows if I'll fucking come back." I screamed and Jeff heard me.

"Lexie please, don't leave…" Jeff called as he raced towards me. Zoe was crying harder.

"Mommy please don't make me leave Jeff… I don't wanna leave Jeff." I hushed her before giving her a kiss on the cheek. "Mommy please…"

"Josh… lets go." I called. Josh turned and saw that my eyes were still filled with tears and Zoe was balling her eyes out. He mumbled something as he ran over to us.

"Hey baby girl, don't cry… come here." Josh said softly taking Zoe from my arms and kissing her cheeks. "Baby listen… I'm not Jeff but I love you… you know that. I'd do anything for you and mommy. It's not forever. Just for a few days. Like a vacation. We'll do fun stuff I promise sweet heart." Zoe nodded and wrapped her little arms tightly around Josh's neck.

Jeff went over to my baby and kissed her cheek. "I'll call you every day baby, remember like when I was on the road. I love you Zoe…" Jeff looked up at Josh and patted his arm. "Take care of my girls… they better come back or I'm gonna come to Detroit and bring them back. This isn't going to be Phil all over again you hear. Zoe is like my daughter, I've been there since she was two days old… you aren't going to take her from me man." Josh nodded and I wrapped my arms around Josh and Zoe as Jeff turned to Matt. "When will you fucking learn to keep your God damned mouth shut! You happy now, Zoe and Lexie are going!" Jeff screamed at his brother shoving him.

Josh looked down and me. "You sure this is what you want?" I nodded. "Ok.. lets go." Josh, Zoe and I pilled into my car and Shannon stood at the window as Josh started it.

"I swear to God Josh, you better bring my baby sister and niece back from Detroit in one piece or I will murder you and they will never find the body." Josh told him they were in safe hands and everything would turn out fine, he asked him to return his rental car and he would handle getting our stuff. Shannon said he would as Josh dropped the car into reverse and pulled out.

He reached over and without put his hand on mine. "Hey.." he said softly and I looked over at him. "It'll be alright… I promise." I can only hope I made the right choice as I looked back watching Zoe press her face against the window watching the only family she had known fade into the distance.

"It's just a vacation baby… mama needs to get out of her for awhile. It'll be fun sweetie." I said softly. Zoe just nodded and looked up at me with a questioning glance. I only hope I'm right.