NOTE/ ok folks this is it, i know i should have waited a few more days to put it up but i just had to get it all out, ive worked really hard on these two chapters please let me know what you think and recommend this story to any of your friends thank you xoxox
Her eyes rove desperately
Her head twists like a frightened horse in your hands
'No, please no'
She murmurs, her breath warm against your face
Tears bleeding down her cheeks and landing softly splashing on snow
But still you insist
Time is running out faster and faster
Soon you will be only hatred and violence again
WHY can she see
God you want to SHAKE her
FUCKING Listen
Listen to me
No, no she cannot do this
She cannot do what he is asking of her
Not now that she has rediscovered her love, her meaning for life again
How can she give that up
How?
But his fingers are digging into her, bruising her flesh
She can see the determination ticking in his jaw
Feel the intensity rolling of him like heat waves
And he is begging her
Oh god
Begging
She is losing grip
She can't lose him again
She has shaken you to the core
And eternal life means nothing to you now
If it is without love
The snow is whipping around them
A cold white veil of lace and frost
As you stand in a lovers embrace
She trembles in your arms
Her cherry lips quivering
And more gently now
You stroke her salt washed cheekbones
Bend your head til your forehead touches her
Do you honestly want this
Yes, yes you do
You can feel the darkness coming back, creeping through your veins
Like blackened poison ivy
It has to be
You know she is strong enough, she always has been
And she is your last hope for humanity
There is no going back for you
You have tasted her nectar
Felt her soft supple skin next to yours
Her body moving with yours, bringing you to heaven and back again
But now, what once was is dust and bones
Irreversible and unchangeable
And you have held her heart in your hand for too long
She deserves so much more than you can give
you have nothing to offer her now
But freedom
From pain, from a life of damnation
It is too late for you
But for her there is still hope
Please
You whisper
Please, you can do this
My love, Roza
Give me back my innocence
Her hands are wet and slippery
The silver stake seems burn red her grasp
The cold wind is biting at her cheeks and ears
She can hear the rushing of water and breaking of ice below her in the ravine
And the very air its self seem to hum with some electric energy
Agitation, anticipation?
Her brain is beating against her skull
And her skin feels to tight to hold her together
How can she even contemplate doing this
But he is there, has hand stroking her hair
Whispering intimately in her ears, that ever constant word
Please
And she feels she may scream from all that is weighing her down
And all the while he is still asking her, persuading her in his velveteen voice
She knows this is real; this is what has to be done
All evil must come to an end
But when he is gone
And the world is right again
What is left of her
Will be broken fragments of a whole
She is shaking violently
Soaking your chest with her grief
So fragile, like a tiny thin boned bird
Wanting to lift to the sky
Shhh, shhh
You murmur as you rock her in your arms as if she was a new born child
It's going to be alright
Its fine
Its fine
Slowly, softly
Her cries seem to ease
She sucks in air deeply; you can hear it hissing into her lungs
And she lowers her eyes from you scrutiny
You gently stroke her pink flimsy eyelids
Watching her sticky wet eyelashes cast spidery shadows on her cheeks
And you bend and kiss her sorrow soaked lips
As you slip you tongue inside, tasting her beauty one last time
You slide your hand down her arm, to where the stake hangs limply
And you connect your fingers with her, closing in on the coldness of the metal
She gasps, going still, frozen
And she looks up at you
Not with defiance, but with so much trust and love
And pain, always pain
You touch your lips to hers again
Salt and sweetness and sadness
You feel that last bit of love, a burning flame in your heart
It is her, and it will be her for ever after
I will always love you
She gasps against your mouth
And you're so caught up in her, so consumed with each other
You do not know whose hand it was
That pushed the sharp needle point of death
Into your chest
Your body is filled with cold, numbness and warmth at the same time
And as you begin to fall
You whisper with the voice of the wind
'That was what I was supposed to say'
She cries out
A cry of desperation and loss
As she feels the impact of metal and bone and flesh
And there is no pain in his eyes
Only peace and love, and awe
As he stumbles from her embrace and falls over the edge
He is as graceful as an eagle
Soaring through the sky
Falling down
Faster and faster
Until he is just a speck against the backdrop of rushing river
Until she cannot see him any more
She drops to her knees
Scratching at the snow with numb fingers
And screams into the lightening sky
Until there is nothing left inside of her
Until her chest is tight and her lungs burn
As the rising sun bleeds red over her back
Sun- break
Heart ache
She sobs and shudders
As she spills forth her incredible sorrow, her pain, her lost love
Onto the ground
Until there is only relief left
It is finally over