HAPPY
So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah
- happy , leona lewis
Wow , this morning is the same as yesterday...what a surprise...sarcastic much? Oh God,Why me? why should i have sleeping problems? ugh...yeah,it's 7:30 now,but I haven't slept whole night...and ugh again!!!!! ok ok....I have to go to school...yesssssss,I'll see Nini . at last , after this painful ( =) ) weekend I can't wait to see her..at least there will be something new in her life...she's walking beauty and you know what's funny? she doesn't believe me when I say that...come oooon!!!!!!she's tall , she's got some curves,she doesn't have big breasts but she's...mmmm...goooood,oh and she has light green eyes , loooong curvey hair,which is light brown and even blond in some places,but her skin is dark and ofcourse she's smart. and here I am - the biggest oposite of her - small , with no WOW BODY , my hair is veeery dark , I think its black , i'm not shure , I'm shy , not pretty shy , while she's all happy-go-lucky , and i'm lazy as hell!!!!! but our friendship is something special - it's not like BETTER IS DOMINANT or WE ARE THE BEST or something...we are together no matter what...we need each other like air..we have been together since third grade,and we have spent every day together since than!!!! soooo WE ARE TWO PARTS OF ONE WHOLE!!!!!!
OK back to school now...damn school is sooo far away..it takes me at least 30 minutes to get there soooo I'm always late!!!! I have alwayse been a good student with best grades byt these two years...I dont even know what happend...now I'm good only at English,Rushian,Georgian and History of Art...yeah I love art and mythology...whatever..the fact is that I suuuck at Biology...ugh..hate that teacher...ugh...living mummy....
Hell,time is racing!!!!! I'm Tamuna Buadze,ok ok Bua,I am biiid,huuge meloman,but I especially loove hip-hop, I adore black nation,I hate russism,I love movies,and cinemaz,at the moment I have haircut wich suits me ( everyone keeps telling me that) but I'm not fond of it,because I wanted to look like a boy,but anfortunately I look even more like a girl than before.....uuugh..and,oh yes,I want vampires and werewolves exist , and I want to be part of that life,and I want to meet those hazel eyes which....
-"what's up Bu?" uuugh I'll kill him,doesn't matter that he's huuuge and realy nice guy , but hes not handsom nor cute....what a shame!
-"uuummm,nothing,and you?"-eh,bored to death....oh thanks god for bell-"oookey.I'll see u later then.."
-"ok buy Bu".....
English-first class-my favorite!!!It was better last year because I had crush-kind-of-something on one 's name is Toko. loves hip-hop and lil wayne-just like I'm not interested in guys right now , nor in girls...oh and there's other guy Gio but we call him Kikbera ( gotta love georgian ) I wanted him for Nini,ya know,they suit each other...gaddamnit,I forgot about Ika...He is our guy friend,Kikbera's mother's sister's son (=) ) he is totall cutie!!!! ya know,me and Nini were even confused for some time 'cause we didn't know we LOVED him or not...but its past!!!!
uugh...I miss my old life-my old school,my old friends.....uuugh.....
ok,so today was nothing special,huh,happy Nini,smirking Ika, A in English , some problems with my breath ( stupid health ) , stupid teens , bored teachers...at home- computer,screaming mam,annoying grandpa 2, happy grandpa 1, sleeping aunt(I loove her),grandma washing dishes,Patiko ( my father ) at work , my computer ,dreams,music,dreams,crying,,dreams...
Before sleeping I went to the mirror.I looked at my self and sighed! I'm soooo even 5 was a time when I was veery tall for my age but my health sucks big balls,so I allmost stopped growing!!!! I looked at myself and sighed when I relised that I was crying!!!!! goooood!!!!!
"I just wanna be happy! " when I said this suddenly I saw something...I don't know how to explain..It was something white...and than wind blew from nowhere!!! Goood,I'm going crazy...there's no way it was what I thought , I 'm just dreaming waaaay too much!!!! fuck..I'm officialy crazy,perfect...
Oh well,I'm gonna try to sleep now! as I went to bed I lied down and said,again "Just happy" and closed my eyes!!!
kabooom,,,,,,,
ookey I'm gonna try to put some photoes on ma profile
thanks yall(I don't know why but..)
LIL ' BUA