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"Talking"

'Thinking'

Talking to self (thoughts)

Author's note: Omg…I am so sorry to everyone that originally reviewed chapter nine. I forgot fan you know what dot net would not let you review it again. I was like, o.O; okay, they made sniper threats and they are not reviewing! Well anyway heh, sorry about that. Many of you got Reject code 3 XD. Omg…again…there are only 7 chapters in this story…hmmness so that means 2 author notes okies disregard the Chapter 8 thingy in chapter SEVEN the chapter before this! Gomen!

You never know what you have until you loose it

Chapter 8: A long journey through the heart

Please be okay Kagome….

From the heart of many

The trip through the old portal was nauseas to Jaken, mainly because he was changing; Sesshomaru changed Jaken so that he looked like a normal teenaged boy. This was less repelling.

The little toad actually looked handsome, and needless to say, kinda cute. Although the portal was affecting the toad's appearance, Jaken had the ability, thanks to Sesshomaru, to change shapes any time.

Though Jaken had the power he was not a normal shape shifter, he could only change into two shapes. A repelling toad or a lady-killer.

Well I am terrible sorry for those of you whom have just spit out your drinks. Now, clean up and let us continue shall we? We shall. ( A/n Feelin abit English today)

Sesshomaru could only gaze down at the lifeless Kagome, he wanted to kill, but it was his fault. He wanted to get mad and yell at someone, but it was his fault. He wanted to sink his claws into the person who did this and make him beg for sweet mercy but…

It was his fault…

Many thoughts rushed through his head, 'What will she think of me? What happened back there? Will she ever forgive me? What…have…I …done…' Sesshomaru was becoming very frustrated with, need he say it? Himself.

From afar, a tint of light could be seen. The light that in Tokyo you could pearly see for it was covered in gasses and all the CFCs.

It was as if the sun was pulling him out of the darkness. The sun's gaze was like god's hands trying to pull him to safety. Sesshomaru accepted them warmly closing his eyes and tiling his head upward sinking in all the warmth the sun was allowing him.

After a while, Sesshomaru's moment of peace was slowly becoming extinct as the western lands came into view. Kaede showed Sesshomaru how to make a well in his own house. It was like a slight portal that only he knew how to open.

It was as if he was in a track meet, just when he step foot out of the well it was like the (in my mom's own words XD) idiot that stands out there and says on your march, get set, go! Shot the gun and Sesshomaru was off like a bullet.

Rin stood there looking confused when the Tayoukai flew past him ruffling her dress in the process. Rin reacted quickly by putting her dress down. During her adolescent years in Tokyo Sesshomaru taught Rin some modesty.

Otherwise, in that country you were labeled a hooker. Not much of a difference from feudal Japan. In feudal Japan, you were just labeled a whore and not lady like.

"Jaken, where is Lord Sesshomaru going?" Rin questioned the toad.

"Sesshomaru is probably going to fetch the tenseiga to heal the nigen" Jaken said his frogy tone fading in and out.

"Jaken…what is the matter with your voice?" Rin said looking at him strangely

"I have to adjust, stop asking me so many questions woman!" Jaken said storming of to his quarters.

"Jeez, you'd think the dude would just chill a bit." Rin said rolling her

A maid passing stopped and looked at Rin like she was crazy with wide eyes.

"Um…like what are you looking at? You are like being totally rude. Omg, now you are like so making me sound all preppy jeez will everyone just like chill ugh!" Rin said stomping off to her quarters.

The poor maid fainted dropping the towels she was caring.

"Lord Naraku, it seems Lord Sesshomaru has disappeared." Kanna said searching in her mirror for the lord.

Even though her mirror allows her to see many things, it does not allow her to see the past or the future.

"What do you mean disappeared?" Naraku said standing up slamming his fist on the desk immediately breaking it. "No one just disappears! I want Sesshomaru found and I want him found now! No one will interrupt in my plans." Naraku said furious.

"It seems the young miko, Kagome is gone too. Killed by Sesshomaru." Kanna said backing away some fearful of her masters temper.

A flash of Onigumo's went though his eyes, Onigumo's eyes were wide and worried. Naraku tried to control the feelings that were rushing though his veins.

"Well, this changes everything. You are dismissed Kanna. Have my insects search for Lord.Sesshoamru. Bring him back to me, alive." Naraku hissed adding ice to Sesshomaru's name.

Sesshomaru revived Kagome soon as he got the chance. However, something was wrong. With out giving it a second thought he called the nurse.

The nurse came running in at the sound her her masters long forgotten voice. "Oh Lord Sesshomaru, I am so glad that you have returned! What shall I assist you with?"

Sesshomaru motioned towards Kagome. "I…killed her, though I tried to revive her, mind you not she did revive, its just…well look at her." The pitiful youkai said trying to hold what strength he had. You know what they say….only the weak cry.

"Well Milord…" The maid said walking around Kagome moving her finger back and forth watching as the miko brainlessly followed it. "It seems you have revived the body, but not the soul-

"What?" Sesshomaru cut in worriedly. "Did I wait too long to revive her?"

"No…not really, if she was not to be revived then the sword would not have revived her. She truly has some meaning in this world. However, it seems that she was in a very sad state when she "died". It seems that all she needs now is emotional healing." The doctor said grabbing her things.

"There is nothing more I can do." The maid placed a clawed hand on the lord's shoulder. "But there is a many you can do."

"Thank you, you are excused." Sesshomaru said watching the doctor as she departed.

When the doctor was gone, Sesshomaru walked around the bed over to Kagome, watching as the miko followed him with her lifeless eyes.

"Tell me, Kagome." Sesshomaru said casually. "Do you know where you are?"

Silence

"Do you know what happened to you? Sesshomaru said trying to control his heart rate.

Silence

"Do you know who you are?

Silence

"Do you remember anything?"

Silence

"Do you know who I am?"

Nod

Sesshomaru's heart skipped a beat. "Okay, well that's a start.""Are you hungry?"

Silence

"Don't be shy, can you talk any?"

"Yes, Sesshomaru-sama" Kagome said barely audible.

"Alright then," Sesshomaru said trying to control his smile. "What would you like to eat?"

"I'm not hungry…but-" Kagome cut off unsure of herself.

"But?" Sesshomaru questioned.

"Is there any water?" Kagome said softer her voice crispy.

"I'll have some fetch for you right away." Sesshomaru said.

Before he could even shape his mouth to call for a maid Kagome interrupted him.

"No. No…I can get it." Kagome said getting out of the bed quickly, only to stumble to her knees.

Sesshomaru was there in a flash to catch her. Sesshomaru could feel her heart rate, proof itself she was alive. Kagome looked over at Sesshomaru, a few memories coming back to her.

Flash back

"Hmm….I must be sky diving. This the most realistic dream ever!" she said happily.

Sesshomaru appeared at her side smirking.

"Um Kagome." He said tapping her shoulder.

"Hey Sesshomaru! You're in my dream too?" She squealed happily.

"Um…no…this isn't a dream…I just dropped you to wake you up…but it seems that you're still sleeping so I'll just let you sleep." he said innocently then stopped in mid air and watch as she fall.

It took a moment for all this to register in her mind.

"I'M UP! I'M UP!" she yelled, as she was about 1 foot from the ground. "Sesshomaru!" she screamed.

He caught her exactly one-inch from the hard rock concrete.

"Holy shit." Were Kagome's last words then everything went black

End Flash Back

"Pushing a lady off a very high building is not very nice." Kagome said pouting some gaining some life back in her eyes.

"Wha-" Sesshomaru remembered when she would not get up and he pushed her off the building. "You remembered…."

"Yes…I do…" Kagome said softly.

"And…" As much as he hated to ask, he knew he had. "Inuyasha? Do you remember him?" Sesshomaru asked reluctantly.

"I try not too…" Kagome said looking away.

Sesshomaru lifted his hand to caress her, but when he did so, she flinched causing him to stop half way and pull away.

"I'm sorry…" Sesshomaru said standing up. "Your water will be delivered to-

"But I can get it Sesshomaru-sama." Kagome said softly.

Sesshomaru stayed silent for a moment. Just staring deeply into her eyes.

"Sesshomaru-sama?" Kagome called uneasily.

"How can you call me that after I…I…- I'm sorry. Your water will be delivered you are to stay here until I find a guard to keep watch on you. You are not home anymore you are in feudal Japan. I will talk to you later at Noon." Sesshomaru said walking out of the room.

"But-" Kagome said softly, sighing when Sesshomaru did not stop in his tracks closing the door behind him.

From the outside, knocking could be heard.

"Come in" Kagome called.

"Lady Kagome I have you water." A young boy called.

'Wow that was quick…' Kagome thought taking the water saying her thanks.

"Thank you Lady Kagome, Lord Sesshomaru said to hurry." The boy said quickly.

"Did you just…" Kagome started

"Read your mind?" The boy questioned with a look of triumph on his face.

"Yes…" Kagome said looking him over.

"Yes Lady Kagome, I did it is one of my abilities." The boy said proudly.

"Please don't call me Lady Kagome, Kagome is just fine." Kagome said looking away.

'It's not like I need any title of honor.' She thought sadly.

"Non-sense Kagome! Don't ever think that way you are a pretty lady, and I already respect you very much!" the young boy chirped.

"No you don't…" Kagome said half-flattered.

"Okay I don't." The boy said hopping on to the bed." I just said it to make you feel better."

Kagome's brows dropped slightly. "Quiet the honest critter aren't you?"

"Well I don't know what a k…k…critter is, but I believe that everyone should be honest my father always lies to my mother, she knows he sleeps around but she doesn't do anything about it because he always threatens her. Even I tell her he is lying." The young boy lowered his head recalling memories of his father yelling at his mother and knocking her to the ground.

"Tell me…" Kagome said interrupting his train down memory lane." What is your name?"

"My name is Mindero." Mindero said forcing a smile. "I believe we have something in common Ms. Kagome…"

"What might that be Mindero?" Kagome said forcing a smile as well.

"We have both been hurt very much," Mindero, said walking toward the down and stopping in-between the door. "And we both force smiles." Mindero said departing.

Kagome stared at the door for a while letting what Mindero said sink in. The young boy read her like a book. Kagome stood up realizing she was still on the floor. The feeling in her legs had returned some.Kagome sighed happily thanking Sesshomaru for putting her in a room with a view of the ocean. It was truly beautiful. The way the moon just lightly lay on the ocean water as if a child would a pillow.As if the water belonged to the Moon and the Sun, surely you could not just go out there and lie on the water, float maybe if you had demonic powers. Though, not truly. The waves rush against each other as if they are playing tag.

With no care in the world. When Kagome got down to thinking about it. The ocean is the only really thing with no care in the world. If you go in it, it will either help you, or let you sink. Many of her friends have no perfect life.

Ever since Miroku went to America he came back a completely different person, Sango cannot seem to get him to love her completely and make his move. She smacks him because that is what any modest girl would do. Though what she really wants, he to do is take control of her.

That is what girls are supposed to do of course. Play aggressive and try to be dominate but it is the male whom they really want to be dominated by. Because of their childishness and not getting to the point, Miroku is slipping away from her.

Shippou, well we all know about Shippou he lost his parents at a very young age. Any child that has to go through this has to be strong, yet very sadden.

Inuyasha…Inuyasha…what about Inuyasha? What is happening to him? What Kagome though would be true contentment is nothing but a lie. Maybe she could not be like Kikyou, it really is not her place. It is not as if Kikyou hurt Inuyasha with intent.

"It is time for me to grow up," Kagome whispered to herself. "Inuyasha belongs with Kikyou, whether I like it or not. I am going to have to find a way on my own. And learn to be strong." Kagome sighed.

"But…" Sesshomaru cut in. "You are already very strong, all you need…" he walked over to her placing his hand on her heart surprised when she didn't flinch. "All you need is healing."

Sesshomaru looked deeply into her eyes. Kagome felt like he had put her on some sort of spell. Her knees felt weak she could barely stand.

"And I…am more than willing to do that Kagome, I made a huge mistake hitting you like that, it was instint…I could not control it. But I will tell you this…" Sesshomaru ran a clawed hand against her pale cheek. "I will never…ever…touch you like that again nor let anyone touch you like that."

"Sesshomaru…" Kagome whispered moving closer to him.

The words Sesshomaru were telling her made it seem like he was her angel, all she wanted to do at the moment was grab hold to him and never let him go.

Sesshomaru leaned down to place a small kiss on her lips, a small kiss that went from shyly, to wanting. Before they knew it they were caught up in a passionate kiss.

"Let me protect you Kagome…be mine…" Sesshomaru whispered into the kiss.

"Please Sesshomaru…don't leave me…" Kagome said breaking into sobs. "Everyone leaves me…I think I have something, then its all gone."

"Shh.." Sesshomaru sat on the bed and placed her in his lap. "I will never…let you go Kagome, I will fight for you and die with honor for you." Sesshomaru stroked her hair placing small kisses on her.

When he first met Kagome she was a very tough and spirtual girl. If he would of followed his instint and took her right then and there she would not be like this. He saw an Angel, happy and carefree. Then others got a hold to her and put her into a box and sent her to him, like an old toy. Broken and torn.

Though, she will not remain broken and torn for long, he has a lot to do, a heart to mend and a soul to replenish. She will be loved, by him and he will put this ''old toy'' together again, and place it in his heart, to never be crushed again.

Who knows, maybe he will get lucky and mend his own heart in the process. Sesshomaru's thoughs were interrupted by her sobbing.

"Shh…" he said once more rocking her lightly. "Just cry…use your tears to replenish your soul, and I will use my love to mend your heart."

"Sesshomaru…" Kagome looked at him in awe. She moved up once more to kiss him gently on the lips.

Sesshomaru accepted it warmly. Sesshomaru leaned back onto the bed bringing her with him their lips still locked together.Sesshomaru wraped his arms around her waist.

"I love you…" Sesshomaru said causing Kagome's heart to skip a beat.

No one had never told her they loved her, well except her mom, Shippou and Sango. Maybe…maybe that's what she's been missing. Love, even though she claimed she loved Inuyasha, he would never reply it back to her. Even though she claimed she loved her father, he would never reply it back to her either.

So, love…she's loved, but she's never been loved. First time for everyting…

"I love you too Sesshomaru…I love you too." Kagome said nuzzling into his cheast.

Just when those words escaped her mouth something inside of Kagome pulsed. Sesshomaru held her protectively wraping his tail around her.When Kagome was fast asleep he whispered something into her ear.

"And I will never let you and our child…go."

Author's note: Well . this is to all the reviewers that couldn't review. This is my sorry note to you all. Goemn xD its kinda funny though. Well anyway! If that ever happens again you can just email me my email is in my profile, or you can im me on yahoo. Please warn me if you're going to im me on msn or aim because I am never on those. -cough cough-

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