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I screamed into the pillow and heard several other screams I looked up and Emmett flickered the lights on and paused the movie.

"Fuck" I said aloud I forgot that I was on the couch and not in my bedroom everyone was looking at me for an answer I decided to ignore them and looked at my phone to see that it was late the next night holy crap. I slept for almost 24 hours stupid drugs messing with my sleeping habits. I saw that they were watching Paranormal activity no wonder why they screamed when I screamed I must have startled them.

"What the hell Bella?" Emmett said interrupting my thoughts I just ignored him and got up from the couch but quickly sat back down winced and swore underneath my breath. I looked at Edward and Tanya of course they were on the love seat together but when I looked at Edward I could see a hint of worry in his eyes but he quickly put on a mask so that his face was blank probably hoping that Tanya didn't notice but she did, she looked between me and Edward and started to kiss him furiously just to "remind" me that he was hers and Edward was never going to be with me again. I abruptly got up I'd rather be in physical pain than watch them make-out, I went to the kitchen and threw the now non-frozen watery peas in the trash. There was a knock at the door hopefully it is Jake.

I was going to get the door but Jasper got there first I looked to see that it was a police officer with the name tag Joe shit the same Joe that I kicked in the balls? The same Joe that tazored me?

"Is Isabella Swan here?" Joe asked Jasper

"Wait a minute." Jasper said to Joe and I mentioned to Jasper to tell him that I'm not here.

"Yeah she's here she'll be right there." Jasper said in a Cheery voice and I groaned and walked to the door and Jasper said to me.

"That's what you get when you mess with my girl." As childish as it was I just wanted to stick my tongue out at him.

"Yea hey um Joe." I said

"Isabella Swan sign here." Joe said while handing me a clip board and the paper was basically saying that they took the drug out of my truck and now are returning my truck back to me blah blah blah blah blah.

"Here's your keys" Joe sneered and gave my keys to me and I saw my truck was in the driveway. I shut the door and I'm going to do the best thing I can do get drunk.

12 Drunken hours later…

I awoke in a hazy fog ugh I was in my truck parked outside the house hopefully I didn't have any confrontations. I looked in my journal to see what happened but the page was blank shit I must have been really drunk. It was about 9:30 in the morning and I took a shower and what I saw shocked me It was a white bandage just above the waist of my jeans on my left side just left below my belly button.

After I got out of the shower I took off the bandage curious to see what was underneath it I gasped when I took off the bandage it was a tattoo medium size in black cursive writing it said Edward Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck! How stupid am I?!?!?! I put on dark blue skinny jeans with a black tee shirt and a grey zip up hoodie with the E necklace tucked into my shirt as always. I know why am I wearing clothes that aren't all black well that's because, all of my black sweats, pants, and sweatshirts are dirty.

Note to self do the laundry and get tattoo removed wait doesn't it hurt 100 times more getting a tattoo removed oh I know get drunk then get tattoo removed genius! My side didn't hurt from the tazor anymore yay! I went downstairs and started to pour some cereal I saw Tanya, Rosalie, and Alice laughing too loud the kind of laugh were they are trying to show me how much I'm missing out on. They became quiet and glared at me then whispered and looked over at me and me being me I flipped them off and they looked away but Rosalie said just loud enough for me to hear

"I knew she was a slut but I can't believe that she got knocked up at 18!" All of them giggled and I stopped pouring the cereal my heart just dropped and my whole body tensed up. How-how did they know the only people that knew was Renee, Phil, Charlie, and Emmett. Emmett realization hit me that jackass. I am pissed beyond pissed off. I stormed upstairs and started looking in the rooms for Emmett. I opened the door next to my door Edward's room and there was Jasper, Edward, and Emmett playing video games. I looked on Edwards dresser and saw XL condoms ugh he has such a huge ego. (An: hahahahahahhahahahahahhahaha)

"Emmett" I said but he ignored me pretending like I wasn't even there.

"Emmett" I said with more force but he didn't budge. I took the TV remote and turned off the TV. Edward, Jasper, and Emmett glared at me

"What is your problem?" Emmett asked me

"Wh-How-ugh-I" I said I was so pissed that I couldn't even talk

"Are you drunk?" Emmett asked I closed my eyes to try to calm myself down then opened them.

"No Emmett I am not drunk" I said trying to keep my voice steady

"How could you do that to me?" I continued Everyone had a questioning look on their faces

"Emmett can I talk to you in private?" I hinted and Jasper and Edward left shutting the door after them but were probably still outside.

"I don't know how many hospital meds that I was hopped up on which must have been a lot since I trusted you." I said pissed my voice was high then comprehension flickered across Emmett's face.

"How could you do that to Edward and Rosalie?" Emmett asked

"Damn it Emmett why do you always have to bring that up in every conversation we have?" I yelled at him and he was silent but I decided to interrupt the silence and asked why did he tell Rosalie he responded by saying

"Because, she asked about why you said when you were drunk that I was just like Charlie when I didn't visit you."

"Oh so if someone asks you that makes it ok to tell someone about one of the hardest event that I had to deal with in my life? And then I had to hear Rosalie laugh about it!" I said to Emmett furiously

"Rose wouldn't do that." Emmett snapped back defensively

"Ok Emmett I'm so freakin tired of you treating me like crap. I'm over this" I said holding my hands up in surrender and opened the door and pushed through Edward and Jasper.

I practically ran down stairs and out the doors and drove my truck to somewhere I never had gone before and should have gone earlier. Carter's grave…

(An: I was going to end it here but I want to keep writing)

I went to Carter's grave and after a little while I found his grave Carter Edward Swan I sat next to his grave and just sat there.

"Carter, Carter Edward Swan" I said aloud

"I'm sorry for not visiting you but I want you to know that-that" My voice was thick with tears but I continued "That from the first time I see you on the ultra sound I loved you I wish that you were here with me. Honestly I'd rather you be here than me. I miss you. I would have been a great mom always putting you first and and-" I said aloud but I burst into tears and laid down next to the grave and a few hours it started to rain but I could care less.

2 days later…

I haven't went back to the house since mine and Emmett's argument I was still at Carter's grave going sometimes to eat and etc. I got up and went back to the house when I got home Emmett and Edward was in the kitchen.

"Where the hell were you Bella?" He asked and noticed that I was dripping wet and in the same clothes as I was in last time I saw him

"Really Emmett are we going to start this again?" I said and went upstairs to take a much needed shower and got changed I cut my arm a little too much but I needed it I was in too much pain. I bandaged the cuts up and wrote into my journal

Dear Diary,

So the usual happened in the past days Rosalie was a bitch and Emmett was an asshole I can't believe that he would tell Rosalie that I was pregnant so pissed off right now. And I visited Carter's grave for the first time and it was something that I needed to do and did I mention Edward has a huge ego?

From, A pissed off Bella

I went downstairs and out the door to my truck and went over Jacob's house When he opened the door he hugged me and picked me up over his shoulder and bought me in his house.

"Jake" I giggled and he put me down on his couch we joked around for a little bit and then he took me outside to his garage and showed me a motorcycle and I whistled and Jacob laughed.

"Wanna ride it?" Jacob asked

"Hell yes!" I said

"Wait I don't know how to ride a motorcycle." I said and Jacob laughed

"Don't worry Bells I'll drive you just hold onto my waist." Jake said Jacob got on then I got on and put my hands on his waist and the engine roared which startled me. The motorcycle ride was smooth and we stopped at this beach I saw a pack of shirtless guys jumping off of a cliff and Jacob noticed who I was staring at.

"What are they doing?" I asked

"Cliff diving a total adrenaline rush." Jacob said

"I have never jumped off that cliff I usually jump off the mini ones. But stay away from Sam and his gang." Jacob said

"Why?" I asked

"They're bad news Bella even I'm scared of them." Jacob said and I nodded knowing that he wanted to drop the conversation. Jacob gave me a ride back to my house and promised to drop off my tuck back at the house he hugged me before I went back inside and Edward was about to go out the door with Tanya and I swore I saw a hint of jealously in his eyes but I must have been mistaken Edward hates me.

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