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*Liars go to HELL!* ToT

Memoirs of the Dead

"Under the flexible foreign exchange rate, scenario devaluation has become redundant". Comment upon the statement.

Tch! Was she really required to answer such stupid questions? This was University level? Pitiful. Oh well, she still needed to do it, because it was homework and needed to be submitted the next day. And really… Did the pen have to give out now?

Gritting her teeth, she got up to rummage in one of the boxes still lying near the bedroom door. She hadn't gotten around to unpacking completely; it was boring and laborious like hell! She lifted the flaps of a few boxes and finally found one which contained her stationery. Thrusting one hand into the mass of books and erasers and stapler pins and calculators, she groped around for an ink bottle. Her fingers found something that felt like the bottle and she pulled it out. As it came free of the rest of the stuff, she noticed a red ribbon – a bookmark of sorts – caught between her thumb and the bottle being pulled out. A brown leather covered diary tumbled out of the box and fell into her lap. Her eyes grew wide.

The resounding sound of silence filled the whole house. The whisper of paper sounded unnaturally loud. She flicked through the pages of a leather-bound diary, just like she had done a million times before – it was nothing new, and, more importantly, the owner of the diary was dead and so would not probably mind.

Her baby sister had had a horrible handwriting. It was giving her a headache to read through. And no dates either. What was the point of a diary without dates?

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"They are dirty people. It was right of Oneechan to tell about it to father and have them thrown out. They really deserved it. No one respects people like that, no matter how good they are. I remembered seeing people like him when I was a little girl. Everyone avoided them like the plague. They didn't even keep their voices low as they pointed at those tainted people. It was bad enough that they lived with us for over a year; it will take us so long to do penance for this extended contact with them. Thank goodness that the wedding did not go through. Otherwise, I would have been equally tainted. I never want to be one of them! It was right of Oneechan, it was right , it was right!"

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"Ukyou sent me a letter. She is marrying him. Ukyou-no-baka! Why is she marrying him? She says she'll make him a Kuonji and remove the taint. Bad blood is bad blood! A name can change nothing! And why the hell does she want to taint herself as well? This is foolish! I can't let her do that! I'm going to stop her from marrying him! I won't let him marry her! I'm going to go! I have asked Oneechan and she says it's okay for me to go. I'll stop this marriage at any cost! It's wrong! Just so wrong!"

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"I saw him. He was marrying her. He did not look happy. Or sad. Or angry. Or anything. He did not look anything. He… he was… hollow… Hollow… His eyes looked… dead… I, I couldn't say anything. He married her. In front of me. They kissed, even. She kissed him. And when they walked past me, she said to me, 'You are a monster.'

I am a monster? Me? ME? I tried to save her! I tried to stop her from ruining her life! And I'm the monster? He would not even look at me! I was right there, and she was calling me a monster and he did not even stop her! He always stopped them from hurting me before, but he did not even stop her… And she was hugging him... She had her arm around him... She didn't care what stain it smeared on her!"

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"Why could she hug him? Why could she hold him? Why could she be near him? Why? Why couldn't I? Why couldn't I? Why? Why? WHY? They said he was a Burakumin! They said his family was like shit! They said I couldn't go near him! That if I did, I'd no more be a part of my family! I'd lose everyone! I'd lose my father! I'd lose my sisters! My friends! I'd lose my honor! My name! I'd be no one! Nothing! Without my family and friends, I'm nothing at all! But… but, I saw him getting married to her… And I, I… He's gone… Forever… And I can't get him back… He doesn't even want to come back, maybe… I'll never see him again… Never… I'll always be… be… without him… Without him, I—

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She had closed the diary abruptly. It was time for dinner.

She stared at the leather-bound face of the diary like it was an alien. Slowly, she picked it up and tossed it into a corner. She didn't even know why she had brought it with her from home, but it was probably a decision made while in the clutches of sleep. She did not need unnecessary clutter in her new house. She would throw that thing out with the trash first thing in the morning.

=.=" Am I the only one who thinks that the pattern is getting repetitive?

Nabiki sees something, she stiffens in rememberance, sad memories follow, Nabiki snaps back to reality and shrugs them off... =.="

Okay, I need to get more creative... .

Please review, and any suggestions would be welcome~ ^o^