Ch.13 Not Ready.

We entered through the Cullen's backdoor. They were all there. They were surprised to see me awake and out of bed. Alice and Rose came running towards me.

"Leah, you're alive! I was so scared!" The tiny Alice said.

"Geesh I know I'm not a vampire but I'm not fragile either."

"Well the dog had to come rescue you, didn't he?" Rose said smirking. I know this was my way of saying I'm glad you're alive but when I was about to retort Edward came forward.

"Thank you, Leah."

"I didn't do it for you or her, you know."

"Oh I know, but I'd like to thank you regardless." He said smirking. I growled. Was I that obvious? I looked for Jake through the crowd of vampires. He came through the door holding the hand of a very annoyed Renesmee.

"What is all this noise?" She asked in her soprano voice.

"Oh you're awake. I should've known." Oh! That ungrateful little brat. I was going to get her! Terry heard my thoughts because he put a soft but firm hand on my shoulder. Edward seemed annoyed.

"Renesmee, Leah had an accident too. You know trying to save your life, sweetie." Edward told his daughter. Bella hissed.

"Edward, she's tired! I mean Leah shouldn't have making so much noise." God I'll take her, too. Both even though I'm tired as shit but I will take both of them at the same time.

"Leah!" A voice broke my thoughts. It was Jake's voice. A husky and sweet voice I would always recognize. He came forward and swept me off my feet.

"You're awake. I'm so glad." He looked down at me with caring eyes. My heart felt warm. I grabbed his hand led him outside. I stared him. I was about to talk but he cut me off.

"Leah Clearwater, you almost gave me a heart attack! I was so mad. At least you're talking to me. So why are you so happy?" He asked. I was about to reply again when Jake cut me off again.

"And I hate to admit it but it was pretty cool of you trying to save Nessie and all." I wanted to say I didn't do it for you but I actually did save her life just for him. I smiled and blushed.

"Jake, Terry broke the imprint!" I told him loudly. He looked at me in shock.

"Huh?"

"Do I need to spell it out for you? Terry broke the imprint!" I told him happily.

"That's amazing!" He told me and hugged me again.

"I know, right? We can finally, you know, go out." Jake's face fell a little and he avoided making eye contact. This should be great news, right? Wrong. He groaned and I let go of him.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.

"Leah, I… ugh I can't leave Renesmee right now." He told me. I knew I should've stopped there and just suck it up, but then again I'm Leah Clearwater I have to fight for what I want.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Because she's perturbed by the whole incident so she needs me more than ever, she needs a protector. The more she needs me the stronger the imprint becomes."

"You're a human being, not a body guard!" I hissed.

"I know I'm sorry." He said with an apologetic expression. I didn't like it seemed to me like he was giving up.

"Jake you're not even fucking trying!" I said.

"Yes I'm trying." He said annoyed.

"No you're not!" I growled.

"Yes I am but the pull is just strong."

"Nothing is too strong if you fight for it. So fight for it Jake, or am I not good enough?" I questioned.

"Leah, I'm trying!" He told me.

"Well then don't be a wimp and try harder!"

"Oh don't give me this crap! You didn't fight for me. Is not like my imprint is just suddenly going to break the imprint for me."

"I fought, and fought hard. And at least my imprint is not a selfish bitch!" I yelled back.

"Oh stop it, Leah! Right now is my job to protect Renesmee. So watch what you say."

"She's a bitch."

"Leah, I'm about to lose my temper." He warned. Too bad I already lost mine.

"She's a fucking selfish bitch, a crime against nature, an abomination, a cross-breed, a mutt even more so than you; she's just as helpless as her stupid mom. But apparently you like stupid and helpless girls so you want both of them." He tackled me and I hit the ground pretty hard. My head was still a bit fragile from last time. Okay I'm understating it. My head hurt like a bitch. Tears were forming on my eyes both of outrage and pain, Jacob looked at me with crazy eyes; this Jacob wasn't mine this was her Jacob. My Jacob finally came back, regret forming on his eyes. I pushed him off. But before I could get up I see an angry Terry looking at Jacob.

"Leah…I'm…" before he finishes his sentence he was sent flying by Terry's hand.

"How dare you?! After she put herself in danger just trying to save Renesmee. She was brave, she was strong. Yet you're still in denial." Terry punched Jacob's face and blood came pouring out his face.

"Two, you never raised a hand against an injured person. That's just wrong; I was born in the 40s! And we didn't treat ladies like that in our time, either." He growled and I could see his temper rise.

"Please don't." I whispered. He looked at me. Jacob stood up a few feet away from us.

"I'm sorry Leah, I deserve this and more." Jake said sadly. I wanted to yell so many things at once. I was in no estate to talk to Jake.

"I'll see you later, Black." I said coldly. I tugged on Terry's arm like a lost child.

"Can we go to my house?" I asked.

"Don't you want to get your things?" He asked. I shook my head no. He carried me and ran all the way to my house. We were at my house within a few minutes. I opened the door and led Terry inside. I went into the hallway and opened the room that was in front of me. I smiled sadly.

"This was my parent's room, is now a guest room. You can move in there, well you can get rid of the bed if you want." I turned and go to my room without saying another word. I slammed the door and threw myself on my bed. The silent tears rolled down my cheeks. I finally broke down after years of holding everything in. I was never good enough, not matter what I do. Life would always try to throw me back, to never have my happy ending. I slept for a while until there was a noise on my window. I walked towards my window and was surprised to see someone standing on the tree.

"Hey, I thought I might cheer you up."

"You know you could've knocked on my door, right?" I said smiling.

"Well where's the fun in that?" He asked me. I laughed softly. It felt good.

"Okay so can I come on in?"

"Sure." Terry jumped from the tree and landed swiftly on my bedroom floor.

"So what are you doing here?"

"We're best friends and I heard best friends have sleep over's." He said with a wicked grin.

"Fine. You can stay." I said. He looked at me seriously and open his arms wide open. I gave in and fell into his arms sobbing. He pets my head.

"Its okay, Lee. He'll come around you just have to wait." He told me softly.

"You just have to fight for it." He looked at me smiling. I smiled back and he wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Dammit, why are vampires so freaking insightful?" I asked. We both laughed. I knew this wasn't going to be easy and I knew I'll lose my tempers lots of time but I swore I would get Jacob Black.

A/N: Thanks everyone for the reviews, they always make my day. Lol I loved Kei Kat Jone's review her was almost as long as the chapter =) Well I hope you guys enjoy this chapter is a bit sad but they are not getting together that easy. Read and Review but most of all enjoy!